The aftermath of recovering from an eating disorder…

How to get over a boy ft. my Kiss List

I'm not kidding when I said it took me two years to get over a boy I dated for 2 months. It doesn't matter who broke up with who, it doesn't matter how intimate you got, or how much you knew about each other. Sometimes it's just fucking hard to get over a boy, any boy! In today's episode I go over my Kiss List (everyone I've ever kissed) and speak honestly about my experiences with intimacy + all the tips and advice I've learnt from my experiences. You will be able to get over them, I promise, and even if it's just passing time for a while, I'll be here weekly :) Appreciate you all so much, thanks for the love and support! Xxx Lydia ‘Children of Divorce’ is available wherever you get your podcasts, including Spotify, Apple Podcasts, and YouTube Find me on TikTok & Instagram under @childrenofdivorcepod and @lydianathenson

I felt the fear & I don’t want to do it anyways!

We've all heard the phrase 'feel the fear & do it anyways,' but what about those of us who can't? Those of us who are too scared, who are paralysed by the fear, who can't even step one inch closer to the door? I've been there guys. In the past, my fear of weight gain stopped me from recovering from my eating disorder for nearly a decade. My fear of what others thought of me prohibited me from showing up as my authentic self & instead I presented a false version of myself, which others found more palatable, but ultimately left me alone in the end when I couldn't keep up with the mask. My fear of rejection left me alone for years with no friends or romantic partners, and my fear of judgement left me small and shallow. With that being said, I managed to move past those fears, and if I can post a picture of me & my AI boyfriend to my personal instagram account, you can send that text or eat over your calorie limit. The point of today's episode is not to 'just do it,' credentials to the very famous athleisure brand, but instead to wrap your head around the potential false nature of your fear. I was scared that gaining weight would make me look like a monster, and I look pretty! (if I do say so myself) I was scared that posting on Instagram would make people judge me and cause me to be a social outcast, and now I've found more freedom than ever & a real passion for something in life. Almost 99% of the time, the outcome isn't what you feared, and even if it is, we can get over it. Guys, like they say in Alexander Hamilton, 'Death is easy, living is harder.' You'll get your peace, nothing lasts forever, so while we have this time here, go after the things you want! I'm always a DM away if you need anything/a helping hand :) LOTS OF LOVE! Xxx Lydia ‘Children of Divorce’ is available wherever you get your podcasts, including Spotify, Apple Podcasts, and YouTube Find me on TikTok & Instagram under @childrenofdivorcepod and @lydianathenson

The aftermath of recovering from an eating disorder…

Ok, so you gain the weight. And you feel so much more free around food. But why do you still get those thoughts? Why does that voice find its way in somehow? How are we supposed to cope with bad body image days when we are barely recovering from an eating disorder? I wish I could tell you exactly what to do, but I can't, I can only tell you exactly what I feel. In today's episode, I speak about the aftermath of recovering from an eating disorder, from how I manage bad days to how I navigate my relationships with people who have eating disorders, we cover a lot this episode. And of course there is always time for our usual chitchat; if anyone wants to know, I disclose my summer plans as well at the end!  I appreciate you all so much, thanks for listening to another episode of 'Children of Divorce'. I hope you're doing well and you're safe, if you're not, I know it will change for you one day. Hold on. Big kiss everyone xxx Lydia  ‘Children of Divorce’ is available wherever you get your podcasts, including Spotify, Apple Podcasts, and YouTube Find me on TikTok & Instagram under @childrenofdivorcepod and @lydianathenson

Calorie Counting?! I know her…

Anyone else been down the deep dark well of calorie counting? Oh it's not fun. Counting every single calorie you put in your body, even if it's a piece of gum. Trying to push your lunch and dinner to as late as possible so you'll somehow wake up less hungry the next day? Restricting yourself so much that you are so fucking hungry that you then eat everything and more, and then for those of you that are fellow bulimics, you make yourself sick after. It’s hard out here.  In today’s episode, I speak about my experience with an eating disorder and calorie counting.  How did it take over my life? How did my eating disorder look like? How did I get out of it? I’m not here to be angry with you if you are still engaged in eating disorder behaviours - I know how hard it is, especially when you feel so stuck. I’m just here to share my story and I hope that you find some reassurance in it - if I can get out, you can too.  I love you all and I’m so proud of you for getting through the day. It’s hard. You work so hard to just live. One day it will make sense, one day it will mean something. One day you will have peace, and one day the pain will leave. You got this. Thanks for coming here today. Look after yourselves as best as you can and I’ll speak to you in the next episode. XXX Lydia  ‘Children of Divorce’ is available wherever you get your podcasts, including Spotify, Apple Podcasts, and YouTube Find me on TikTok & Instagram under @childrenofdivorcepod and @lydianathenson

Be patient...you kind of have no other option

Anyone else frustrated? Anyone else feel like they've been waiting so long....for love, for a new opportunity, for a new career, for an upgrade from the life that they've been living? I'm here to say I know the feeling, I've lived it. I've spent years thinking I can't do this for another day only to have to say that to myself the next day again, and again, and again. It's not that we aren't trying. It's not that we aren't putting ourselves out there. It's not that we're not good enough. it's not that we're not pretty enough. IT'S NOT US! And that's the hard truth to face. It's out of our control. So the only option we have is to sit and be patient. How on God's green earth are we meant to be patient though? I wish I had a simple fix for you. I wish I had the answers. But I hope you find some solace in the fact that it's not just you, and also, that is get's better, that things do change! That you aren't waiting for nothing, that you are waiting for something REAL. Thanks as always for listening, I appreciate you guys so much. ALL THE LOVE! XXX Lydia ‘Children of Divorce’ is available wherever you get your podcasts, including Spotify, Apple Podcasts, and YouTube Find me on TikTok & Instagram under @childrenofdivorcepod and @lydianathenson