love is the most excruciating thing i've ever experienced

an exploration into transfiguration

in this episode we dive deep into my word for the year of 2023: transfiguration!! transfiguration is the foundational frequency of pearl, and also so much of my work. i talk largely about transfiguration as its own distinct energy in the transformative process; what it means to choose to work with a word or energy for a whole year, and how it shapes you; the 47th gene key as it relates directly to this topic; and how not transforming at all can be deeply transfigurative. enjoy!!

a hunger games hyperfixation

in today's episode i talk all about one of my favourite literary and filmic hyperfixations: the hunger games series!! i wanted to create this episode all about this series which gripped me to my core, a series which i love for its flawed characters, its fascinating storyline, and overall its reflection on our real world today. my work is devoted to transformation, breaking cycles, and creating new patterns, and the hunger games innocently encapsulates all of that in a dystopian book series, created for young adults. i hope this episode provokes you into contemplating your own cycles, and those we are witness to in current collective reality. major spoilers for the hunger games series

i am terrible at boundaries™

in this episode i out myself for being woefully inexperienced in the world of boundaries throughout my life. i speak on times i've played the fool (martyr), and the impact that has had on my life. i touch on being a recovering people pleaser, and the blessing it is when other people set healthy boundaries with you. i also drink tea, and my cat eva makes a guest appearance.

my story (or life up to this point)

wow telling my story for the first time in YEARS was a real doozy to record, it was intimidating and challenging at times, however i'm actually so excited to share my life's journey here in this way content notes: there are some heavy themes and topics that i cover in this episode, i don't go into any of these in graphic detail but they are touched on throughout. mentions of suicidal ideation, sexual trauma, alcoholism, addiction, sex addiction, infidelity.

love is the most excruciating thing i've ever experienced

love is so hardcore!!!!!!!!! love makes you feel like the earth is the sky and the sky is your stomach!!!!! love is one of the most painful things to feel because true love doesn't lie.