Cannabis, Grief, and the Difference Between Medicine and Escape

Before We Begin

"Sometimes the most creative thing we can do isn't to make something—it's to notice where we are before we begin." A lot has changed since the first episode of Puff of Knowledge. What began as a podcast about cannabis has evolved into something much bigger: a space for perspective, curiosity, creativity, and intentional living. In this first conversation of a new era, Marjon reflects on the quiet shifts that changed not only the show, but the person behind the microphone. Because sometimes the next chapter doesn't begin with doing more. It begins with noticing where you are. Small puffs. Big perspectives.

Cannabis, Grief, and the Difference Between Medicine and Escape

What happens when every cannabis memory is tied to the person you lost? This isn't just another cannabis podcast episode—it's a raw, honest conversation about learning to distinguish between using the plant as medicine versus using it as escape. When grief forced Marjon to confront her relationship with cannabis, she discovered a powerful truth: the same dose with different intention creates a completely different experience. In This Episode: * The moment cannabis stopped being neutral and became loaded with loss * How altitude (Denver elevation) completely changed cannabis tolerance and awareness * The critical question that transformed consumption: "Am I using this to feel what I'm avoiding, or to avoid what I'm feeling?" * Real examples of cannabis as medicine: THCV for morning grief paralysis, THC + CBN for emotional access, topical infusions for physical pain * When cannabis as escape becomes obvious—and what to do about it * Why some emotions require full sobriety to process * Building an intentional cannabis practice during crisis and transition * The role of different cannabinoids: THC, CBD, CBN, CBG, THCV for grief support Whether you're navigating loss, reconsidering your relationship with any substance, or learning to use cannabis with greater intention, this episode offers a framework for honest self-inquiry. No shame. Just awareness. And awareness is the first step toward healing.

Where I’ve Been - And Why the Silence Mattered

Puff of Knowledge launched in early 2025 as a space for conscious cannabis conversations, truth-telling, and expanded perspective. And then I went quiet. Not because I lost interest. Not because I ran out of things to say. But because life demanded something I couldn’t perform through. In this episode, I share where I’ve been, why the silence mattered, and what grief, nervous system collapse, and major life transitions taught me about capacity, regulation, and embodied healing. I talk about the difference between cannabis as medicine and cannabis as escape, how environment and elevation reshaped my breath and body, and why healing sometimes requires withdrawal before re-emergence. This is not a comeback episode. It’s an integration episode. Puff of Knowledge is still about conscious cannabis use, but it’s also about everything that makes consciousness possible: nervous system work, grief literacy, soft discipline, Human Design, and the quiet practices that hold you when life asks for everything at once. This episode marks the beginning of Puff of Knowledge: Elevation Era. For deeper reflection and written integration, subscribe to my Substack newsletter High+WHOLE HERE: [https://substack.com/@highmarjon] Thank you for being here. Thank you for waiting. Let’s build from elevation.

Edible Adventures

What happens when cannabis leaves the jar and enters the kitchen? In this episode of Puff of Knowledge, Marjon takes us on an Edible Adventure—a journey into the flavors, rituals, and lessons that come with infusing food with intention. From the hilarious chaos of her first “too-strong” brownie night to the sacred practice of massaging infused olive oil into a Caesar salad, Marjon explores how edibles can be more than just a way to get high. She breaks down how cannabis moves through the body when eaten, why dosing is so personal, and how to use infusions like oils, butters, and tinctures to turn everyday meals into moments of nourishment, connection, and joy. Whether you’re brand new to edibles or ready to take your infused cooking to the next level, this episode blends science, story, and ritual—showing you how to cook with confidence, set intentions with your food, and unlock the magic hidden in every bite. Because when you understand the science, you unlock the magic. And when you bring in ritual, every edible becomes an adventure.

Dispensary Diaries

Walking into a dispensary can feel like stepping into a jungle — endless strain names, flashy packaging, and a million THC percentages begging for your attention. But what if cannabis shopping wasn’t about hype or numbers, but about finding the plant medicine that truly fits your flow? In this episode of Puff of Knowledge, Marjon takes you inside the dispensary experience and shows you how to shop with intention. From decoding labels and understanding cannabinoids to exploring terpene profiles and asking your budtender the right questions, you’ll learn how to move beyond “what’s the highest THC percentage?” and start choosing based on how you want to feel. You’ll hear personal stories, pro tips, and plant wisdom that transform dispensary runs into rituals. Whether you’re new to cannabis or just tired of pretending you know what “indica-dominant hybrid” really means, this episode will help you walk out with more than just weed — you’ll leave with clarity, confidence, and a little bit of reverence. Because in the end, Dispensary Diaries isn’t just about shopping. It’s about cultivating a relationship with the plant, your budtenders, and yourself.