MC Somatics: Rebuilding The Self

Episode 33: Sitting with yourself

In this week’s episode, I talk about what comes up when we actually sit with ourselves. The recurring themes. The thoughts we keep circling. The feelings waiting underneath the noise. And the honest question of whether we are truly making time for ourselves at all. I explore what self-connection can reveal when we slow down enough to listen, and I share a simple exercise of writing first thing in the morning to see what naturally rises to the surface before the world gets hold of us. This episode is about presence, self-reflection, and learning to pay attention to the patterns that keep asking for our attention. Song of the Week: Taylor Swift - I hate it here [https://open.spotify.com/track/3hlGuz3loYoLfI3bpwieWq?si=54b7cd25a85344c8] MC Somatics Playlist [https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3BPVIr9CEwErAG54dJ5JIj?si=9b584acf5f934e76]

Epsidoe 32: The Bare Minimum

In this week’s episode, I talk about the bare minimum and how healing changes our ability to see it, and how what once felt normal can start to reveal itself as emotional manipulation, low effort, or a profound lack of emotional availability. I share examples from my own life and how, as I healed, certain friendships began to fall away because people could no longer meet me emotionally. What I once tolerated, explained away, or worked around became impossible to ignore. This episode is about what happens when healing raises the standard, sharpens discernment, and makes the bare minimum feel undeniable. A conversation about emotional manipulation, friendship, self-trust, and the grief that can come when healing changes who still fits in your life. Show Notes: Song of the Week: Bootstraps - Earned it [https://open.spotify.com/track/11NPQTlEw1CuEVucnQBF1l?si=3f396616d15847c7] MC Somatics Playlist [https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3BPVIr9CEwErAG54dJ5JIj?si=7ef8093a0ebd4bc1]

Episode 31: The Remnants of Narcissistic Abuse

In this episode, I talk about the remnants of narcissistic abuse—the ways it can linger long after the relationship or dynamic has ended. I explore what gets left behind: self-doubt, hypervigilance, confusion, internalized blame, difficulty trusting ourselves, and the exhausting habit of overexplaining, appeasing, or questioning what we know. I talk about how this kind of abuse does not just wound in the moment, but can reshape the nervous system, relationships, and sense of self. This episode is about what remains, what it costs, and what it means to begin naming those remnants for what they are. Show Notes: Song of the Week: Miles Hardt - Overthinking [https://open.spotify.com/track/5xg69ejKpfmkhRMUjf3rVU?si=86fcf6bdc62b4461] MC Somatics Playlist [https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3BPVIr9CEwErAG54dJ5JIj?si=73c5543337b445e5]

Episode 30: The trap of trying to heal away your humanity

In this episode, I talk about the years I spent trying to convince myself that if I just healed enough, certain things would stop bothering me. I explore how that mindset became its own form of self-gaslighting, how it created internal conflict, disconnected me from what I was actually feeling, and turned healing into a maladaptive coping mechanism. Instead of listening to my reactions, I kept assuming the problem was that I just was not healed enough yet. This episode is about the pressure to transcend what still hurts, the damage that comes from overriding our own truth, and what becomes possible when we stop using healing to invalidate ourselves. Show Notes: Song of the Week: Kellee Patterson - If it don't fit, don't force it [https://open.spotify.com/track/1oQo0TQoCLbWmkXEtNTfoA?si=d504a114e2214124] MC Somatics Playlist [https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3BPVIr9CEwErAG54dJ5JIj?si=a7a5e4857d154b65]

Episode 29: The symbolism of what we drive

In this episode, I explore the symbolism of what we drive and how our choices often reveal more than we realize. The cars we choose can reflect what we value, such as safety, status, freedom, comfort, reliability, adventure, or image, and those same values often show up in our relationships. I talk about how our preferences are rarely random, and how what carries us through the world can mirror what we look for in love, connection, and partnership. This episode is about values, symbolism, self-awareness, and the deeper patterns revealed through what we choose. Show Notes: Song of the Week: Maren Morris - 80s Mercedes [https://open.spotify.com/track/58spuRyMUsjKHQHEGwLC99?si=e9cd26c4f3744e96] MC Somatics Playlist [https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3BPVIr9CEwErAG54dJ5JIj?si=d0a5becdbfda48d9]