The Crystal Quill Podcast

15 Years Later I Finally Removed Them | My Explant Story — Part 2

For years I carried a quiet truth: the moment I got breast implants, I knew I had made a mistake. In this deeply personal episode, I share the second half of my breast implant journey — from living fifteen years with implants that never felt aligned, to finally deciding to undergo breast implant explant surgery. We talk about the emotional side of breast implant regret, the physical symptoms that made me start listening more closely to my body, and the unexpected role that intuition played in helping me find the right surgeon at the right time. This story isn't about judgment or fear around cosmetic surgery. It's about body awareness, healing, and learning to trust yourself again after years of ignoring that inner voice. If you are considering breast implants, thinking about removing them, or simply navigating your own relationship with body image and self-worth, I hope this conversation gives you something powerful: permission to pause, listen, and make decisions from a place of self-love. Because what is rooted in light will always blossom.

I Got Breast Implants at 20 — What I Couldn’t See Back Then (Part 1)

This is a story I kept to myself for sixteen years. At 20 years old, I made the decision to get breast implants—and almost immediately, I knew I had made a mistake. But this isn’t really a story about implants. It’s about the moment something shifted… standing in a dressing room, feeling the joy drain out of what should have been one of the happiest experiences of my life… and quietly deciding I wasn’t enough as I was. It’s about perfectionism. The kind that looks polished on the outside… but underneath is driven by pressure, comparison, and the need to fix something that was never actually broken. It’s about making a life-altering decision from that place—n and then living with it… silently… for years. In this first part, I’m taking you back to where it all started. The environment, the expectations, the subtle comments that landed deeper than they should have… and the version of me who didn’t yet have the tools to question any of it. Because when I look back now, I don’t feel judgment. I feel compassion. This story isn’t here to tell you what to do with your body… but to invite you to pause long enough to ask: Where is this decision really coming from? Part 2 is where everything begins to shift— where intuition re-enters, and the story finally comes full circle.

Learning to Hear Myself Again- An April Sober Recap on: Intuition, Emotional Presence & Quiet Clarity

In this deeply personal April sober recap, Carrie reflects on the quieter, more unexpected shifts that have surfaced over 130 days alcohol-free — from emotional presence and nervous system awareness to intuition, self-trust, and learning to truly listen to her body. What began as a “late” sobriety update evolves into a much deeper conversation about depression, vitamin deficiencies, cortisol concerns, intuitive knowing, psychic sensitivity, and the subtle difference between anxiety and clarity. Carrie shares two recent claircognizant experiences that left her questioning how much intuitive information we all may have access to when the noise of everyday life begins to quiet down — including the moment she instantly knew two women would walk into her studio before they ever crossed the street, and the strong inner certainty that her future niece was a girl weeks before the gender reveal. This episode is not about becoming perfect, endlessly happy, or spiritually enlightened overnight. It’s about becoming present enough to recognize when something feels off… and learning to respond to yourself with honesty, care, and trust instead of avoidance. Topics explored: * Sobriety beyond the “pink cloud” * Emotional presence & nervous system awareness * Depression, burnout & physical health signals * Vitamin D, B vitamin & cortisol conversations * Intuition vs anxiety * Claircognizance & energetic sensitivity * Psychic gifts & reconnecting to self * The quiet ways healing actually unfolds A cozy late-night style conversation for anyone navigating healing, self-trust, emotional overwhelm, spiritual curiosity, or the strange beauty of becoming more fully awake to your own life.

Clearing What No Longer Serves Energetic Healing, Frequency, and Creating From Wholeness with Levenna Myers

In this episode, I welcome back Levenna Myers for a grounded and illuminating conversation about energetic healing, frequency, and what it means to truly clear what no longer serves you. Levenna is a psychic energy healer who supports clients in releasing old patterns, blocks, and energetic imprints—so they can stop creating from a place of wounding and begin moving through life from wholeness, clarity, and higher alignment. Together, we reflect on the energetic work we’ve personally co-created, sharing real examples of how deep clearing can shift not just internal landscapes, but lived experiences. This is an honest, curious conversation about the unseen layers that influence how we show up, make decisions, and relate to ourselves. This episode is an invitation to consider what you might be carrying that isn’t yours anymore—and what becomes possible when you release it. If you’ve ever felt curious about energetic healing, intuition, or the subtle forces shaping your life, this conversation offers a grounded place to begin. This is a fun one y'all-- if you're at all curious about the unseen energetics that are holding you back, this is one episode you cannot afford to miss! Connect with Levenna: Levenna Myers is a psychic energy healer. She specializes in helping her clients to deeply clear out past patterns, blocks, and energies so they can stop creating from a place of wounding, and shift into a higher frequency. Book a private session here: https://levenna.thrivecart.com/private-sessions/ [https://levenna.thrivecart.com/private-sessions/] Connect with her on Instagram: Instagram.com/levennamyers [http://Instagram.com/levennamyers]

90 Days Sober: The Glow, The Intuition, & The Joy I Didn’t Expect

At 90 days alcohol-free, something deeper than I expected began to unfold. In this episode, I’m sharing a real-time reflection on what has shifted for me physically, emotionally, and spiritually during the first three months of sobriety. From unexpected changes in my skin and appearance — to a noticeable return of my intuition and sensitivity — to the quiet disappearance of anxiety and imposter syndrome… this journey has opened up more than I ever anticipated. But the most surprising shift? A deeper capacity to feel and hold joy in everyday moments — in a way that feels grounding, emotional, and fully present. This isn’t about becoming someone new. It’s about softening back into who you’ve always been… when the noise is gone. If you’re sober curious, in your early days, or simply wondering what’s possible on the other side of alcohol — this conversation is for you.