Living in the Gray

God's Plan

Last episode of Season 1 and I explore why I find so much peace leaning into God's plan. I discuss the power of rejection, my own worthiness and why life doesn't happen to us but for us. Links from this episode: My Book! Living in the Gray – A Memoir About Navigating Life’s Paradoxes [https://www.amazon.com/Living-Gray-Memoir-Navigating-Paradoxes/dp/B0FNHP1J4R] God's Plan (visual) [https://sl.bing.net/fg7ivRSdu2u] If you heard yourself in today’s episode, you’re not alone. My book, Living in the Gray gathers ten years of writing about living inside life’s paradoxes — the both/and moments that shape who we become. It’s a deeper look at the questions behind these conversations. Visit my website [https://www.aprilcapochinomyers.com/] or Amazon [https://www.amazon.com/Living-Gray-Memoir-Navigating-Paradoxes/dp/B0FNHP1J4R] to explore the book, and join me on social media: * Instagram [https://www.instagram.com/capochinomyers/?hl=en] * LinkedIn: [https://www.linkedin.com/in/april-capochino-myers-6885b24/] * Facebook [https://www.facebook.com/capochinomyers] * Substack [https://aprilcapochinomyers.substack.com/welcome]

Kindness

In this episode, I eat a ton of mini Cadbury eggs early in the morning, before drinking my first cup of coffee and I break down why kindness matters, why meditation helps me with the anxiety train, and why grace is important in remembering that we all struggle. Links from this episode: My Book! Living in the Gray – A Memoir About Navigating Life’s Paradoxes [https://www.amazon.com/Living-Gray-Memoir-Navigating-Paradoxes/dp/B0FNHP1J4R] Insight Timer [https://insighttimer.com/] If you heard yourself in today’s episode, you’re not alone. My book, Living in the Gray gathers ten years of writing about living inside life’s paradoxes — the both/and moments that shape who we become. It’s a deeper look at the questions behind these conversations. Visit my website [https://www.aprilcapochinomyers.com/] or Amazon [https://www.amazon.com/Living-Gray-Memoir-Navigating-Paradoxes/dp/B0FNHP1J4R] to explore the book, and join me on social media: * Instagram [https://www.instagram.com/capochinomyers/?hl=en] * LinkedIn: [https://www.linkedin.com/in/april-capochino-myers-6885b24/] * Facebook [https://www.facebook.com/capochinomyers] * Substack [https://aprilcapochinomyers.substack.com/welcome]

Do the thing

Failure is part of life and it's time we embrace it. In this episode, I talk about our family dinners, baseball, taking chances, the importance of failing forward and why the only time you can truly fail is when you don't try. Links from this episode: My Book! Living in the Gray – A Memoir About Navigating Life’s Paradoxes [https://www.amazon.com/Living-Gray-Memoir-Navigating-Paradoxes/dp/B0FNHP1J4R] Sarah Blakely's story [https://nationalcioreview.com/video/sara-blakely-overcoming-fear-of-failure/] If you heard yourself in today’s episode, you’re not alone. My book, Living in the Gray gathers ten years of writing about living inside life’s paradoxes — the both/and moments that shape who we become. It’s a deeper look at the questions behind these conversations. Visit my website [https://www.aprilcapochinomyers.com/] or Amazon [https://www.amazon.com/Living-Gray-Memoir-Navigating-Paradoxes/dp/B0FNHP1J4R] to explore the book, and join me on social media: * Instagram [https://www.instagram.com/capochinomyers/?hl=en] * LinkedIn: [https://www.linkedin.com/in/april-capochino-myers-6885b24/] * Facebook [https://www.facebook.com/capochinomyers] * Substack [https://aprilcapochinomyers.substack.com/welcome]

Who am I?

What happens when you near the end of life? What questions do you find yourself asking. This is what I'm leaning into today and it comes on the heels of James Van Der Beek's death who died of colorectal cancer in February 2026. In the last video before he died, he shares the question he has been asking himself, "Who am I? What am I?" In the video he said, "I am worthy of God's life simply because I exist and if I'm worthy of God's love, shouldn't I be worthy of my own? And the same is true is for you." Links from this episode: My Book! Living in the Gray – A Memoir About Navigating Life’s Paradoxes [https://www.amazon.com/Living-Gray-Memoir-Navigating-Paradoxes/dp/B0FNHP1J4R] James Van Der Beek video [https://youtu.be/9L4JAAoKAx0?si=T8IHto72TESPhq2i] If you heard yourself in today’s episode, you’re not alone. My book, Living in the Gray gathers ten years of writing about living inside life’s paradoxes — the both/and moments that shape who we become. It’s a deeper look at the questions behind these conversations. Visit my website [https://www.aprilcapochinomyers.com/] or Amazon [https://www.amazon.com/Living-Gray-Memoir-Navigating-Paradoxes/dp/B0FNHP1J4R] to explore the book, and join me on social media: * Instagram [https://www.instagram.com/capochinomyers/?hl=en] * LinkedIn: [https://www.linkedin.com/in/april-capochino-myers-6885b24/] * Facebook [https://www.facebook.com/capochinomyers] * Substack [https://aprilcapochinomyers.substack.com/welcome]

The Ego (Again)

This isn't the first time I've talked about Ego -- check out Episode 9, too! But I bring it up again because of the week I've had. There are some of you out there who've probably had a similar week -- you're not alone. My kids were sick, work was overwhelming ... you get it. And then I ran into a lot of egos. Remember the ego is the part of the brain that wants to keep us safe. The part that's on high-alert and reminds us people are out to get us. I heard this great quote I heard it from Jesse Itzler, but credit for the original goes to Robin Sharma. It says, "A bad day for the ego is a great day for the soul." Basically, if you can set your ego aside and be curious, the world opens up. I try to live every day open now. But life is 50/50 and I'm human and so is everyone else. So this week, my ego flared. I got defensive. Instead of choosing how I wanted to show up, I let the ego take over. It looked like me being frustrated a lot, focusing energy on what I couldn't control, not much good sleep, frustration erupting at home where it shouldn't. Because I felt hurt. We're all going to encounter this. But as I detox from this week, I try to have as much gratitude as I can. I've gone for walks, tried to be present, I've sought out sunsets and sunrises, I've just stopped and looked at my loved ones and try to share something that I love them to show them. When you're frustrated and angry, there's still time to have gratitude. These things will pass. Links from this episode: My Book! Living in the Gray – A Memoir About Navigating Life’s Paradoxes [https://www.amazon.com/Living-Gray-Memoir-Navigating-Paradoxes/dp/B0FNHP1J4R] Jesse Itzler [https://jesseitzler.com/pages/jesses-journey] Robin Sharma [https://www.robinsharma.com/] Insight Timer [https://insighttimer.com/search?query=metta] metta meditaions If you heard yourself in today’s episode, you’re not alone. My book, Living in the Gray gathers ten years of writing about living inside life’s paradoxes — the both/and moments that shape who we become. It’s a deeper look at the questions behind these conversations. Visit my website [https://www.aprilcapochinomyers.com/] or Amazon [https://www.amazon.com/Living-Gray-Memoir-Navigating-Paradoxes/dp/B0FNHP1J4R] to explore the book, and join me on social media: * Instagram [https://www.instagram.com/capochinomyers/?hl=en] * LinkedIn: [https://www.linkedin.com/in/april-capochino-myers-6885b24/] * Facebook [https://www.facebook.com/capochinomyers] * Substack [https://aprilcapochinomyers.substack.com/welcome]