The Shocking Truth About Aging & Losing Loved Ones

The Shocking Truth About Aging & Losing Loved Ones

Man, let me tell you something. Life hits different when you hit 64. I'm not just talkin' about the body startin' to feel the years, but the mind too. The weight of grief hits deep, ya feel me? Losing my mother, father, uncle, and brother, each in their own way, changed me. My brother, he passed away alone, wasn't found for four days. That mess stays with you. Now, every time I get behind that wheel, anxiety kicks in. I worry, man. I'm starting to wonder if it's the same cognitive decline my parents went through, if I'm headed down that road too. Money's tighter than tight, and with everything else I've gotta carry, the emotional load just keeps buildin'. I'm always holdin' others up, and sometimes I feel like I'm sinking myself. But then I get down to Texas to film the podcast, and that moment... it lit me up. My sister and daughter, they came through, showing love and pride. That felt like something I needed. And let me tell you, that homelessness episode? My favorite by far. There's this one guest, formerly incarcerated, struggling, feeling lost. We had this real talk and for the first time, he felt seen, like he could reconnect with his daughter. That hit hard in a good way. I can't lie, sometimes I feel lost. I avoid calls, I get overwhelmed. But don't mistake that for weakness. I ain't gonna quit. I'm still pushin', still tryin' to be a better podcaster, to get better, to find that hope. You ain't gonna see me give up. I've got to keep fighting. _____________ Fam, real talk, thank you for rocking with me. This chair is only growing because y'all keep showing up. If you want to help us keep it going, here's the clear path: 👉 Listen and share: Catch From Behind This Chair on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, or YouTube, then send this to one person who needs it. 👉 Pull up closer on Patreon: Tap the Patreon link in the bio and join from $10 a month for early drops, bonus conversations, and behind-the-scenes. 👉 Show love through the shop: Hit the online shop via the link in bio and grab something from the Chair Collection. Pull up a chair, join the community: Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/cw/thefbtcpodcast [https://www.patreon.com/cw/thefbtcpodcast] Shop: https://frombehindthischair.com/collections/the-chair-collection [https://frombehindthischair.com/collections/the-chair-collection] IG: https://www.instagram.com/frombehindthischair/ [https://www.instagram.com/frombehindthischair/] FB: https://www.facebook.com/frombehindthischair [https://www.facebook.com/frombehindthischair] TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@frombehindthischair [https://www.tiktok.com/@frombehindthischair] X: https://x.com/thefbtcpodcast [https://x.com/thefbtcpodcast]

My Son Wanted to Quit Music… I Stopped Him

In this episode of From Behind This Chair, I'm sitting down with my middle son, Emmanuel, and we get into the kind of father and son conversation that a lot of families never really have out loud. We talk about fear, pride, discipline, parenting, and what happens when somebody gifted starts losing the love for what they do. Emmanuel opens up about music, songwriting, and why the industry, the pressure, and all the eyes on you can make you want to back away from your own calling. But me, I'm not letting him quit on himself like that. This is a real talk about family, strict parenting, academic growth, and the tension that can live between love and discipline. We go back to the harder seasons too, the clashes, the lessons, the reading, the honor roll, and the push that helped shape him. Then we get into the deeper part, the pain behind the lyrics he wrote, and how that pain turned into the theme song for From Behind This Chair. As a father, that meant something to me. For real. One of the greatest gifts I have ever received. If you have ever wrestled with your purpose, your parents, or your own voice, this one is for you. Watch From Behind This Chair on YouTube, or listen on Apple Podcasts and Spotify. _____________ Fam, real talk, thank you for rocking with me. This chair is only growing because y'all keep showing up. If you want to help us keep it going, here's the clear path: 👉 Listen and share: Catch From Behind This Chair on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, or YouTube, then send this to one person who needs it. 👉 Pull up closer on Patreon: Tap the Patreon link in the bio and join from $10 a month for early drops, bonus conversations, and behind-the-scenes. 👉 Show love through the shop: Hit the online shop via the link in bio and grab something from the Chair Collection. Pull up a chair, join the community: Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/cw/thefbtcpodcast [https://www.patreon.com/cw/thefbtcpodcast] Shop: https://frombehindthischair.com/collections/the-chair-collection [https://frombehindthischair.com/collections/the-chair-collection] IG: https://www.instagram.com/frombehindthischair/ [https://www.instagram.com/frombehindthischair/] FB: https://www.facebook.com/frombehindthischair [https://www.facebook.com/frombehindthischair] TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@frombehindthischair [https://www.tiktok.com/@frombehindthischair] X: https://x.com/thefbtcpodcast [https://x.com/thefbtcpodcast]

We Came From Poverty, Football Was Our Way Out

In this reunion episode of From Behind This Chair, I'm sitting down with two people who go way back with me, Victor Jackson, now Pastor Victor Jackson, and Tino Wilson. This is real friendship, real brotherhood, and the kind of bond that comes from high school football, college football, and growing through life together. We take it back nearly 50 years, talking about the work, the discipline, and the way football shaped us. We get into stories about my work ethic, my hands, my route running, and the practices that made all of us better. Victor talks about what it meant to compete, to be pushed, and how those moments helped him earn his spot. We also talk about the bigger picture, moving from Ohio to Texas, chasing football scholarships, and being Black students on a mostly Anglo West Texas college campus. We speak on the racism, the pressure, the hard times, and how loyalty kept us together even when life had us in different places. And because this is still From Behind This Chair, we do not just stay serious. We laugh too, about retirement after 40 years in law enforcement, thrift store hunting, drawing designs in haircuts, and the little things that tell the bigger story. This one is about Black friendship, football brotherhood, Texas football culture, loyalty, and the people who knew you before the world did. Watch, like, and subscribe, and come sit with us. _____________ Fam, real talk, thank you for rocking with me. This chair is only growing because y'all keep showing up. If you want to help us keep it going, here's the clear path: 👉 Listen and share: Catch From Behind This Chair on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, or YouTube, then send this to one person who needs it. 👉 Pull up closer on Patreon: Tap the Patreon link in the bio and join from $10 a month for early drops, bonus conversations, and behind-the-scenes. 👉 Show love through the shop: Hit the online shop via the link in bio and grab something from the Chair Collection. Pull up a chair, join the community: Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/cw/thefbtcpodcast Shop: https://frombehindthischair.com/collections/the-chair-collection IG: https://www.instagram.com/frombehindthischair/ FB: https://www.facebook.com/frombehindthischair TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@frombehindthischair X: https://x.com/thefbtcpodcast [https://x.com/thefbtcpodcast]

Everybody Has That One Childhood Whooping Story

In this homecoming episode of From Behind This Chair, I'm sitting down with my sisters, Alice and Doretha, and we're taking it all the way back. We get into the kind of childhood memories that stay with you, having to choose food over fixing a cold house, getting pushed into hard moments way too young, and learning lessons the rough way. We talk about everything from a childhood fight our mother had a hand in, to me getting scarred up by barbed wire, to working jobs that left real marks, including the time my finger got cut on a pie-wrapping machine. We also laugh about the stuff only family can laugh about, counting change, playing school with our cousins, the candy house, the pig story, the five sisters, all of it. And somewhere in between the funny stories and the painful ones, we talk about what it means to still be here, still be connected, and still make time for each other. By the end of it, we made a promise to come back together every year, because this kind of bonding matters. _____________ Fam, real talk, thank you for rocking with me. This chair is only growing because y'all keep showing up. If you want to help us keep it going, here's the clear path: 👉 Listen and share: Catch From Behind This Chair on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, or YouTube, then send this to one person who needs it. 👉 Pull up closer on Patreon: Tap the Patreon link in the bio and join from $10 a month for early drops, bonus conversations, and behind-the-scenes. 👉 Show love through the shop: Hit the online shop via the link in bio and grab something from the Chair Collection. Pull up a chair, join the community: Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/cw/thefbtcpodcast [https://www.patreon.com/cw/thefbtcpodcast] Shop: https://frombehindthischair.com/collections/the-chair-collection [https://frombehindthischair.com/collections/the-chair-collection] IG: https://www.instagram.com/frombehindthischair/ [https://www.instagram.com/frombehindthischair/] FB: https://www.facebook.com/frombehindthischair [https://www.facebook.com/frombehindthischair] TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@frombehindthischair [https://www.tiktok.com/@frombehindthischair] X: https://x.com/thefbtcpodcast [https://x.com/thefbtcpodcast]

"If I Could Do Life Over Again…I'd Be a Better Dad", Doc Gets Real About His Regrets

In this episode of From Behind This Chair, I'm chopping it up with James Kamara and Sebastian Poitier about one real question: If you could run life back, what would you do different? James keeps it honest. He talks about wishing he had listened to his mom, taken school serious, and not let embarrassment in ESL classes shake his confidence. Being sent to continuation school changed his path, especially with sports. He also opens up about being raised on fear and whoopings, and how he'd choose encouragement over that with his own kids. Sebastian says he would've locked in on education the same way he locked in on sports. More listening, less ego. And me? I had to own mine too. I was strict. Too strict sometimes. Led with fear instead of listening. I share how Coach Wallace gave me discipline that changed my life, but I've learned growth means admitting where you could've done better. This one's about accountability, reflection, and doing better moving forward. Pull up a chair. _____________ Fam, real talk, thank you for rocking with me. This chair is only growing because y'all keep showing up. If you want to help us keep it going, here's the clear path: 👉 Listen and share: Catch From Behind This Chair on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, or YouTube, then send this to one person who needs it. 👉 Pull up closer on Patreon: Tap the Patreon link in the bio and join from $10 a month for early drops, bonus conversations, and behind-the-scenes. 👉 Show love through the shop: Hit the online shop via the link in bio and grab something from the Chair Collection. Pull up a chair, join the community: Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/cw/thefbtcpodcast [https://www.patreon.com/cw/thefbtcpodcast] Shop: https://frombehindthischair.com/collections/the-chair-collection [https://frombehindthischair.com/collections/the-chair-collection] IG: https://www.instagram.com/frombehindthischair/ [https://www.instagram.com/frombehindthischair/] FB: https://www.facebook.com/frombehindthischair [https://www.facebook.com/frombehindthischair] TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@frombehindthischair [https://www.tiktok.com/@frombehindthischair] X: https://x.com/thefbtcpodcast [https://x.com/thefbtcpodcast]