I Never Believed In Myself

I Never Believed In Myself

For most of my life, I hid behind stronger people. First it was my mom. Then it was my husband. I told myself I was easygoing, supportive, and laid back. But the truth was much harder to admit: I was terrified of responsibility because responsibility meant I could fail. In this deeply personal episode, I share the childhood moment that planted the seed of self-doubt, how I spent years avoiding decisions, what happened when my husband was sentenced to 30 years in prison, and the depression that left me praying, “God, please help me get out of bed.” From starting a wedding photography business with zero experience, to forgetting the code to my lockbox during a season of overwhelming stress, to stepping onto a comedy stage terrified of bombing, this episode is about the fear of not being enough and the surprising truth I discovered about confidence. Because confidence isn’t never feeling scared. It’s moving forward anyway. If you’ve ever questioned yourself, doubted your abilities, struggled with responsibility, battled insecurity, or wondered if you’re capable of more than you’re currently living, this episode is for you. Maybe you don’t need more confidence. Maybe you need proof. And maybe you’ve been stronger than you think all along. #InBedWithChristyLove #SelfWorth #PersonalGrowth #Confidence #MentalHealth #OvercomingFear #Resilience #FaithJourney #SelfDiscovery #PodcastLife

Lucky Starr: The Truth Behind the Name Nobody Talks About

Everyone knows the name Lucky Starr, but very few know the woman behind it.In this episode of In Bed with Christy Love, Lucky opens up about the moments that shaped her life, the challenges people never see, and what it’s really like living behind a public persona. We talk about success, identity, relationships, reinvention, and the lessons she’s learned along the way.This is the side of Lucky Starr you’ve probably never heard before.

EP 15: When Judging People Is Easier Than Understanding Them

It’s easy to judge someone when you only know one version of their story. One headline. One label. One moment. And suddenly… people stop seeing a human being and start seeing a category. In this episode, Christy reflects on the internet reaction surrounding the death of Leo — the owner of OnlyFans — and why the celebration around his death affected her more than the news itself. Because underneath the comments, the outrage, and the moral superiority… was something deeper: The reality of how quickly people judge things they’ve never personally needed to survive. From navigating financial pressure during COVID… to surviving one of the hardest seasons of her life while her husband was in jail… this episode explores the uncomfortable space between survival and perception. Because sometimes… the very thing people condemn is the same thing helping someone stay afloat. And maybe the problem isn’t that people are too different. Maybe it’s that we’re too quick to assume we understand each other.

EP 14: The Hidden Pressure of Having Your Life “Together”

There are people who look calm on the outside organized consistent in control But what if that calm… isn’t actually peace? What if it’s just control working perfectly—until something disrupts it? In this episode, we talk about the kind of pressure that hides behind discipline. The kind that looks strong from the outside… but cracks the moment life doesn’t go according to plan. Because sometimes it’s not anger. It’s not stress. It’s the need for control being challenged. And when that happens… everything feels bigger than it should. If you’ve ever felt “off” over something small, or struggled when things don’t go your way, this conversation will hit deeper than you expect.

EP 13: The Life You’re Living Might Be Built on Fear

There’s a version of fear… that doesn’t look like fear at all. It looks like your personality. Quiet. Careful. Overthinking. Holding back. But what if that was never who you were? In this episode, Christy shares the moment she realized that fear didn’t just show up in her life— it shaped it. From a childhood experience where fear lived in her body before she could even understand it… to the patterns that followed her into adulthood— this is a story about how fear evolves. How it hides. How it convinces you it’s just “who you are.” And how it quietly holds you back without ever sounding like the enemy. Because fear doesn’t always scream. Sometimes it sounds calm. Logical. Protective. “This is safer.” “You don’t have to do this.” But over time, that voice starts making your decisions. And the cost isn’t just emotional. It’s opportunities you never took. Conversations you avoided. Versions of yourself you never became. This episode also explores what happens when you finally confront that voice— not by eliminating fear… but by choosing to move anyway. Because the truth is: Fear doesn’t go away. It just loses control when you stop listening to it.