A Special Episode for International Cult Recovery Day

Episode 32 From Holland to Hell Part 2

After 17 years as a sister in the Community of Jesus, Suzan shares the painful and courageous journey that led her to leave everything she knew behind. In this powerful continuation of her story, Suzan describes daily life inside the community, including relentless work schedules, sleep deprivation, public humiliations, physical abuse, food restrictions, and years of control under community leadership. She reflects on the slow realization that something was deeply wrong, the fear that kept her trapped, and the year-long process of preparing to escape. Suzan recounts the dramatic day she walked away with little more than a small bag, a passport, and the hope of finding freedom. But this episode is not only about trauma—it is also about healing. Suzan shares how she rebuilt her life, reconnected with her family after years of separation, found love, and discovered that life beyond a high-control group was possible. Her story is one of resilience, recovery, and the enduring power of reclaiming your own voice. Whether you are a survivor of coercive control, have loved ones in a high-control environment, or simply want to better understand the lasting impact of these experiences, Suzanne's journey offers both insight and hope. "It's never too late to get free." – Suzann

Episode 31 From Holland to Hell

At 18, Suzan Ewton left Holland for what was supposed to be a three-month summer job at Rock Harbor Manor on Cape Cod. It was 17 years before she left. What began as an opportunity to work at a seaside inn quickly became something far darker. Drawn in by promises of purpose, belonging, and a "special calling from God," Suzan became one of the earliest members of what would grow into the Community of Jesus. In Part One of her story, Suzan shares the childhood wounds that made her vulnerable, the manipulation that made her stay, and the disturbing realities she witnessed during the group's earliest years—from forced loyalty and public shaming to physical abuse and the creation of a culture where obedience was everything. This is the story of how a young woman traveled from Holland to Cape Cod—and into a nightmare she never saw coming.

Episode 30 Why We Walk: The Walk for Truth Summer Series

In this special episode of The Cult on the Cape, Bonnie Zampino reflects on the first Community Walk for Truth and the powerful response from survivors, family members, supporters, and community members who gathered in Orleans to stand together in truth, healing, and hope. Bonnie shares why the walk is returning on June 7 as part of the Walk for Truth Summer Series, what participants experienced at the first event, and why continuing to show up matters. This episode explores the power of survivor voices, the importance of public support, and the message at the heart of every Walk for Truth: You are not forgotten. You are loved. You are not alone. Whether you're attending the walk, participating in a solidarity walk from another location, or simply learning more about the experiences of those affected by high-control religious environments, this episode is an invitation to listen, reflect, and join the conversation. 🕊️ Walk for Truth Summer Series 📍 Rock Harbor Parking Lot, Orleans, Massachusetts 📅 June 7, 2026 🕝 2:30 PM – 3:30 PM

Episode 29 Born Inside - Part 2

In Part 2 of Bryan Catlin’s powerful story, Bryan shares what happened after he fled the Community of Jesus — terrified, exhausted, and completely unprepared for the outside world. What followed was a mental health crisis, arrest, hospitalization, and ultimately the beginning of rebuilding a life from scratch. Bryan speaks candidly about fear, isolation, survival, and the lifelong effects of growing up in a high-control environment. He also shares the people who helped save him — a social worker who understood cult dynamics, a father who kept showing up, friends who opened their homes, and the woman who would eventually become his wife. This episode is a raw and deeply human conversation about trauma, forgiveness, family estrangement, parenting after coercive control, and learning how to trust yourself after a lifetime of being told who you were supposed to be. At its heart, this is a story about survival, healing, and building a life that finally belongs to you.

Episode 28 Born Inside

In this deeply personal conversation, Bryan Catlin shares what it was like to be born into the Community of Jesus as the Grandson of the Mother and raised entirely within its world. From loneliness, homeschooling, and life with the brothers, to fear, control, emotional confusion, and repeated attempts to leave, Brian reflects on the complexity of growing up inside a high-control religious environment — where even understanding what was “normal” became difficult. This is Part 1 of an honest and powerful survivor story.