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What Savant Syndrome Reveals About the Hidden Genius in All of Us | Dr. Jeremy Chapman

Some people wake up from a head injury speaking fluent piano. Others draw entire cityscapes from memory after a single flight over a skyline. This week I'm sitting down with child and adolescent psychiatrist Jeremy Chapman, Medical Director of the SSM Health Treffert Center, the world's leading hub for understanding savant syndrome.  We go deep on what happens in the brain when extraordinary ability suddenly appears, whether someone is born with it, develops it after trauma, or simply wakes up one day changed. Jeremy has spent years working directly with savants and their families, and what he's learned raises a question far bigger than any one diagnosis: how much untapped capacity might be sitting inside every single one of us, waiting for the right door to open. This conversation touched something in me on a deeply personal level, and I think it will do the same for you. We talk about the line between disability and gift, what it means to build a life around a talent nobody trained you for, and why the brain might be far stranger and more capable than we've been taught to believe. If you've ever wondered what's really possible inside the human mind, this one will stay with you. Listen and subscribe wherever you get your podcasts. Don't miss the next episode of Real.Raw.Authentic.

The Most Stubborn Man In The Car Industry | Victor Muller Founder and CEO of Spyker Cars

Spyker is back at Le Mans... 23 years later. Victor Muller (Founder and CEO of Spyker Cars and former CEO of Saab Automobile) just told me what it really took to survive....  He built one of the most beautiful car brands in the world. Lost it. Lost it again. And is now bringing it back, with a crypto billionaire as his new partner and the racetrack calling his name. This is Victor Muller. Founder and CEO of Spyker Cars. The man they call the most stubborn man in the car industry, and after this conversation, you’ll understand why that’s a compliment. We sat down for a real, raw, unfiltered conversation about what it actually takes to keep believing in something the world has counted out twice. Two bankruptcies. A brand reduced to an “empty shell.” And still, Victor never let go of Spyker. This episode goes behind the boardroom headlines into the psychology of obsession, identity, and refusing to quit when quitting would be the easier, more rational choice. And the timing could not be more perfect. As this episode goes live, Spyker is racing at the Le Mans Classic (July 3–5, 2026), the brand’s first return to Le Mans in 23 years, driving the very chassis that raced there in 2002 and 2003. Just weeks earlier, Volodymyr Nosov, founder of WhiteBIT and W Group, one of Europe’s largest crypto exchanges, became co-owner of Spyker, folding the 140-year-old Dutch marque into a new venture called Spyker Digital, merging heritage engineering with blockchain and digital ownership. Old-world craftsmanship meets new-world capital. A car brand founded in 1880 now backed by crypto. In this episode we talk about: 🏎️ Victor's mindset through two bankruptcies, and how he kept the vision alive when the brand became an "empty shell" 🏎️ How he survived one of the hardest phases of his life at Saab — and what it taught him about identity beyond the company 🏎️ What it actually means to be an entrepreneur, beneath the headlines and the highlight reel 🏎️ The new partnership with Volodymyr Nosov and W Group, and what "Spyker Digital" really means for the brand's future 🏎️ The 800hp Spyker C8 Preliator XXV and where Spyker is headed next 🏎️ Spyker's return to Le Mans Classic 2026, 23 years after chassis 009 last raced there 🏎️ A dream that survived two collapses, and what that costs — and protects — in a person 🎧 Also available wherever you listen to podcasts. Check: https://spykercars.com/ [https://spykercars.com/] How to connect with Caroline Middelsdorf host and modern mental wellbeing voice? Check: www.carolinemiddelsdorf.com #SpykerCars #VictorMuller #LeMansClassic #WhiteBIT #realrawauthentic  #CarIndustry #Comeback #Entrepreneurship

What Men Really Need (But Never Say) | Jonathan Bouter - Ex-Soldier, Veteran & Prison Guard + Systemic Business Coach

Every 43 seconds, someone in the world dies by suicide. Men make up 75-80% of them. In the US, men are nearly 4x more likely than women to die by suicide. In the UK and Canada, it's roughly 3x. This isn't a side statistic. It's a global mental health crisis, and almost nobody is talking about it the way we do in this episode. There's a paradox at the center of this: women report higher rates of depression and attempt suicide more often, yet men die by suicide at far higher rates, largely because men tend to use methods that leave less room for intervention or survival. And fewer than 20% of men seek professional mental health support in the year before a suicide, compared to roughly 35% of women. Men aren't struggling less. They're struggling silently, and that silence is costing lives. I sat down with Jonathan Bouter in Amsterdam, Dutch veteran, ex-prison guard, and now mindset and trauma coach. What came out of him was nothing like the "man up" conversations we're used to. We talked about the trauma men carry and never name. The silence men are trained into from childhood. What it actually costs a man to "be strong." And what men need, really need, that they almost never say out loud. We laughed. We got real. We both teared up. This is not a polished, clinical mental health talk. This is raw, honest, and unfiltered. If you're a man who's never had the words for what you're carrying, or you love a man who hasn't, this episode is for you 🤍 In this episode:  ✅ Why so few men seek help before it's too late  ✅ The trauma behind the "strong, silent" mask  ✅ How upbringing teaches men to disconnect from emotion  ✅ What it actually means for a man to "feel"  ✅ The honest, unscripted conversation most men never get to have Full episode of real.raw.authentic is live now. Link in bio. 🚨 If you or someone you know is struggling, you are not alone. Reach out to a crisis line in your country. US: 988, UK: 116 123 (Samaritans), Netherlands: 113 (113.nl), or visit findahelpline.com for global resources. real.raw.authentic, hosted by Caroline Middelsdorf who is traveling the world to sit down with guests who have a story, expertise and want to create positive impact.  Because healing happens out loud 🤍 #MensMentalHealth #SuicidePrevention #MaleMentalHealth #TraumaHealing #RealRawAuthentic #VeteranMentalHealth #ComeHomeToYourself #HealedOutLoud

Petr Čech On the Mindset That Defines a Legend

I didn’t expect this conversation to go where it went. Petr Čech, one of the greatest goalkeepers of all time, sitting across from me, talking about loss, fear, near-death, and what it actually costs to perform at the highest level for two decades. The Champions League final. His last game with Arsenal. A nurse telling a 10-year-old he’d never play again. A head injury that nearly took his life. The mental toll nobody sees from the outside. But also, the mindset that made him unbreakable. How he learned to perform under impossible pressure. Why confidence isn’t motivation, it’s preparation. And what separates the good from the truly great, on and off the pitch. This is the conversation about sport, mental health, and what it really means to be at the top of your game, that nobody was having loudly enough. This one stayed with me long after we stopped filming. 🎙️ Real Raw Authentic with Caroline Middelsdorf Don’t forget to like 👍🏻 subscribe and share with somone who needs to hear this  Timestamps: 00:00 - Introduction and Early Career Challenges 00:53 - Interview Introduction: Peter Cech 01:38 - Childhood in Czechoslovakia 02:01 - Family Background and Sibling Loss 03:04 - Parents' Occupations and Early Exposure to Sports 04:09 - Growing Up with Sports 05:35 - Choosing Football Over Ice Hockey 07:03 - Passion for Football and Early Experiences 08:06 - Becoming a Goalkeeper 10:02 - First Major Injury and Its Impact 13:15 - Dreaming of a Professional Career 15:20 - Overcoming Negative Comments and Determination 18:00 - Lessons from Sports: Failure and Teamwork 20:13 - Dealing with Pressure as a Young Athlete 24:01 - Developing a Mindset to Handle Stress 27:22 - First National Team Call-Up 28:36 - Inner Voice and Mindset Shift 29:52 - Avoiding Regrets and Embracing Failure 32:52 - Reflecting on Regrets and Burnout 33:57 - Perspective from a Head Injury 35:03 - Curiosity and Open-Mindedness 36:39 - Confidence Through Preparation 41:16 - Nervousness in New Environments 42:18 - Human Challenges of Professional Athletes 44:50 - Champions League Final Experiences 46:00 - Mind and Body Alignment in Sports 47:12 - Advice on Handling Anxiety and Failure If you’re on the journey of healing emotional (often invisible) wounds, you’re in the right place 🤍 My 3-month program Phoenix is here to gently support and guide you. Start with a free lesson here: https://carolinemiddelsdorf.com Not sure where to begin? My mini course will help you take the first steps: https://stan.store/carolinemiddeldorf/p/how-to-start-your-healing-journey-mini-course?utm_source=ig&utm_medium=social&utm_content=link_in_bio

The Tongue Never Lies - How Chinese Medicine Reveals Trauma & Anxiety

Trauma and anxiety don’t just live in the mind — they live in the body. In this episode of Real, Raw & Authentic, recorded in Los Angeles, I talk to Jiaming Ju, founder of KUN Health and a second-generation licensed Chinese Medicine practitioner who specializes in chronic conditions. We talk about tongue diagnosis in Chinese Medicine and how the tongue can reveal long-term stress, anxiety, trauma patterns, nervous system dysregulation, and physical imbalance — in a grounded, body-based way, not something mystical or abstract. What stayed with me: • You can be high-functioning and still deeply dysregulated • You can be coping while your body remains in survival mode • The tongue often shows what someone has been carrying for years This episode is for anyone who struggles with anxiety, unresolved trauma, chronic stress, or physical symptoms that don’t fully make sense yet — and for anyone curious about mental health beyond just talking about it. If you’ve ever felt like you’re “doing fine” mentally but your body tells a different story, this conversation may resonate. 🎧 Subscribe to Real, Raw & Authentic for honest conversations connecting trauma, mental health, and the body.