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I Lived In A Brothel

Lexi never planned on entering the sex industry. At 18 years old, she answered what she thought was a modeling ad on Craigslist and accidentally found herself in the world of webcam modeling, escorting, stripping, and OnlyFans. Sponsored By: → Shopify | See less carts go abandoned and more sales go “cha ching” with Shopify and their Shop Pay button. Sign up for your one-dollar-per-month trial today at https://shopify.com/insane → HERS | Ready to reach your goals? Visit https://forhers.com/insane to get personalized, affordable care that gets you. → Just Thrive | Get your health in check and save 20% on your first order at https://justthrivehealth.com/INSANE On This Episode We Cover: → 00:00:00 - How did Lexi accidentally get started in adult work? → 00:03:28 - Was she nervous to start cam modeling? → 00:05:01 - What was it like working inside a cam studio? → 00:06:41 - What changed after she was allowed to show more online? → 00:08:49 - Was she scared her parents would find out? → 00:12:40 - How long did she do cam modeling, and how did COVID change things? → 00:17:17 - What was her first strip club audition like? → 00:20:16 - Has she ever felt uncomfortable or attracted to someone at work? → 00:21:56 - What happens if she actually likes a client? → 00:26:22 - What double standards do sex workers face while dating? → 00:29:19 - How does she handle judgment about sex work? → 00:33:47 - Was it difficult balancing multiple income streams? → 00:34:56 - What is the brothel application process really like? → 00:36:40 - How do negotiations work inside a brothel? → 00:38:17 - What are the wildest things she’s experienced on the job? → 00:42:04 - How does traveling work as a sex worker? → 00:45:12 - How much work goes into becoming successful in the industry? → 00:49:06 - How did a staph infection nearly change her life forever? → 00:54:15 - Why did she realize rest and hobbies mattered so much? → 00:56:25 - What was it like going viral after the Candace Owens interview? → 00:59:39 - Why did she decide to become an independent escort? → 01:04:13 - How does she screen and vet potential clients? → 01:08:31 - What is the grossest situation she’s ever dealt with at work? → 01:11:10 - Why are so many of her clients married men? → 01:12:15 - Does she genuinely enjoy the physical side of her work? → 01:15:16 - What does she want her future outside of sex work to look like? → 01:17:30 - Does she see herself leaving sex work one day? → 01:21:27 - Does she want marriage or kids in the future? → 01:22:37 - Why do some women to work with pimps? → 01:25:38 - Why is there so much division within the sex work community? Show links: → https://youtu.be/8Wfbhk91A44 Check Out Lexi: → https://allmylinks.com/littlemisslexxi → https://littlemisslexxi.com More We Are All Insane: → OFFICIAL MERCH NOW AVAILABLE - code INSANE10 gets you 10% off for a limited time: https://shop.wereallinsane.com → Join We’re All Insane Mailing List for EXCLUSIVE Content + Discounts: https://mailchi.mp/6d0e5d7a3998/were-all-insane Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices [https://megaphone.fm/adchoices]

Survivor of Animal R*pe

In today’s episode, a childhood sexual abuse survivor shares what it was like growing up in a home where sexual abuse, including abuse involving animals, was normalized, hidden, and never spoken about. She walks through the reality of grooming, manipulation, and fear, and how those dynamics made it nearly impossible to speak up, even when they knew something was wrong. She opens up about the impact on their relationships, their sense of safety, and the long journey of processing shame, seeking therapy, and eventually finding the courage to share their story publicly. This conversation also explores why so many survivors don’t report, what the legal process actually looks like, and how healing and advocacy can coexist. Sponsored By: → Biologica | Head to https://biologica.com/INSANE [https://biologica.com/INSANE] to get started and get up to 32% off your first subscription order today! Take their Quick Hormonal Life Stage Quiz to find the formula that’s right for you. Check Out Jada: Tik Tok: @jadasadvocacy https://www.tiktok.com/@jadasadvocacy IG: jadasadvocacy https://www.instagram.com/jadasadvocacy/ On This Episode We Cover:  → 00:00:00 - Introduction  → 00:02:14 - What are fawning and flopping as trauma responses? → 00:04:39 - Did her parents allow her to hang out with friends, and were there good times in her childhood? → 00:06:16 - What were the specifics of the abuse, and what happened in court? → 00:07:58 - What are the misconceptions and minimization around bestiality and sexual abuse? → 00:12:43 - How do premeditation and grooming play a role in abuse? → 00:14:12 - Did the abuse happen to everyone in the household? → 00:15:28 - What was her mother and stepfather’s relationship like? → 00:16:45 - Did she confide in friends or share what was happening at home during school? → 00:19:42 - Did the larger community have any idea what was going on? → 00:22:29 - Who did she tell at age 14, and how did her first love play a role? → 00:25:58 - What caused the turmoil with her sister? → 00:27:26 - What happened when her sister found out? → 00:29:59 - How did her mother’s abuse reflect generational trauma? → 00:33:31 - What was her relationship like with her biological father and grandmother? → 00:38:24 - Why is it so hard to report abuse, even when you want to? → 00:41:12 - What happens when you file a police report for abuse? → 00:43:51 - What does it mean to not feel ready to report abuse? → 00:53:01 - What was her experience starting therapy and wanting her feelings acknowledged? → 00:58:42 - Why did she stop therapy and choose to share her story online? → 01:01:51 - What is the difference between intent and impact, especially with demeaning jokes? → 01:10:23 - What happened when she reposted her story and shared it with family on Facebook? → 01:15:01 - How did she resist fear and intimidation from her stepdad? → 01:19:13 - Why don’t many survivors report abuse? → 01:28:09 - What legal changes have happened around child abuse, and when? → 01:32:24 - What is the process of going to court, especially more than once? → 01:34:46 - What does the investigation process look like? → 01:38:46 - What happened with abuse from others and illegal photos? → 01:46:31 - What were the family dynamics like with her mother and uncle? → 01:51:55 - What did her healing journey look like, especially within marriage? → 01:56:45 - Why do people repeat cycles of abuse? → 02:00:16 - Why is it hard to navigate relationships after complex trauma? → 02:04:03 - How do you process shame and step into advocacy? More We Are All Insane:  → OFFICIAL MERCH NOW AVAILABLE - code INSANE10 gets you 10% off for a limited time [https://were-all-insane.myshopify.com/] → Join We’re All Insane Mailing List for EXCLUSIVE Content + Discounts  [https://mailchi.mp/6d0e5d7a3998/were-all-insane] Further Listening: → My Dad and Brother are R*pists [https://youtu.be/Jd_zKt8nHUQ] Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices [https://megaphone.fm/adchoices]

Found My Daughter Dead in Her Crib

When Candyce’s daughter Delilah was just one week away from her first birthday, she passed away in her sleep from Sudden Infant Death Syndrome. What followed was a devastating reality of unanswered questions, overwhelming grief, and learning how to live after losing a child. In this episode, Candyce shares the morning she found her daughter, the guilt and isolation that came after, and how she’s turning her pain into purpose while keeping Delilah’s memory alive. Sponsored By: → Just Thrive | Get your health in check and save 20% on your first order at https://justthrivehealth.com/INSANE [https://justthrivehealth.com/INSANE] On This Episode We Cover:  → 00:00:00 — Introduction → 00:02:23 — What happened the morning her baby passed away? → 00:05:20 — How do SIDS investigations work? → 00:06:12 — Do they know what causes SIDS? → 00:08:01 — How many infant deaths are attributed to SIDS? → 00:09:25 — What was the day before her passing like? → 00:12:02 — Are there pregnancy and infant loss support groups? → 00:14:11 — Why is it so important to spread awareness about SIDS? → 00:16:54 — Why is it important for mothers to share their experiences? → 00:19:28 — What is it like to search for someone who can relate? → 00:21:09 — How do you continue to live life after losing your child? → 00:23:43 — Why does grief make people feel so uncomfortable? → 00:25:28 — How does loss and grief compound over time? → 00:26:47 — What signs is she seeing from her daughter? → 00:29:26 — Why is the loss of a child so deeply heartbreaking? → 00:30:54 — What are the side effects of Zoloft and Wellbutrin? → 00:31:53 — Is there any new research on SIDS? → 00:36:43 — How do you support someone grieving after SIDS? → 00:39:35 — Why is it important to find a safe place to share? → 00:41:48 — What are some of the theories about SIDS? → 00:45:29 — What are her plans moving forward? Show Links:  → American Academy of Pediatrics (Safe Sleep Guidelines) [https://www.aap.org/en/patient-care/safe-sleep/?srsltid=AfmBOop3_eVeztL2rjfsjRyZRtR-_8pVGQFO7KlApJECrI7Zg3acmXE2] → CDC - SIDS & Safe Sleep [https://www.cdc.gov/sudden-infant-death/index.html] → Safe to Sleep Campaign (NIH) [https://safetosleep.nichd.nih.gov/] → First Candle (education and grief support) [https://firstcandle.org/] → Cribs for Kids [https://cribsforkids.org/] → Pregnancy and Infant Loss Support [https://www.pilsos.org/] Further Listening: → My Daughter Has Been Abducted for 15 Years [https://youtu.be/EKc2oD7A7Oc] More We Are All Insane:  → OFFICIAL MERCH NOW AVAILABLE - code INSANE10 gets you 10% off for a limited time [https://were-all-insane.myshopify.com/] → Join We’re All Insane Mailing List for EXCLUSIVE Content + Discounts  [https://mailchi.mp/6d0e5d7a3998/were-all-insane] Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices [https://megaphone.fm/adchoices]

My Dad and Brother are Rapists

Maddy was six years old when her father went to prison - but no one told her why. Growing up, everything felt confusing, unstable, and unspoken. The truth was always there… just never explained. In this episode, she shares what it was like growing up in a home where abuse was ignored, secrets were kept, and she was left to figure it out on her own. Sponsored By: → Hers: Ready to reach your goals? Visit https://forhers.com/insane to get personalized, affordable care that gets you. → Lucy: Find LUCY near you at https://lucy.co/stores,or save 20% on your first online order at https://lucy.co/INSANE with promo code INSANE. On This Episode We Cover:  → 00:00:00 – What makes someone finally decide to share their story? → 00:00:35 – What happens when a parent goes to prison during childhood? → 00:01:20 – How do parents’ backgrounds shape a child’s life? → 00:03:00 – What does a toxic relationship between parents look like? → 00:04:45 – What does early childhood feel like before everything changes? → 00:06:30 – When do childhood experiences first start to feel wrong? → 00:07:55 – What leads to a parent receiving a long prison sentence? → 00:09:10 – What happens when a parent suddenly disappears from a child’s life? → 00:10:40 – What is it like growing up without stability? → 00:12:45 – Why do some children feel like outsiders in their own family? → 00:15:10 – How can a sibling become controlling or abusive? → 00:19:30 – What happens when abuse becomes normalized at home? → 00:22:50 – When does a difficult situation start to escalate? → 00:25:10 – What does it look like when boundaries are completely crossed? → 00:27:15 – How does abuse begin and go unnoticed? → 00:30:10 – How do children process traumatic experiences at a young age? → 00:31:30 – What happens when no one steps in to help? → 00:33:10 – Why do families suddenly relocate or start over? → 00:35:45 – How do children discover difficult family truths on their own? → 00:38:10 – What changes after moving to a new environment? → 00:40:50 – How do sibling relationships shift over time? → 00:42:30 – What happens when a troubled family member returns home? → 00:44:30 – How can harmful patterns continue in new environments? → 00:46:45 – What does a breaking point within a family look like? → 00:48:20 – Why are some children sent away from home? → 00:50:20 – What does a safe and stable home feel like after chaos? → 00:52:30 – What happens when someone returns to an unstable environment? → 00:54:30 – How can a parent’s new relationship impact the family dynamic? Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices [https://megaphone.fm/adchoices]

Born Into Feederism

Groomed from childhood into a hidden fetish world, Jess spent years trapped in trauma, addiction, and a 700+ lb spiral, until losing everything forced a shocking fight to reclaim her life. → We're All Insane Plus for Bonus Episodes, Ad-Free Listening, Access to New Show, Guided Mediations:  ⁠https://wereallinsane.com⁠ [https://www.youtube.com/redirect?event=video_description&redir_token=QUFFLUhqa3lkSU1SSG9kTlRMVzUtMFB3Y0x2djNtbUo2UXxBQ3Jtc0treTdBSmdyMzh6QzFSYzllWTN0R2dFSWx4Y2NLTk9MVXF3VDhMX3d5YmhKWmIwYmdKVU9zcnVITFJKS1otRUdrTkVlcFR0SGxCdmlRbVc3V0liZ3JBX2Yxd3VNVlpLTEpWUG9OMEJtTkxCemgzM21HOA&q=https%3A%2F%2Fwereallinsane.com%2F&v=7ySVgHXbjBE] Sponsored By: → Just Thrive | Get your health in check and save 20% on your first order at ⁠https://justthrivehealth.com/INSANE⁠ [https://justthrivehealth.com/INSANE] → Shopify | It’s time to turn those “What Ifs” into “cha ching” with Shopify today. Sign up for your one-dollar-per-month trial today at ⁠https://shopify.com/insane⁠ [https://shopify.com/insane] Timestamps:  → 00:00:00 – What does it feel like to realize your entire life was shaped before you even understood it? → 00:02:30 – What is feederism and how can it be introduced to a child without them realizing? → 00:03:10 – How can grooming happen even without physical abuse? → 00:05:00 – How can food, dieting, and control be used as psychological manipulation? → 00:06:00 – Why would someone secretly sabotage a child’s health for their own pleasure? → 00:07:00 – How does public humiliation play a role in control and manipulation? → 00:09:10 – How can fear be used to control a child’s behavior? → 00:12:40 – When does manipulation escalate into something more dangerous? → 00:14:50 – How does exposure to adult content at a young age shape identity? → 00:18:50 – How does grooming evolve as a child becomes a teenager? → 00:19:40 – What happens when a minor is brought into adult environments like clubs? → 00:22:30 – Why are teenagers especially vulnerable to harmful relationships? → 00:23:30 – What happens when a toxic relationship takes over your life? → 00:26:00 – What does feeder behavior look like in relationships and how extreme can it get? → 00:29:50 – How does someone transition from grooming into adult industry work? → 00:31:20 – Why can harmful environments feel familiar or even safe? → 00:34:10 – How do people separate their identity from their work to cope? → 00:36:00 – How can your body become tied to validation, income, and relationships? → 00:38:50 – What happens when survival pushes you into increasingly risky situations? → 00:40:20 – How can predators exploit vulnerability and past trauma? → 00:42:50 – What happens when boundaries are completely erased in relationships? → 00:45:00 – How does toxic behavior become normalized within communities? → 00:49:00 – When do you start realizing something is deeply wrong? → 00:52:00 – Why is it so hard to recognize grooming while it’s happening? → 00:59:00 – What happens when you finally start unpacking trauma in therapy? → 01:01:20 – How do you realize what you experienced was actually abuse? → 01:03:00 – How can abusers continue manipulating even after they’re out of your life? → 01:05:40 – How can financial dependence keep someone stuck in harmful work? → 01:07:20 – How quickly can physical health decline when mental health collapses? → 01:10:00 – What does rock bottom actually look like in real life? → 01:13:20 – How can loss and addiction push someone to their breaking point? → 01:16:30 – What happens in the moment you decide whether to live or die? → 01:19:40 – How do you rebuild your life after hitting rock bottom? → 01:22:00 – How do people react when you stop being the version of you they expect? → 01:24:30 – How do you let go of fear and trust that the right path will find you? → 01:28:30 – What does it feel like to finally enjoy your life again? Jess’s Links: → ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jessteacakes⁠ [https://www.tiktok.com/@jessteacakes] → ⁠https://linktr.ee/teacakesjess⁠ [https://linktr.ee/teacakesjess] More We're All Insane:  → ⁠OFFICIAL MERCH NOW AVAILABLE - code INSANE10 gets you 10% off for a limited time⁠ [https://were-all-insane.myshopify.com/] → ⁠Join We’re All Insane Mailing List for EXCLUSIVE Content + Discounts  [https://mailchi.mp/6d0e5d7a3998/were-all-insane] Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices [https://megaphone.fm/adchoices]