My Addicted Brain: Episode 5 - Addiction is a vacuum

My Addicted Brain: Episode 5 - Addiction is a vacuum

I made it past one week sober, and now the real work begins. In Episode 5 of My Addicted Brain, I share what happens after the first stretch of sobriety, when the alcohol is gone, but everything underneath starts to surface. This episode explores the reality of addiction recovery, not just quitting alcohol, but facing the deeper patterns driving it: * The constant urge for dopamine and distraction * Using simple tools (like physical triggers) to interrupt cravings * Cleaning up both your environment and your identity * And learning to sit with discomfort instead of escaping it But this goes deeper than sobriety... This is a raw and honest conversation about alcohol addiction, recovery, relationships, fatherhood, accountability, and change. If you’re dealing with addiction, trying to stay sober, or navigating difficult relationships - you are not alone.

My Addicted Brain: Episode 4 - Am i getting somewhere?

I still haven’t made it a full week sober - but i´m seeing a light at the end of the tunnel!In this episode of My Addicted Brain, I share where I’m actually at right now. Stuck between intention and action. I want to change, but something in my brain keeps pulling me back.This isn’t just about alcohol. It’s about how all of my addictions connect. Alcohol, cannabis, nicotine, sugar, scrolling and junkfood - all feeding the same loop. And the more I think about it, the more I realize: this isn’t just me. Everyone is addicted to something one way or another. There´s an empty hole inside of us that wants to be filled with dopamine. And the brains job is to fill that hole - keep us comfortable. BUT...The dopamine spike doesn’t come when i drink - it comes when i decide to drink.That means the craving, the reward, and the behavior might not be as tightly linked as I thought. And maybe… that’s where a way out exists.This episode isn’t a success story. It’s me trying to understand my own patterns in real time, and hoping that awareness can eventually lead to change.If you’ve ever struggled with addiction, habits, or just doing what you know is right i would love for you to join me in this journey.

My Addicted Brain: Episode 3 - An Impossible Challenge

In Episode 3, I talk about relapsing during a major work trip, coming home, and realizing alcohol may be the hardest addiction for me to beat. Even while drinking, smoking, and staying highly functional, something underneath is clearly breaking. I also open up about starting ADHD medication, how much it helps, and how it’s changing the way I understand my brain, my cravings, and my addiction. This is an honest episode about relapse, rationalization, and trying to fight back.

My Addicted Brain: Episode 2 - The Relapse

In Episode 2, I talk about how my relapse actually began. Burnout, stress, sleepless nights, and life at home had already pushed me to the edge. Then my wife started ADHD medication, and I crossed a line I can’t pretend I didn’t see. I talk about stealing her pills, mixing stimulants with alcohol, falling fast, the shame that followed, and the strange reality of being diagnosed with ADHD while also being addicted to the very thing that might help.

My Addicted Brain: Episode 1 - The backstory

In the very first episode of My Addicted Brain, I introduce the idea behind this podcast and why I decided to start recording my journey into sobriety. I’m an addict and an alcoholic, and after almost a year of being clean and sober, I recently experienced a major relapse. This podcast is my way of holding myself accountable as I try to rebuild my life again. Each episode will be a kind of journal - an honest check-in about how things are going, what’s happening inside my head, and what it actually feels like to live with an addicted brain. I’m doing this partly for myself, so I can look back and understand the process. But I’m also hoping that sharing the experience openly might help someone else who is going through the same struggle. In this episode I explain why I’m starting the podcast and what you can expect from future episodes. If you’re dealing with addiction, relapse, or the difficult path toward sobriety, you’re not alone. Podcast: My Addicted Brain Format: Weekly recovery journal documenting the journey from addiction to sobriety. Disclaimer: This podcast documents my personal experience with addiction and recovery and is not medical or professional advice.