28. I met God at the car dealership

28. I met God at the car dealership

J. and Pasha start with a mysterious spike of Vietnam listeners and a plan for Denver convention episodes before landing in the very spiritual battlefield of car dealerships, amends, and not buying a car out of guilt. They get into why receiving an amend can feel awkward, how recovery changes conflict, and what it means to see another person as human instead of just “the guy trying to sell me stuff.” Plus: Chick-fil-A manipulation, the man in the headphones, Pasha’s gangster photo, and the strange gift of not letting your pain go to waste.

27. I love lust

J and Pasha get patriotic before diving into progressive victory over lust, relapse shame, and whether a reset means starting over or just getting back on the path. They get into five-second fantasies, “thank you God” moments in Safeway, inconveniently helpful honesty, and why God probably isn’t going to pry lust out of your clenched little hand. Plus: I Love Lust t-shirts, half-caff scheming in rehab, video games as a portal to everything else, and Pasha's very spiritual refusal to put a poop bag on Pumba’s leash.

26. I Am Weak

J and Pasha record from a not-so-private Mount Rainier lodge and somehow turn whispering, staff members, and “no sexaholics in the national park” into a conversation about weakness, ego deflation, and letting God in through brokenness. They get into The Spirituality of Imperfection, Paul’s thorn in the flesh, service work gone sideways, making amends, and why sometimes the thing we hate most is exactly where recovery starts. Plus: Pasha's sponsor is catching up on old episodes, and Pasha may or may not be hiding under a table.

25. Sex drunk in Armenia

Pasha gets back from Armenia with stories about Yerevan, Russian-speaking SA, jazz clubs, and a hostel grandma who apparently knows how to make a goodbye way too intimate. J and Pasha also get into bookending, casual lusting, spiritual fitness, and why connecting with God and using the actual tools might have to be a both-and thing. Plus: chewing ice cream, the Russian slip, Pumba sniffing out the truth, and negative self-talk as a very questionable recovery strategy.

24. Dumb phones and disclosures

JP get into digital minimalism, dumb phones, and the weird shame spiral of choosing AI music over replying to a prison sponsee. They also wade into disclosure in marriage, whether lusting after your own wife is still lust, and why “mindful masturbation” might be the clearest sign you’re in the wrong room. Plus: listening to the podcast on half speed, protecting Pasha’s ego, nuclear-bomb honesty, and the terrifying moment when meetings start feeling boring.