The Controlled High

Honest About the Fuck Up

This is the last episode of the year, and I’m not wrapping it in a bow. In this episode of Toxic AF Radio, I talk about what growth actually looks like when you’re still human. We hit sixteen countries this year, doubled our reach, and somehow Finland really found me. I’m grateful for all of it. And I’m still telling the truth. I open up about a recent manic episode, being without my fix, and how quickly self-awareness can turn into a slip when disappointment hits. I talk about boundaries I don’t cross, the ones I almost did, and what it feels like to catch yourself before things go too far. This isn’t about excuses. It’s about accountability without shame. It’s about being honest after the moment passes. It’s about knowing better and still fucking up. If you’ve ever been healing, horny, self-aware, and tired at the same time, this one’s for you.

The Controlled High

Dime is back on the mic and stepping into the end of the year with a truth that hits a little too close to home. In this episode, she opens up about the “controlled high” she found herself addicted to, that one person who lights up your brain, knocks your focus off balance, and makes discipline feel optional. But this isn’t just about desire. It’s about the way attraction, ambition, and mental health collide during the holidays. Dime talks about losing her rhythm, finding it again, protecting her peace, and learning how to crave someone without losing herself in the process. She brings listeners up to speed on life as a two-time published author, the website dropping at the top of the year, the brand that’s expanding, and the hunger that’s officially back for the microphone. This is a grown-woman check-in. A reminder to love on the strong ones. A call to stay grounded when your cravings try to derail your purpose. And the official return of Toxic AF Radio with the honesty, humor, and emotional transparency that only Dime can deliver. Stay connected with everything coming next by following @booksbysimonelloyd @theofficialdime__ And if this episode touched you, entertained you, or made you say “girl, same,” hit that five-star review and share it with your cousins. Toxic AF Radio is back. Press play and catch this high.

Love & Legacy: When the D*ck Came with a Price Tag

In this episode, Dime opens up about the kind of love that leaves a mark…and not the good kind. From celibacy and craving something real to being emotionally manipulated by a man who knew how to serve smooth words and good sex, she breaks down what it means to wake up from the high and realize… you’ve been tricked! This ain’t just a story. It’s a warning, a reflection, and a reclaiming of power. Because love is beautiful, but not when it comes with a bill. Let’s talk about it.

Healing Without Hardening: Finding My Balance

Sometimes the biggest battle isn’t with them—it’s with myself. In this episode, I break down the emotional tug-of-war between wanting to believe in someone’s words but seeing their actions tell a different story. When you’ve been let down before, how do you stay open without losing yourself? I reflect on a situation that mirrored a past experience almost to the T, proving that energy never lies. From trying to realign with someone who seemed solid to realizing I was repeating old patterns, this one’s about learning, protecting my peace, and finding balance between healing and hardening. Let’s talk about it.

💎 Know Your Worth: Life’s Too Short for the Bare Minimum ✨

Description: In Season 3, Episode 2 of Toxic AF Radio, Dime gets real about how 2024 leveled her up and how life’s been hitting different. She asks the hard question: “If you left tomorrow, would anybody know how you really felt?” It’s all about knowing your worth, setting the bar high, and not settling for less. Plus, the debut of WWDD – What Would Dime Do, where a listener spills about someone trying to sell them on the bare minimum when they know they deserve more. This episode is raw, unfiltered, and straight facts—tune in and level up your life!