Who Am I Without the Chaos?

Who Am I Without the Chaos?

For years, I thought I was chasing peace. But when life finally started to slow down, I realized something I never expected… Peace felt uncomfortable. In this episode of Life and Bullshyt, I’m opening up about what happens when you’ve spent so much of your life in survival mode that calm feels unfamiliar. From dysfunctional relationships to constant stress, I became so used to living in chaos that I didn’t know who I was without it. If you’ve ever found yourself waiting for the other shoe to drop, feeling restless when everything is actually okay, or wondering why it’s so hard to simply relax, this episode is for you. We’ll talk about the nervous system, healing, and the surprising truth that sometimes the hardest part of growth isn’t escaping the chaos—it’s learning to trust the peace. Because maybe there’s nothing wrong with you. Maybe you’re just learning how to feel safe.

Confidence Comes After

I’ve been taking an articulation course to become a better speaker, and even though I just started—I’m definitely not an expert—one lesson completely changed the way I think about confidence. For years, I believed confidence had to come before taking the first step. But what if it’s actually the other way around? In this episode of Life and Bullshyt, I’m sharing the idea of the confidence-competence loop, why imposter syndrome suddenly makes a lot more sense to me, and how I realized I’ve been living this lesson all along—from flying alone to Rhinebeck, New York, to finally hitting “Publish” on this podcast. If you’ve been waiting until you feel ready to take that first step, I hope this episode reminds you that confidence isn’t where the journey begins… It’s what you build by showing up.

Matrix Moments: Waking Up to Your Own Mind

Have you ever had a moment where you suddenly caught yourself thinking differently? Not because your life changed overnight, but because you did. In this episode, I’m sharing what I call my “Matrix moments”—those little wake-up calls that have completely changed the way I experience everyday life. From parenting and anxiety to mindfulness and learning about the nervous system, I’ve started noticing something powerful: the world around me hasn’t changed nearly as much as the way I respond to it. This isn’t about having all the answers or trying to teach anyone how to live. It’s simply an honest conversation about what I’ve been learning, what’s been helping me, and how paying attention to my own thoughts has slowly started changing my life. Maybe waking up isn’t about escaping reality. Maybe it’s about finally seeing ourselves a little more clearly. If you’ve ever felt like you’ve been living on autopilot, this episode is for you.

The Person I Forgot to Take Care Of

Have you ever noticed how easy it is to be kind to the people you love… but so much harder to show that same kindness to yourself? While listening back to one of my own podcast episodes, I had a realization. I talked about wanting to be a good mom, wife, daughter, sister, and friend—but I never once mentioned being a good friend to myself. That moment made me stop and think. In this episode, I explore why so many of us put everyone else’s needs ahead of our own, why self-compassion isn’t selfish, and how the way we speak to ourselves can shape our mental health, our relationships, and even the way we show up for the people we love most. If you’ve ever felt guilty for taking a break, struggled with your inner critic, or wondered why you can give grace to everyone except yourself, this conversation is for you. Maybe the most important person we’ve forgotten to take care of… is ourselves.

Ignoring Your Own Limits

This isn’t an episode about having all the answers. It’s about learning to recognize our limits, understanding the emotional cost of showing up for the people we love, and giving ourselves a little more grace when we finally run out of steam. If you’ve ever felt like you’re trying to be everything for everyone while wondering why you’re so exhausted, this conversation is for you. Because maybe growth isn’t about never reaching your limit. Maybe it’s about learning to be kinder to yourself when you do.