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The Permanancy of Scars

7 min · 3 de jun de 2026
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These posts will always be free, however, if you find them meaningful and would like to consider supporting our online outreach, you can donate using this link. [https://account.venmo.com/pay?recipients=WakeForestPresbyterian-Church] https://account.venmo.com/pay?recipients=WakeForestPresbyterian-Church Scripture: The same night he got up and took his two wives, his two maids, and his eleven children and crossed the ford of the Jabbok. He took them and sent them across the stream, and likewise everything that he had. Jacob was left alone, and a man wrestled with him until daybreak. When the man saw that he did not prevail against Jacob, he struck him on the hip socket, and Jacob’s hip was put out of joint as he wrestled with him. Then he said, “Let me go, for the day is breaking.” But Jacob said, “I will not let you go, unless you bless me.” So he said to him, “What is your name?” And he said, “Jacob.” Then the man said, “You shall no longer be called Jacob, but Israel, for you have striven with God and with humans and have prevailed.” Then Jacob asked him, “Please tell me your name.” But he said, “Why is it that you ask my name?” And there he blessed him. So Jacob called the place Peniel, saying, “For I have seen God face to face, yet my life is preserved.” The sun rose upon him as he passed Penuel, limping because of his hip. Therefore to this day the Israelites do not eat the thigh muscle that is on the hip socket, because he struck Jacob on the hip socket at the thigh muscle. Consider: A couple of weeks ago at Little League Baseball, the 8 year old Shortstop on the other team got hit in the head with a baseball. He misjudged both the speed and trajectory of the ball and it went over the top of his glove and landed with a fairly loud thud on his forehead. Somehow, the ball miraculously bounced off the kid’s head right into the 3rd baseman’s glove for an out, who then threw it to first base to catch the runner who had not tagged up. The Shortstop’s head got a double play. And a concussion. Most of the team shook it off and kept playing, using the unique power of the young male brain to forget those things can happen to them too. But not Henry. He’s been afraid the entire season. We’ve been slowly coaxing him out of that fear by promising the ball wouldn’t hurt him as long as his glove was between his body and the ball. He’s gotten bolder and stronger throughout the season, braver. He’d started making better plays and not running away from it when it passed. Right before Forehead gate he actually got his first hit all season. By the time of the next game he’d lost every ounce of bravery. Every time the ball came towards him he turned away, forgetting the safety of the glove. One time he literally ran away from a ground ball which died on the ground 5 steps behind him. The fear of the ball was back as he’d had time to contemplate and remember. Our culture has an unspoken expectation we are just supposed to “get over it”. We tell kids to get up and brush it off, they are fine. Or we’ll tell them their fear of the dark is silly with off-hand comments like “there is nothing there in the dark that wasn’t there during the day.” I’m rubber your glue dismisses the lasting pain of words bullies in both the adult and children varieties hurl our way. We are supposed to forget, move past it, let it go. And sometimes it is right to get up and get going, but often times it ignores the permanency of some of our scars. There is no way to predict which comments will revolve in our heads for years to come, or which difficult circumstances seem to overwhelm our courage, or why some events leave lasting memories in our hearts. But some do. There is no moving past those kinds of scars, we only learn to live with them like a unwelcome friend we have to invite because we’ve known them so long. When pain changes your view of yourself and the world, it’s a holy act to recognize the change and make space for it in the inventory of your memories. Pretending it doesn’t exist only gives it permission to pop-up in unexpected times and places. Placing it on the shelf where it belongs allows us to revisit it when necessary, but to move it out of the way when we no longer need it. Respond: A highly effective technique when those scars rear their ugly head is called The 5-4-3-2-1 Grounding Method. It uses your five senses to pull your brain out of the fight-or-flight loop and anchor you back into the present moment. Let’s practice. * Acknowledge 5 things you can SEE: Look around you and name five objects out loud or in your head. Try to pick things you wouldn’t normally notice—like a scratch on the floor, a reflection on a window, or a specific book on a shelf. * Acknowledge 4 things you can TOUCH: Notice the physical sensations of four things around you. It could be the texture of your shirt, the hard surface of the chair supporting you, the cold smooth surface of a desk, or the feeling of your feet flat against the ground. Spend a moment feeling each one. * Acknowledge 3 things you can HEAR: Listen closely to your environment. Name three distinct sounds. It might be the hum of a refrigerator, traffic outside, birds chirping, or even the sound of your own steady breathing.’ * Acknowledge 2 things you can SMELL: Identify two smells. If you can’t smell anything immediately, look for things that have a scent—like the smell of your coffee, soap on your hands, a candle, or even the scent of the air in the room. * Acknowledge 1 thing you can TASTE: Focus on one thing you can taste right now. It might be the lingering taste of toothpaste, a mint, or just the inside of your mouth. If you can’t taste anything, simply swallow and notice that sensation. Pray: God, when life takes me through valleys I do not understand, help me trust that You are still working. Teach me to surrender the illusion of control and depend fully on You. Help me trust that even painful detours will be used to shape my character and deepen my faith. Amen. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit wfpc.substack.com [https://wfpc.substack.com?utm_medium=podcast&utm_campaign=CTA_1]

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If no one is watching, what would we do?

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Micro-corrections

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The Justice of Sabbath

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22 de jun de 20263 min
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Stripping away

These posts will always be free, however, if you find them meaningful and would like to consider supporting our online outreach, you can donate using this link. [https://account.venmo.com/pay?recipients=WakeForestPresbyterian-Church] https://account.venmo.com/pay?recipients=WakeForestPresbyterian-Church Scripture: Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their labor:If either of them falls down, one can help the other up.But pity anyone who falls and has no one to help them up. Consider: The clock ticks, the inbox fills, and a quiet whisper echoes in the modern heart: You are what you accomplish. We live in a culture obsessed with the resume. From social media bios to networking events, we are constantly prompted to introduce ourselves by our titles, our productivity, and our accolades. It is a exhausting trap that conditions us to value others—and ourselves—solely by what can be measured on a spreadsheet or engraved on a trophy. But this performance-trap is not a modern invention. Two thousand years ago, the Apostle Paul ran this exact race, and he won it by every human standard. In his letter to the Philippians, Paul reflects on his own pedigree. If anyone had a right to boast in human achievements, it was him. He writes: “Circumcised on the eighth day, of the people of Israel, of the tribe of Benjamin, a Hebrew of Hebrews; in regard to the law, a Pharisee; as for zeal, persecuting the church; as for righteousness based on the law, faultless.” Look at that resume. Paul had the perfect heritage, the elite education, the ultimate religious status, and unmatched drive. By the standards of his day, he was at the absolute top of the ladder. He was highly productive, fiercely committed, and universally respected in his circles. But then, Paul does something radical. He looks at this towering mountain of human accolades, and he reevaluates its worth. He continues: “But whatever were gains to me I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. What is more, I consider everything a loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them garbage, that I may gain Christ and be found in him...” The word Paul uses for “garbage” or “rubbish” in the original Greek is skubala—a gritty, shocking term that refers to street filth or refuse. Paul takes the very achievements that defined his worldly worth and declares them worthless when compared to his fundamental identity in Christ. Why? Because Paul realized that human accolades are a shifting sand. If your identity is built on your titles, who are you when the title is taken away? If your worth is tied to your productivity, what happens when you burn out, grow old, or fail? When we value people based on their achievements, we reduce the image-bearers of God to mere utility. We turn relationships into transactions. But Christ shatters this trap. Our fundamental identity is not earned; it is received. It is not built on our doing, but on what Christ has already done. In the eyes of God, your worth is locked in. You are loved, chosen, and redeemed—not because of your flawless performance, but because of God’s flawless grace. Let us step off the treadmill of human validation. Let us stop measuring the people around us by their productivity and start seeing them through the lens of the cross. Respond: Think about the people you interact with most often (colleagues, family, neighbors). Do you subconsciously value them based on how efficient, successful, or helpful they are to you, or do you view them fundamentally as image-bearers of God? Pray: Lord, We confess that our hearts are prone to wander into the trap of performance. We confess that we so easily tie our worth to our work, our identities to our titles, and our value to our productivity. Forgive us for the times we have looked at others through the lens of utility rather than the lens of grace. Thank You for the reminding example of the Apostle Paul. Today, we choose to step off the treadmill of striving. We lay down our resumes, our need to prove ourselves, and our hunger for human applause. Anchor our souls in the truth of who we are in You: loved, chosen, and redeemed. May Your unconditional grace free us to rest in our true identity and empower us to love others not for what they can do, but for who they are in Your sight. In Jesus’ name, we pray. Amen. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit wfpc.substack.com [https://wfpc.substack.com?utm_medium=podcast&utm_campaign=CTA_1]

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