i quit twitch streaming
In my first podcast, I end 2020 with a brutally honest reflection over the past 4 years being a twitch affiliate and streamer. I talk about what I've learned, my regrets, advice, and delve into common streaming topics such as streamer twitter, toxic viewers, etc. Streaming not only amplified my anxiety disorder, but it also fed toxic patterns of comparison, lack of self-care, and obsession. I am so done with streaming, time to focus on myself. Happy new year!
TIMESTAMPS
00:00:00 Podcast Intro
00:02:21 My Streaming Journey / History
00:04:31 How I Got Into Mental Health Content
00:06:04 finding my niche & using twitch strike
00:04:31 why streaming was toxic for me
00:07:15 being a Smaller Streamer (less than 15 avg viewers)
00:07:40 being raided with 10k+ by lilchiipmunk (first giant raid)
00:09:10 streaming was a 'waste' of my time
00:09:24 my mistake was NOT diversifying from Twitch, I even tried Mixer
00:10:20 being an attractive girl on Twitch / showing boobs / Twitch 'thots'
00:12:35 Twitch TOS is a joke... + favoritism
00:13:41 streamer twitter & my regrets
00:17:50 hyper focus on followers / numbers & hypocrisy
00:18:32 streaming as a hobby vs for growth, "being the next pokimane"
00:19:21 streaming = marketing & I fucking hate it :)
00:20:27 streaming is manipulative (the parasocial problem of streaming)
00:23:20 boundaries and vulnerability
00:24:20 codependency among viewers & streamers
00:25:55 toxic viewers and Twitch trolls, large streamers
00:26:53 why it felt harder as a smaller streamer
00:27:57 being obese & in the spotlight
00:28:54 codependency with viewers dumping emotions
00:29:49 streaming is community management + minecraft & jackbox nightmares
00:30:37 streaming is like masochism LUL
00:31:56 how i quit, it was REALLY hard...
00:36:26 toxic patterns, comparison, & validation
00:37:15 streaming felt like a popularity contest
00:38:28 dealing with guilt of disappointment for ourselves / community
00:39:55 follow for follow (f4f) communities Twitch Kittens, Team Emmmsie, etc & "networking"
00:40:24 streaming made it hard to have fun offline...
00:42:23 best memories in streaming
00:44:06 worst moments in streaming
00:44:41 my regrets from streaming
00:45:32 advice i'd give to others
00:45:56 should you quit?
00:44:41 advice i'd give to others