Episode 18: Explaining The Unexplainable

Episode 25: The Place He Proposed

Episode 25 is here ❤️ This week I went back to the place where Alex proposed 7 years ago to the day.  What started as a surfing pilgrimage, ended up becoming one of the most emotional trips I've taken since losing Alex. I talk about revisiting the place where our future began, the kindness of complete strangers, and an 82 year old surfer that reminded me life doesn't stop, and the 86,400 seconds we are given each day. Pop the kettle on, grab your coffee and join me in the Early Mourning Coffee Club ☕️🖤

Episode 24: The Price Of Widowhood

When we think about grief we think about heartbreak. We don't think about the financial reality that comes with it. In this episode I share the hidden costs of widowhood, from managing household bills alone, to navigating life insurance. As my Bereavement Support Payment comes to an end this month, I also discuss the support currently available to bereaved families in the UK, why many believe it falls short, and the campaign calling for change. https://www.gov.uk/bereavement-support-payment https://petition.parliament.uk/petitions/752501 ☕️🖤

Episode 23: Talk To Someone

Grief counselling won't fix your grief. It won't take away the loss. It won't make you stop missing them.  But what it can do is help you carry what feels impossible to carry alone.  This week I'm talking about therapy, guilt, anger, healing, and why asking for help is one of the bravest things you can do ☕️🖤

Episode 22: Father's Day, Take Two

This week's podcast episode is about Father's Day, grief, parenting after loss and the poem I wrote for Oscar on Father's Day last year. We talk about remembering Alex, the male role models helping to shape Oscar's life, and the question that sits quietly underneath it all: Will it be enough? A conversation about love, loss, family and all the ways people continue to show up long after the worst day has passed. ☕️🖤

Episode 21: £21.44 & Other Emotional Ambushes

This week, a £21.44 bank transfer stopped me in my tracks, Oscar promoted me to professional cyclist despite overwhelming evidence to the contrary, and a GP appointment left me questioning whether I'd accidentally wandered into a satire sketch. This is an episode about recognition, resilience and the people who understand without needing an explanation. ☕️🖤