Carry the Zero | Ryan Eggensperger

Carry the Zero | Ryan Eggensperger

Send us Fan Mail [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2571426/fan_mail/new] Ryan Eggensperger is a playwright, DJ, actor, and tour guide from Helena, Montana who has spent twenty years figuring out how to sit with a blank page without resenting it. He calls it carrying the zero — and it's a practice, not a concept: he does it every morning, and what surprised me most isn't that he does it but that he doesn't resent it. We met when he was directing a play at my kids' school. One night we sat on the post office lawn until eleven, talking about boredom and presence and what it means to actually do the thing rather than prepare to do it. I didn't know yet that he'd been doing exactly that work every morning for decades. We talk about the journal entry he wrote at twenty-eight — "No more mongrel genius" — that redirected his relationship to his own talent. We talk about edge work, and why the corporate version of it is "just a new name for Buddhism." We talk about Wind Cave in the Black Hills, where the earth breathes through a fourteen-inch hole at fifty degrees, and what it means to stand over that hole and feel it. We talk about his daily work with the blank page, the Instagram he deleted, and what carrying the zero actually feels like from the inside — not as aspiration but as practice. And then, around the ninety-minute mark, he turned the whole thing inside out and asked me the question instead. That's in here too. In this conversation: * "No more mongrel genius" — the 2004 journal entry that changed everything * Edge work, and why the corporate world finds a new name for Buddhism every couple of years * How to sit with a blank page without resenting it * Being a playwright and a DJ and an actor and a tour guide — and why that's different from mongrel genius * Wind Cave in the Black Hills: the earth breathing through a fourteen-inch hole at fifty degrees * The Instagram he deleted, and why * What carrying the zero looks like on the other side of the performance * The format inversion: around the ninety-minute mark, the guest asks the question instead Find Ryan's work: * SoundCloud (DJ Anatomy): soundcloud.com/user-367035900 * https://www.instagram.com/djanatomy/ [https://www.instagram.com/djanatomy/] Support the show [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2571426/support] The Principal Uncertainty [https://www.theprincipalunceratinty.com/podcast] is a podcast by George Laufenberg. It's not about finding solid ground — it's about staying oriented in open water.

Confidently Irreverent | Jessie Rack

Send us Fan Mail [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2571426/fan_mail/new] Jessie Rack [https://www.jessie-rack.com] is an ecologist, naturalist, and environmental educator passionate about communicating how the world works. Jessie has a PhD in Ecology & Evolutionary Biology from the University of Connecticut (for which she studied salamanders!) and diverse experiences in both formal and informal education. She taught writing at Princeton University, wrote for the NPR ScienceDesk, and is a AAAS IF/THEN Ambassador, one of 125 women in STEM fields chosen to be a science role model to middle school girls. Currently, she is a professor in the biology department at Northern Arizona University. In this episode: - The Iceland job interview at 9pm in midsummer daylight, in field gear, for a video call she thought was a phone call - Why the offer of a tenure track position might be the thing she'd need to escape — the container of permanent employment as the scarier prospect - Prions, AI, plant intelligence, jumping spiders, scorpions — how each functions as a probe for what the categories are doing when they start to break down - "Everything is conscious or nothing is" - The sentence in a scientific paper about scorpion eyes that made her write a poem - A Princeton classroom assignment connecting pheromones to free will — and what happens when your students come out of it realizing nothing they do is free - The difference between deference and respect, and why "I'm not scared of you" is the part that matters - The psychic who looked into her eyes and saw only swirling chaos - What "confidently irreverent" means from the inside The Scorpion and the Stars — the poem she wrote after reading about scorpion eyes — is reproduced here with Jessie's permission. The Scorpion and the Stars “[Scorpions’] median eyes appear capable of image formation, and their lateral eyes can identify subtle changes in light magnitude. Both sets of eyes are highly sensitive to light and can putatively detect starlight against the background of the night sky.” -from “Scorpion fluorescence and reaction to light,” Gaffin et al., 2012   The scorpion pauses on top of a flat rock Midway through a nocturnal scuttle, A foray to find delicious bugs to crunch. Its legs still all at once. Its pedipalps—the great pinchers—lower, the coiled tail relaxes In surprise. Both sets of its eyes would widen if they could, Except they’re held fast In the chitinous rigidity of its exoskeleton. It has, for the first time, noticed the stars.   It has no sense of distance, of space, So the tiny sparkling points could be Glowing insects for all it knows, could be Some odd phosphorescent rock formation, Could be a human-thing, inscrutable and meaningless. But it senses something more, Some feeling stirring in its tiny chest, its tube heart contracting powerfully, Its copper-laced blood pumping with a new intensity. The scorpion’s would-be prey skitters away across the sand As the creature freezes, awestruck, Feeling its size. Not understanding, but understanding enough.   Fully present for the first time, somewhere in the desert night, The distant stars reflected in its flat, pupilless,  Wondering  Arachnid eyes. **Also mentioned:** - Franny Choi's "Turing Test" - Zoë Schlanger, *The Light Eaters* - "The Comforts of Horror" — Jessie's unpublished essay on science communication and horror films; watch this space... Support the show [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2571426/support] The Principal Uncertainty [https://www.theprincipalunceratinty.com/podcast] is a podcast by George Laufenberg. It's not about finding solid ground — it's about staying oriented in open water.

Wild by Design | Gwyneth Hagan

Send us Fan Mail [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2571426/fan_mail/new] Gwyneth Hagan [https://wilddesignforlearning.com] grew up moving. Air Force family — eight, nine, ten different schools, no one place long enough to put down roots. What she could count on was this: finding some small natural space wherever she landed, some patch of grass or stand of trees, and letting that be enough. Later, she dropped out of college, drove across the country, and spent a year on an organic farm in coastal Maine with no electricity and no running water. It was there — watching a spider cross a field with an egg sack on its back, going somewhere with such care — that she decided to become a teacher. What came from that decision: a decade at EL Education, where she worked as a school designer, helped build the architecture for professional learning, and watched an organization she loved make the transition every mission-driven organization eventually has to make. From forty people on a shared vision to a system that could be communicated to people who hadn't lived it. From oral tradition to written codification. From wildness to clarity. *Wild Design for Learning* is her answer to what gets lost in that transition — and what it would look like to get it back. The book, organized around six patterns from the natural world (spirals, waves, fractals, fractures, bubbles, symmetry), publishes in fall 2026. Pre-orders open in June. In this conversation: what EL was at forty people; what clarity costs; what the forest offers that the factory cannot; why artists have something to teach that educators don't; and what the doubt looks like right now, from the inside, when you've put the most essential part of yourself into a book and are about to let it go. --- NOTES FROM GWYNETH - Visual Thinking Strategies come from the work of cognitive psychologist Abigail Housen and museum educator Philip Yenawineare - The full quote about complexity from Charles Mingus (accidentally attributed to Thelonius Monk in the episode): “Making the simple complicated is commonplace. Making the complicated simple—awesomely simple—that's creativity.” - Along the same lines, from Oliver Wendell Holmes: "For the simplicity on this side of complexity, I wouldn't give you a fig. But for the simplicity on the other side of complexity, for that I would give you anything I have." - The Substack article related to complexity and root cause analysis [https://open.substack.com/pub/performancesystems/p/why-root-cause-analysis-doesnt-work] Gwenyth referenced. - Gwyneth's thinking about planning and presence was informed by adrienne maree brown’s book called Holding Change. ...you can learn more about Gwyneth's extraordinary work on her substack [https://substack.com/@gwynethhagan] & her website [https://wilddesignforlearning.com]. Support the show [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2571426/support] The Principal Uncertainty [https://www.theprincipalunceratinty.com/podcast] is a podcast by George Laufenberg. It's not about finding solid ground — it's about staying oriented in open water.

Father Time is Undefeated | Steve Filosa

Send us Fan Mail [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2571426/fan_mail/new] Steve Filosa [https://www.tothegood.net] spent twenty years running Prep@Pingree, a scholarship, academic enrichment, and jobs program in Essex, Massachusetts. The program's premise was simple and counter-cultural: serve kids through long-term relational commitment rather than high-altitude, short-term intervention. Not something that scales. Something that works. By design, Steve built it to replace himself. Eventually, he did. What came next surprised him. He expected to help other organizations build more Prep at Pingrees. He didn't expect that a significant part of his practice would turn out to be working with donors — people with resources to give and no one to think alongside them about how to give intentionally. Six years in, Steve talks about uncertainty in a way that doesn't come from a framework. It comes from experience: starting a program in 2001 under enormous national headwinds, committing to something again at fifty with no safety net, and discovering both times that the net appeared. In this conversation: what he didn't anticipate about building Prep@Pingree; why he thinks TFA-style interventions tend to serve their participants more than the kids they're there for; what changed in the final decade that made handing over the keys feel like relief; what the hardest thing to teach a board is; what year six looks like compared to year one; and what "peace" actually means when you've stopped needing to have all the answers. IN THIS EPISODE * What Prep@Pingree was — and why it was built not to scale * The "100% admission rate" — why Steve bragged about the one number nobody bragged about * The teaching hospital model: experienced teachers who wanted to train the next generation * How alumni became the jet fuel * Handing over the keys: what changed in the last decade * From program director to consultant: the part he didn't see coming (donor clients) * What the hardest thing to teach a board is * Year one vs. year six: what changes when you hang a shingle * The Goethe quote one of his first clients gave him — and whether it turned out to be true * What "peace" actually feels like: the texture of not needing to know * "Is Steve still talking?" Support the show [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2571426/support] The Principal Uncertainty [https://www.theprincipalunceratinty.com/podcast] is a podcast by George Laufenberg. It's not about finding solid ground — it's about staying oriented in open water.

Certainty Kills Civic Imagination | Michael Rohd

Send us Fan Mail [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2571426/fan_mail/new] Bio: Michael Rohd [https://michaelrohd.com] has spent thirty-five years asking the same question from increasingly systemic angles: what does it take for people who don't usually talk to each other to actually talk, and what happens when they do? He started in 1991, running theater workshops on the secret fifth floor of a Washington DC homeless shelter — a hidden HIV clinic where people sought care anonymously because being seen there put them at risk. He didn't know yet that what he was building had a name. A decade later, he co-founded Sojourn Theatre in Portland, spent nine years at Northwestern University, then moved to ASU before joining the University of Montana in 2022 to found the Co-Lab for Civic Imagination. His book, *Theatre for Community, Conflict, and Dialogue*, has been widely translated and remains the field manual for applied civic theater practice in the US. His current project — State of Mind, done in partnership with Montana Repertory Theater — is a touring theater and public dialogue residency on behavioral health that has now reached 37 Montana communities and more than 2,700 participants. Montana has ranked in the top five states for suicide for thirty consecutive years. The work is not incidental. In this conversation: what kills civic imagination (certainty is first on the list), what a well-designed facilitation process makes possible that a badly designed one doesn't, why theater can't change people's deeply held beliefs but can be a gymnasium for practicing courage, what students in rural Montana keep telling adults about adult behavior, the moment a Great Falls school board meeting stopped because board members were moved to tears, and what you do with thirty years of witnessing. --- In this episode: - The origin story: HIV workshops on a secret fifth floor in 1991 - Dwight Conquergood and the ethics of working as an outsider in communities not your own - Augusto Boal and the discovery that someone else was already doing adjacent work - What kills civic imagination: certainty, lack of trust, no analysis of power, racism and exclusion - Process design: what a well-designed facilitation makes possible - What theater can't do — and why Rohd is careful not to overclaim - State of Mind: 37 communities, care commitments, and what young people keep saying about adults - The Great Falls moment: a school board meeting halted by student testimony - The most surprising finding: students surfacing adult drinking, drug use, and modeling as the obstacle to their own wellbeing - What you do with thirty years of bearing witness --- Links: - Michael Rohd's article on the Malta 2.0 residency (with photographs): https://michaelrohd.substack.com/p/state-of-mind-20-malta-montana [https://michaelrohd.substack.com/p/state-of-mind-20-malta-montana?r=xr2be] - Co-Lab for Civic Imagination at University of Montana: https://www.umcivicimagination.com/ [https://www.umcivicimagination.com/] - State of Mind project: https://www.headwatersmt.org/stateofmind-mentalhealth/ [https://www.headwatersmt.org/stateofmind-mentalhealth/] - *Theatre for Community, Conflict, and Dialogue* by Michael Rohd: https://www.heinemann.com/products/e00002.aspx [https://www.heinemann.com/products/e00002.aspx] - Augusto Boal, *Games for Actors and Non-Actors*: https://www.amazon.com/Games-Actors-Non-Actors-Augusto-Boal/dp/0415267080 [https://www.amazon.com/Games-Actors-Non-Actors-Augusto-Boal/dp/0415267080] Support the show [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2571426/support] The Principal Uncertainty [https://www.theprincipalunceratinty.com/podcast] is a podcast by George Laufenberg. It's not about finding solid ground — it's about staying oriented in open water.