Not Done Loving

On Choice

On Choice My plastic surgeon said something at my last post-op appointment that completely stopped me in my tracks: "If I see you again, it'll be by choice." After more than seven months of pathology reports, surgeries, chemotherapy, and appointments dictated by cancer, I realized I'd been handed something I hadn't had in a very long time: agency. This episode is about trauma, choice, and a brief moment when life could become mine again.

FAQ: When's Your Next Surgery? What is it? How Are You Coping? Etc. Etc. Etc.

My biggest surgery yet is just days away. In this episode, I share what a Lower Anterior Resection (LAR) is, why it scares me, and how I'm trying to balance preparation with surrender as I face another life-changing chapter of cancer treatment.

Things that are Weird: Part Eight

On strangers going through it, putting on a bra after reconstruction, salads, and adaptability.

Not Done Loving

On the eve of my first cancer surgery, I skip the Super Bowl and follow a quiet pull to hear a group of Buddhist monks on their Walk for Peace. The year before, after divorce, heartbreak, and a visit to the Garden of 1,000 Buddhas in Montana, one unexpected realization changes the way I think about purpose, love, and what it means to keep living.

Diagnosis / Treatment Update: Breast Surgery 2.0 + THE MRI

This week: MRI news, a successful implant surgery, and a clear path to my next surgery on July 28. But behind the scenes: a positive Signatera result, unexpected stomach pain, and some of the hardest mental health days of this journey that have reminded me healing isn't linear—and that acceptance is something we have to practice over and over again.