Becoming Me

Episode 154 As I round off Season 10 of the Becoming Me podcast, here’s an overview of how my content has evolved together with the progression of my interior journey and some updates to address inquiries about my coaching offers. As I take a break from the podcast to recalibrate, I invite you to explore past episodes and continue engaging with my content on my other platforms. God bless and happy becoming! Watch this recording on YouTube [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rAMWiX-NF6M]. Follow me on my Instagram account @animann [https://www.instagram.com/animann/] for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again [https://www.integroformation.com/begin-again-subscribe]. CHAPTER MARKERS 00:00 Introduction and Season 10 Wrap-Up 00:30 The Journey of Becoming Me 02:10 Exploring Trauma and Spiritual Abuse 05:13 Developmental Stages and Personal Growth 08:23 Challenges and Evolution in Coaching 10:01 The Quest for Self-Understanding 15:07 Integrating New Learnings 18:38 Conclusion and Future Plans Support the show [https://www.buzzsprout.com/1375510/support] SUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORT Social Media: Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram [https://www.instagram.com/animann/] or Facebook [https://www.facebook.com/integroformation]. Newsletter: Subscribe to Begin Again [https://www.integroformation.com/newsletters/begin-again] for Ann's updates and reflections. Support the Show: Monthly Support (starting at USD$3) [https://www.buzzsprout.com/1375510/supporters/new] One-time Donation [https://www.integroformation.com/patron]Leave a Review: If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here [https://www.becomingmepodcast.com/reviews/new/].

Episode 153 In this special episode about being securely loved by God the Father, I sit down with Isaac Wicker, a Catholic licensed therapist from Minnesota with a decade of mental health experience and host of the 'Whole Human' podcast. Isaac shares his unique upbringing in a deeply Catholic family in the Communion and Liberation Catholic movement, his transformative experiences, and his innovative 12-week program, 'Known: embraced by the Heart of the Father,' which integrates psychology and Catholic faith. This conversation is an invitation to explore the security and ease that come from being securely loved by God the Father. I see myself and Isaac as representing two very different kinds of paths towards a secure attachment with God the Father - Isaac was blessed with the experience of secure attachment in childhood while I had to learn to have an “earned secure attachment” from deep healing and integration.  May this episode bring hope to listeners who struggle to feel safe with God the Father, even as it provides a glimpse of the freedom that being securely loved by the Father brings. Isaac’s website | Known: Embraced by the Heart of the Father [https://www.readytobeknown.com/] Isaac’s Podcast | Whole Human [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2243516] Watch this recording on YouTube [https://youtu.be/7Ga-Mf-eWYo]. Follow me on my Instagram account @animann [https://www.instagram.com/animann/] for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again [https://www.integroformation.com/begin-again-subscribe]. CHAPTER MARKERS [00:00] Introduction and Overview [01:21] Meet the Guest: Isaac Wicker [07:32] The Importance of Big Questions [18:17] Isaac's Childhood Memories and Family Dynamics [30:25] The Importance of Secure Attachment in Repentance [38:37] Embodying Faith Organically as a Therapist [51:31] Focusing on Loving vs Fixing Someone [58:32] The Journey of Becoming [01:00:14] Operating Outside the Boxes of Psychology and Religion [01:14:38] The Known Program: Healing with God the Father [01:22:50] The Importance of Showing Up and Being Honest [01:31:40] Conclusion and Final Thoughts REFLECTION PROMPT What has been your relationship with failure and repentance? Do you tend to move toward sorrow and repair, or get caught in shame? Where do you think that pattern comes from? If you could sit with God the Father today, what would you say or ask, with no pressure to have it together? Support the show [https://www.buzzsprout.com/1375510/support] SUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORT Social Media: Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram [https://www.instagram.com/animann/] or Facebook [https://www.facebook.com/integroformation]. Newsletter: Subscribe to Begin Again [https://www.integroformation.com/newsletters/begin-again] for Ann's updates and reflections. Support the Show: Monthly Support (starting at USD$3) [https://www.buzzsprout.com/1375510/supporters/new] One-time Donation [https://www.integroformation.com/patron]Leave a Review: If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here [https://www.becomingmepodcast.com/reviews/new/].

Episode 152   In this deeply personal episode, I explore the impact of Pope Francis' recent passing, especially how he became a bridge of trust during my period of intense interior deconstruction. Over the past decade, I've grappled with my Catholic faith, my relationship with the church, and undergone a profound journey of inner healing.  I share how Pope Francis’ actions and witness offered me a path through complex trauma and relational betrayals, both familial and institutional. This episode is dedicated to my fellow trauma survivors who struggle with their faith, relationships, and especially with the institutional Church.  RELATED LINKS: * Pope says he is 'deeply sorry' to Indigenous Peoples in Canada [https://www.bbc.com/news/world-us-canada-62296834] * Pope Francis did the right thing when others would not, says residential school survivor [https://www.cbc.ca/radio/asithappens/pope-francis-phil-fontaine-1.7514957] * Why Pope Francis may be hesitant to rescind the Doctrine of Discovery [https://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/pope-francis-doctrine-discovery-indigenous-1.6536174] * Pope Francis’ Address to the Indigenous Peoples: First Nations, Métis and Intuit [https://www.vatican.va/content/francesco/en/speeches/2022/july/documents/20220725-popolazioniindigene-canada.html] * Joint Statement of the Dicasteries for Culture and Education and for Promoting Integral Human Development on the “Doctrine of Discovery”, 30.03.2023 [https://press.vatican.va/content/salastampa/en/bollettino/pubblico/2023/03/30/230330b.html] Watch this recording on YouTube [https://youtu.be/qsQKkfxRU-Y]. Follow me on my Instagram account @animann [https://www.instagram.com/animann/] for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again [https://www.integroformation.com/begin-again-subscribe]. CHAPTER MARKERS [00:00] Introduction [00:48] Personal Struggles and Deconstruction [02:28] Pope Francis' Impact [05:30] Journey of Healing and Integration [07:50] Struggles with the Church [09:58] Uncomfortable with Pope Francis 2013-2015 [13:38] Not In Touch with My Exiled Parts [18:45] Awakening to Dysfunction and Abuse [29:16] Trauma and Betrayal in the Church [36:05] Father Wound Re-triggered [38:06] Compassion in Secular Spaces [40:41] Pandemic Retreat Experience with Gabor Maté [42:09] Indigenous Trauma and Residential Schools [44:58] Seeking Apology from the Pope [48:57] Personal Reflections on Fatherhood and Healing [58:38] Pope Francis' Apology to the Indigenous People of Canada [01:03:55] Repudiating the "Doctrine of Discovery" [01:09:16] A Church That Doesn't Repair [01:13:37] Hope for the Church [01:18:28] Conclusion REFLECTION PROMPT Have you ever found yourself reevaluating something you once felt certain about? What helped you feel safe enough to explore those thoughts? Support the show [https://www.buzzsprout.com/1375510/support] SUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORT Social Media: Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram [https://www.instagram.com/animann/] or Facebook [https://www.facebook.com/integroformation]. Newsletter: Subscribe to Begin Again [https://www.integroformation.com/newsletters/begin-again] for Ann's updates and reflections. Support the Show: Monthly Support (starting at USD$3) [https://www.buzzsprout.com/1375510/supporters/new] One-time Donation [https://www.integroformation.com/patron]Leave a Review: If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here [https://www.becomingmepodcast.com/reviews/new/].

Episode 151 (Bonus)   In this special bonus episode for Holy Week, I share a deeply personal and vulnerable story about my journey through spiritual trauma and healing. Last year, I wrote an open letter on my personal blog, disclosing the challenges I've faced and continue to face as a complex trauma survivor within the Catholic faith.  From experiencing physical symptoms of distress during Mass to grappling with deeply ingrained religious guilt, I invite you to witness my journey towards understanding, acceptance, and integration. I hope my story resonates with others who struggle with similar feelings during Holy Week, providing language, comfort, and a sense of solidarity.  Additionally, I offer practical suggestions for seeking support, emphasizing the importance of trauma-informed care within spiritual and therapeutic frameworks. God meets us exactly where we are, and this episode is an invitation to take that first step towards healing. Read My Blogposts: To My Fellow Complex Trauma Survivors Who Struggle with Holy Week [https://animann.com/2024/03/27/to-my-fellow-complex-trauma-survivors-who-struggle-with-holy-week/] A Good Friday Confession (I Don’t Feel Anything) [https://animann.com/2023/04/07/a-good-friday-confessioni-dont-feel-anything/] Watch this recording on YouTube [https://youtu.be/XikN8unEcts]. Follow me on my Instagram account @animann [https://www.instagram.com/animann/] for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again [https://www.integroformation.com/begin-again-subscribe]. CHAPTER MARKERS 00:00 Introduction 02:21 A Vulnerable Self-Disclosure 07:41 The Letter Begins 13:55 Waking Up to Anger and My Body Saying "No" 16:49 Trauma Mingled with Faith 19:42 Dying (To Ego) Into Authentic Love 21:27 Entering Christ's Wounds Through My Wounds 23:12 Why Holy Week Can Be Re-traumatising for Trauma Surviors 26:00 Letting God Love Me Through Self-Love 28:30 New Trauma-Informed Wine Skins Needed 29:54 What Can Trauma Survivors Do To Support Ourselves? 33:13 Final Thoughts 36:02 Conclusion Support the show [https://www.buzzsprout.com/1375510/support] SUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORT Social Media: Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram [https://www.instagram.com/animann/] or Facebook [https://www.facebook.com/integroformation]. Newsletter: Subscribe to Begin Again [https://www.integroformation.com/newsletters/begin-again] for Ann's updates and reflections. Support the Show: Monthly Support (starting at USD$3) [https://www.buzzsprout.com/1375510/supporters/new] One-time Donation [https://www.integroformation.com/patron]Leave a Review: If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here [https://www.becomingmepodcast.com/reviews/new/].

Episode 150   In this heartfelt conversation, I sit down with Paul Fahey, a limited licensed professional counselor, retreat leader, and catechist from Michigan, USA. Paul shares insights from his work in pastoral counseling for Catholics who have been spiritually abused and his efforts to educate ministers to be more equipped in their ministry. We delve into the complex nature of spiritual and religious trauma, the importance of language in healing from trauma, and the profound teachings of the Catholic Church on human dignity.  Through personal stories and shared experiences, we explore the critical theme of dignity, how trauma affects our understanding of love and self-worth, and the necessity of creating safe spaces within or away from the Church for healing and authentic connection.  This episode offers a rich and thought-provoking discussion on how we can reclaim our dignity and experience God's chaste, non-controlling love in the midst of a fallen world. Visit Paul Fahey’s website here [https://www.catholicthirdspace.com]. Documents quoted by Paul: * Dignitatis Humanae [https://www.vatican.va/archive/hist_councils/ii_vatican_council/documents/vat-ii_decl_19651207_dignitatis-humanae_en.html] * Patris Corde [https://www.vatican.va/content/francesco/en/apost_letters/documents/papa-francesco-lettera-ap_20201208_patris-corde.html] * Fratelli Tutti [https://www.vatican.va/content/francesco/en/encyclicals/documents/papa-francesco_20201003_enciclica-fratelli-tutti.html] Read my newsletter post Lament, Hope & Healing: Resources on Spiritual Abuse [https://www.integroformation.com/newsletters/begin-again/posts/lament-hope-and-healing-resources-on-spiritual-abuse]. Watch this recording on YouTube [https://youtu.be/qCPH12XvCoM]. Follow me on my Instagram account @animann [https://www.instagram.com/animann/] for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again [https://www.integroformation.com/begin-again-subscribe]. CHAPTER MARKERS 00:00 Introduction to Paul Fahey 01:12 Discussing Trauma and Spiritual Abuse 05:53 Exploring Human Dignity in Church Teachings 10:32 Understanding Spiritual Authority and Coercion 35:51 Chastity and Non-Possessive Love 47:33 Healing from Spiritual Coercion 53:45 Struggling with Faith and Depression 56:14 Journey Out of Depression 58:29 Role of a Catechist and Therapist 59:50 The Importance of Experiencing Non-controlling Love 01:01:40 Experiencing God's Reverence 01:04:00 The Concept of Theosis 01:11:51 Challenges in the Church 01:15:44 Accompanying Ourselves in Healing 01:32:03 Forgiveness Demands Justice for the Victim 01:37:22 Wrestling with the Lack of Safety in Church 01:42:24 Reality is Greater than Ideas 01:44:35 Final Thoughts and Gratitude REFLECTION PROMPT How have I experienced coerci Support the show [https://www.buzzsprout.com/1375510/support] SUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORT Social Media: Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram [https://www.instagram.com/animann/] or Facebook [https://www.facebook.com/integroformation]. Newsletter: Subscribe to Begin Again [https://www.integroformation.com/newsletters/begin-again] for Ann's updates and reflections. Support the Show: Monthly Support (starting at USD$3) [https://www.buzzsprout.com/1375510/supporters/new] One-time Donation [https://www.integroformation.com/patron]Leave a Review: If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here [https://www.becomingmepodcast.com/reviews/new/].