How Do We Hold Space for Ourselves?

What is Real?

What if imagination is just as real as the chair you're sitting on? After two weeks dreaming herself awake in the Anza-Borrego desert, Yulya came back with a question — and brought it into this conversation, where the three of us show up in personas we don't usually wear and use them as a doorway into reality itself. We talk about shared illusions, the cost of living on the fringe of consensus, and why some of us simply can't survive in a world without magic. 📍Chapters 00:00 — Yulya Welcomes: Strange Outfits and "What Is Real?" 02:37 — Yulya's Vision Quest: Anza-Borrego and the Underworld Journey 07:03 — The Games: Playing With "Real" and Assembling Personas 19:33 — Wild Woman, Destroyer, Seductress: The Personas Speak 24:06 — Was the Persona Real — Or Just the Costume? 29:05 — Irina's Frame: Becoming the Character from the Outside In 36:33 — Dumbledore's Answer: "Why Should It Mean It's Not Real?" 39:14 — The Black Cube Experiment: How Society Rewrites What You See 48:13 — Polina: Everything Is Real, Nothing Is Real 50:06 — When Polina Shapeshifted Into a Bird 55:51 — Following Aliveness and the Cost of Being Shunned 1:02:00 — The Body Refuses: A World Without Magic 1:15:39 — Irina's Bun Date: "Please Take It Down" 1:20:49 — On the Outskirts: Three Closings on Aliveness and Owning It 1:26:17 — Polina's Twist: The Joy of Range Find us here: * Life in Flow Podcast [https://lifeinflowgroup.substack.com/podcast] * Yulia Bogdanova [https://yuliabogdanova.substack.com/about] * Polina Khodova [http://coachingbypolina.com/] * Irina Mishina [https://www.instagram.com/new.eon.shift.eng/] 💌 Resources used under Creative Commons license: Music “Echolocation” by airtone, source: CcMixter Get full access to Life In Flow at www.lifeinflowgroup.com/subscribe [https://www.lifeinflowgroup.com/subscribe?utm_medium=podcast&utm_campaign=CTA_4]

Where does sacredness live?

What if the most important transitions of your life need more than just going through the motions? Sparked by Polina's raw experience of losing her father and grandfather, this conversation moves from the somatic signatures of words like "ritual" and "sacred" into the deep territory of what makes ceremony real — and what happens when it's missing. Through stories of funerals, theater rehearsals, vision quests, and sleeping under the moon, we explore how sacredness differs from flow, why one person's inattention can break the fabric of a shared ritual, and whether the morphic field already holds everything we need — if we're willing to open the door. 📍Chapters 00:00 - Intro 01:15 - Today's Topic: Transitions, Rituals & Witnessing 05:13 - Somatic Game: What Does "Ritual" Feel Like? 09:30 - Somatic Game: What Does "Sacred" Feel Like? 27:13 - What Is “Sacred”? 30:00 - How Is Sacredness Different From Flow? 44:10 - Sacredness of Death & Wisdom of the Morphic Field 49:19 - Sacred Creativity: Disrupting the Group Flow 53:33 - The Sacredness of Flow of Life 56:07 - Empty Rituals vs Sacred Ceremonies 59:29 - Polina's Story: Experiences of Death Rituals 01:03:45 - Cosmological View of Death 01:07:09 - Altered States vs Flow States of Sacredness 01:11:45 - Meaning, Morphic Fields, and Access to Sacredness 01:15:10 - The Sacred Transmission: Feeling His Cells in Mine 01:17:13 - Sitting Shiva: Rituals That Hold Grief 01:18:52 - The Significance of the Underworld 01:21:20 - Rites of Passage We've Lost 01:23:23 - Sacredness of the Physicality 01:27:50 - Closing Reflections: Rituals for Accessing Something Bigger 01:36:12 - Outro Find us here: * Life in Flow Podcast [https://lifeinflowgroup.substack.com/podcast] * Yulia Bogdanova [https://yuliabogdanova.substack.com/about] * Polina Khodova [http://coachingbypolina.com/] * Irina Mishina [https://www.instagram.com/new.eon.shift.eng/] 💌 Resources used under Creative Commons license: Music “Echolocation” by airtone, source: CcMixter Get full access to Life In Flow at www.lifeinflowgroup.com/subscribe [https://www.lifeinflowgroup.com/subscribe?utm_medium=podcast&utm_campaign=CTA_4]

Is There Free Will?

Does choosing chocolate ice cream after a heartbreak count as a free decision — or is your biology running the show? In this episode, we wrestle with the slippery line between free will and agency, exploring how our bodies, lineages, and the living world around us co-create every move we make. Through a surprising paradox — how total surrender of free will leads to rediscovering it — we arrive at a question even bigger than where we started: not whether we make decisions, but who within us is making them. 📍Chapters 00:00 — Intro  1:15 — Welcome and episode context  5:05 — Metaphor game: what does free will feel like?  10:13 — Metaphor game: what does no free will feel like?  16:05 — What frameworks shape your view of free will?  19:15 — Yulia's framework: free will vs agency  33:53 — Polina's framework: a pointless question?  36:05 — The best decisions aren't decisions  42:17 — Polina's story: being decided on  49:44 — The soul's place in the web of life 52:53 — Irina's frameworks: Human Design meets magic school  1:00:29 — Different levels of free will 1:08:23 — Is free will a modern invention?  1:11:33 — But are we making decisions or not?  1:21:29 — The real question: who is the "I" that decides?  1:25:08 — Are we happy not having free will?  1:32:02 — Where did we each show up today? 1:34:40 — Outro Find us here: * Life in Flow Podcast [https://lifeinflowgroup.substack.com/podcast] * Yulia Bogdanova [https://yuliabogdanova.substack.com/about] * Polina Khodova [http://coachingbypolina.com/] * Irina Mishina [https://www.instagram.com/new.eon.shift.eng/] 💌 Resources used under Creative Commons license: Music “Echolocation” by airtone, source: CcMixter Get full access to Life In Flow at www.lifeinflowgroup.com/subscribe [https://www.lifeinflowgroup.com/subscribe?utm_medium=podcast&utm_campaign=CTA_4]

What is real?

What if imagination is just as real as the chair you're sitting on? After two weeks dreaming herself awake in the Anza-Borrego desert, Yulya came back with a question — and brought it into this conversation, where the three of us show up in personas we don't usually wear and use them as a doorway into reality itself. We talk about shared illusions, the cost of living on the fringe of consensus, and why some of us simply can't survive in a world without magic. 📍Chapters 00:00 — Yulya Welcomes: Strange Outfits and "What Is Real?" 02:37 — Yulya's Vision Quest: Anza-Borrego and the Underworld Journey 07:03 — The Games: Playing With "Real" and Assembling Personas 19:33 — Wild Woman, Destroyer, Seductress: The Personas Speak 24:06 — Was the Persona Real — Or Just the Costume? 29:05 — Irina's Frame: Becoming the Character from the Outside In 36:33 — Dumbledore's Answer: "Why Should It Mean It's Not Real?" 39:14 — The Black Cube Experiment: How Society Rewrites What You See 48:13 — Polina: Everything Is Real, Nothing Is Real 50:06 — When Polina Shapeshifted Into a Bird 55:51 — Following Aliveness and the Cost of Being Shunned 1:02:00 — The Body Refuses: A World Without Magic 1:15:39 — Irina's Bun Date: "Please Take It Down" 1:20:49 — On the Outskirts: Three Closings on Aliveness and Owning It 1:26:17 — Polina's Twist: The Joy of Range Find us here: * Life in Flow Podcast [https://lifeinflowgroup.substack.com/podcast] * Yulia Bogdanova [https://yuliabogdanova.substack.com/about] * Polina Khodova [http://coachingbypolina.com/] * Irina Mishina [https://www.instagram.com/new.eon.shift.eng/] 💌 Resources used under Creative Commons license: Music “Echolocation” by airtone, source: CcMixter Get full access to Life In Flow at www.lifeinflowgroup.com/subscribe [https://www.lifeinflowgroup.com/subscribe?utm_medium=podcast&utm_campaign=CTA_4]

How Do We Converge Generatively?

What happens when "yes, and" meets the necessity of "no"? Picking up from our exploration of utopia and the dance between the individual and the collective, we sit with a structural truth: the realm of infinite possibilities is beautiful, but nothing actually happens there. Through a rapid-fire game of impossible choices, Yulya's story of choosing from the body during her son's illness, and Polina's closing reframe, we explore what convergence feels like somatically, why creative people struggle with it most, and whether we're making decisions at all — or just floating on a raft, thinking we steer. Chapters: 00:00 — Welcome to the Life in Flow Podcast 01:15 — Beyond "Yes, And": Why We Also Need to Converge 04:00 — Irina's Frame: Divergence and Convergence in Every Creative Process 06:46 — The Central Question: How Do We Converge Generatively? 09:41 — The "This or That" Game: Rapid-Fire Forced Choices 24:45 — Behind the Masks: How Does Forced Choice Actually Feel? 26:22 — Yulya's Story: A Sick Son and a Pine Tree's Guidance 33:14 — The FOMO of Convergence: When Every Path Calls You 38:00 — Polina: Every Choice Is an Energetic Gamble 40:26 — The Subway Map of Lost Futures 44:35 — The Energetic Signature: Feeling the Pull Before You Decide 47:53 — Does Making a Choice Mean Giving Up Who You Are? 58:09 — Freeze, Depression, and the Hidden Cost of Not Choosing 01:11:38 — Polina's Twist: What If We Never Actually Choose? 01:14:38 — Yulya's Vision Quest: Being Dreamed by the Desert Find us here: * Life in Flow Podcast [https://lifeinflowgroup.substack.com/podcast] * Yulia Bogdanova [https://yuliabogdanova.substack.com/about] * Polina Khodova [http://coachingbypolina.com/] * Irina Mishina [https://www.instagram.com/new.eon.shift.eng/] 💌 Resources used under Creative Commons license: Music “Echolocation” by airtone, source: CcMixter Get full access to Life In Flow at www.lifeinflowgroup.com/subscribe [https://www.lifeinflowgroup.com/subscribe?utm_medium=podcast&utm_campaign=CTA_4]