H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain Ends

Humor Through a Heat Wave!

Let's liven up this place a bit .... just when I thought my days of funny story telling on here were over.... God & Dad proved once again, that I need to continue to expect the unexpected. I hope this one will give you some laughs .... (and yes, that photo is me in my "nighty" while sweating)! I hope it's one that keeps your interest enough to listen all the way through until the end .... because I want to hear what you think of my "How to meet Men" Idea that I propose at the very end!

I'm Going to Continue with the Book.... What do you THINK??

"I'm going to delete the podcast .... take down all social media posts... and forget about the fucking book." - Those were my exact thoughts when the depressive crash hit ... But ... today it occurred to me... maybe I should continue the book??? Maybe the reader ... literally being able to SEE the difference between my "manic" writing.... and then what transpired afterwards ... but also reading about all of my reflection on ALL OF IT ... perhaps that would be something that people would want to read about? What do you think?

Where Did the Money Go?

I am really sharing my most shameful part of what has happened during this most recent "Quiet Hypomanic" episode. All of the money I went through in a few short months .... A major symptom of a Manic or Hypomanic Episode of Bipolar disorder is reckless spending.... this was the first thing that sparked my attention even a few weeks before the Bipolar crash... but once I hit bottom, and I took a good look.... I could not believe what I was seeing. I wasn't sure if this one would be of much interest to everyone... but the point of my podcast now is really just to share all of it ... it was ALWAYS about that, but a lot of my episodes I remember after listening back to them it would be like "OH MY GOD, WHAT AN EPIPHANY!" So ... exciting or not.... I want to be open about what I have just experienced, in the hopes to educate people out there about this illness, and help those that have gone through something like this ... or who IS going through this right now. So... here it is.

The Movie Didn't Live Up to the Trailer.

This was a quick thought as I was trying to come up with a way of describing how it feels to have just experienced almost six months of this "amazing life" and all of the plans and visions and hopes and dreams that felt like they had been "promised." .... And then to realize now ... that during all of that time my brain was in a state that was showing me a lot of things that it would not be able to deliver on .... and that hurts. I think this analogy captures it pretty well ...

My Son Survived Middle School... But it wasn't Easy.

Any parent out there that has had ... or currently has (or even will have) a child in Middle School... you hear about it.... I REMEMBER it myself ... the worst part was the "fights" that used to happen amongst kids that I was friends with ... but for me, no matter how bad the fight, we would make up ... and move on. For my little guy.... unfortunately that didn't happen.. But he Made it ... I recorded this in the hopes that other parents would hear some of these things and realize that not only can the kids not be fair in middle school... but even the teachers and administration can make decisions that will last with your child (and you) for the rest of your life .... let's just say, as hard as it is for me to accept that Parker boy is off to high school.... I am relieved to be closing this chapter. Let me know your thoughts.