What Cancer Taught Me About Surrender

Faith, Cancer & What I Couldn't Explain

What do you do when you believe God heals… but healing doesn’t look the same for everyone? In this episode, I’m sharing a deeper, more vulnerable look into my experience walking through cancer—not from a place of having answers, but from the place of wrestling with questions I couldn’t ignore. Questions about God’s sovereignty, the body’s ability to heal, and what it actually looks like to trust when the outcome isn’t in your control. We’ll explore the tension between faith and fear, science and spirituality, control and surrender… and the moments where those lines blurred in ways I still don’t fully understand. This isn’t a formula. It’s not a clean testimony. It’s an honest look at what it felt like to stand in the unknown, to believe and question at the same time, and to come out the other side still holding both.

What Cancer Taught Me About Surrender

This episode is a story. A recalling of a night during my cancer journey where everything felt uncertain, and I had to sit with what I couldn’t control. It was the scariest thing I had ever been up against. And somehow, in the middle of that night, God brought a kind of peace into my heart that I can’t fully explain — a peace that allowed me to actually let go… and fully surrender to the journey I was in. I’m just bringing you into that moment.

Self Improvement Is Exhausting

You’re learning. You’re growing. You’re doing the work. So why does it still feel like it’s not enough? In this episode, I share the subtle pattern of constantly evaluating yourself—how even healing and self-awareness can become another way to feel like you’re falling short. We’ll explore the “tiny box” we create for ourselves and why chasing a better version of you can leave you feeling more exhausted than at peace.

Why The Peace You're Chasing Keeps Moving

If you’ve ever felt like peace is just out of reach… like if you could just get a little more healed, a little more regulated, a little more “together”… then you’d finally feel it—this episode is for you. In this episode, I’m sharing a very personal part of my story, walking through cancer and the deeper shift it created in how I understood peace, control, and faith. We talk about the subtle ways we chase peace through striving, and how that pursuit can actually keep us stuck in cycles of pressure, fear, and “almost.” This isn’t about having it all figured out. It’s an honest look at what begins to change when you stop trying to force outcomes and start seeking something deeper. If you’ve been doing all the “right” things but still feel like peace keeps moving… this conversation might help you see why.

Why Asking For Help Feels So Hard + Pregnancy Announcement After Cancer

I’m pregnant again after cancer… and thinking about postpartum in a very different way. In this episode, I share the real fears and questions that are coming up as I prepare for another postpartum season — and why this time, I’m looking at support and the “village” differently. We talk about why it’s so hard to actually ask for help, even when people genuinely care. The difference between “I’m here if you need me” and the kind of support postpartum actually requires. And how the way our lives are structured — isolated homes, full schedules, invisible boundaries — makes it incredibly hard to both give and receive real support. We also get into the moments no one sees… the late nights, early mornings, and overwhelming in-between spaces where help is needed most, but rarely asked for. This is a conversation about over functioning, carrying too much, and what it might look like to slowly shift the way we show up for each other. If you’ve ever felt supported… but still alone in it, this will hit close.