Episode 37 | Everyone Has An Opinion — What's Yours Of You?

Episode 41 | You Are Not "Only" Human — And My Motorcycle "Proves" It

We've been told our whole lives that we're only human. Only. As if human is a limitation. As if it's the explanation for everything we can't do, everything we've failed at, everything we've settled for. As if the word itself is an apology. This one starts there and goes somewhere most people don't. I bought a motorcycle once. Wanted it badly enough to go into debt for it. Got it. Didn't feel the way I thought it would. And when I sat with that — really sat with it — I realized it was never about the motorcycle. It was about wanting to belong somewhere. Wanting to fit. Wanting to feel like I was part of something that would make me feel better about myself. The motorcycle was just the thing I put between me and the actual question. This episode is about the actual question. About the self-concept loop most of us are stuck in — old self, current self, the self we're trying to become — and why treating these as three different people is exactly what keeps us from becoming any of them more fully. And about what happens when you stop trying to force the answer and let the question move around in you for a while instead. This is from the archive. April 2023. Sharon was deep in treatment. I was sitting on a Tuesday morning asking myself questions I'd been avoiding for most of my life. This is what came out.

Mystical Now? And You Won't Believe What You Already Know

We were going to make a different episode today. Sharon and I were behind the microphone, the direction was clear, and something was off. Not dramatically off. Just — wrong. The little voice said not right now and I stopped. Her throat hurt. She was going to muscle through it. I know her well enough to know that. We stopped anyway. This episode is about what happens in the space between what you planned and what's actually in front of you — and the inner conversation most of us have in that space that we don't even realize we're having. The flat tire that becomes proof you should have checked earlier. The appointment you're late to that becomes evidence of inadequate preparation. The episode that didn't happen that becomes a data point in the case you're building against yourself. Most of us have a self-concept built around the gap between what was supposed to happen and what did. We live in that gap. We build our identity in it. We collect evidence there. This one is about the other option. The still quiet inner voice that says not right now without judgment, without drama, without a performance evaluation attached. The one that's been there the whole time underneath the noise of should-haves and what-ifs and I-should-have-left-earliers. Sharon had stage 3 cervical cancer. Her thyroid was removed. What she eats affects how she feels affects everything else — because there is no separation between the physical self and the emotional self and the psychological self, no matter how much we're told there is. She was going to push through. We didn't push through. And somehow this became the episode anyway.

You Got Sexted, Ghosted, and Confused — And You're Still Asking the "Wrong" Questions

You did everything right. Asked the good questions. Waited the appropriate amount of time. Finally gave up the booty. And they disappeared. And now you're sitting there asking what you did wrong. Here's the question nobody is asking you — and the one that actually matters: what did you actually base any of it on? A paragraph and some pictures? A 40-point compatibility algorithm that matched your answers to someone else's answers, neither of which were entirely honest? This episode is about online dating, swipe culture, and the specific exhaustion of doing everything the platform tells you to do and ending up exactly where you started. But it's not really about the apps. The apps are fine. The apps do exactly what they were built to do. The problem is you walked into Billy Ray Jenkins Washington's chicken house and asked for shrimp. And when you didn't get shrimp, you were confused. Here's what nobody in the dating advice space will say plainly: the constant variable in every failed connection, every ghosting, every relationship that starts right and ends badly — is you. Not as a criticism. As a fact. You take your self-concept, your beliefs about what you deserve, your unasked questions about who you actually are — you take all of that onto every app, into every swipe, through every first date. And until you get honest about what's actually running the program, you will keep getting the same results in different packaging. I filled out the forms. I paid for the 40-point compatibility site. I tried the interracial dating sites. I changed the variables. And I kept running into the same person on the other side of every match — myself, and everything I hadn't dealt with yet. This one is for anyone who is tired of starting over and ready to ask a different question. www.theloveofyourlifetime.com [https://www.theloveofyourlifetime.com]

Episode 40 | The 300 Songs Nobody Heard — And Everything Else We Leave Behind

Another from the archive. Three years ago. My wife deep into chemo and radiation, and I, her husband, still having those inner conversations that I'd never actually paid attention to in the past. This is one of those moments. I've got over 300 songs. I didn't do anything with them because I didn't think anybody wanted to hear them. So they sat. And I kept making more. And none of them went anywhere because somewhere inside me I had already decided the answer before I asked the question. This episode has my own music playing in the background. I decided to do it tonight because I didn't want to talk myself out of it again. How much of your life are you leaving behind you? Not because someone took it. Because you decided in advance that it wasn't worth sharing. That nobody wanted to hear it. That you needed to be more certain, more ready, more something before you could just — be who you are out loud. This one is quiet. It's short. It's me asking the question I kept not asking myself for most of my life. What do you want to share? What do you desire to share? And what's actually stopping you — not externally, but in the self-concept you carry about what you and your life are worth? Now is what we have. That's it. The past doesn't get to decide who you are in this moment. Neither does the fear of what someone might think of your 300 songs.

This Shit Is Hard — And I Built It That Way On Purpose. Yep, It's True.

If you've tried the affirmations, bought the course, done the work someone else told you to do, and you're still exactly where you were — this episode is for you. I could have made this easy. I know how that's done. I've been the person who bought the easy version — Elizabeth Clare Prophet, the chanting, sweat running down my face, four baptisms across four denominations because I needed answers badly enough to try anything. I know what it feels like to want to believe something and keep finding out it isn't true. That's why I built this the way I built it. The website is a gauntlet. Not by accident — by design. Because the real self-concept work, the kind that actually changes why you repeat the same relationship patterns, why love lands wrong, why you keep choosing familiar over good — that work cannot be handed to you in a way that bypasses your own interior process. I cannot live a second of your life. I cannot describe sweetness to someone who has never tasted it. And I'm not going to pretend otherwise just to make the sale. Someone told me recently my stuff is too expensive. So let me ask the question underneath that question: what is the value of finally liking yourself? What is the value of your own freedom? What is the value of the moment when you realize the inner voice that has been telling you that you're not enough has been lying to you your whole life? I don't have a number for that. Neither do you. And that's exactly the point. The free workbooks are at theloveofyourlifetime.com. Scroll to the bottom. No email. No catch. Just the work — and a fair warning that it will ask you to be more honest with yourself than you may be used to.