Episode #3: Paradise Is Pulling: Desire and the Shape of Scripture
In this episode of Reticent Theology, I begin by sharing a song called “Paradise,” which I wrote for a student while on a mission trip. The song wrestles with a tension I think all of us feel, the deep longing for paradise and the quieter truth that so often the thing standing in the way is our own desires. Drawing from the book of James, I reflect on how those desires pull us in different directions, yet how God’s desire for us is unwavering. Even in the push and pull, God still has my back.
From there, I read Emily Dickinson’s poem, “This is my letter to the world that never wrote to me,” and reflect on how art, nature, and Scripture speak forward in time, offering truth, beauty, and meaning to people they may never meet. They wait patiently for someone to notice, to listen, and to receive what’s been given.
The episode then turns toward my early years of teaching the Gospel, years that were far more chaotic and unstructured than I’d like to admit. I reflect on how difficult those early lesson plans were before I learned how to teach with intention. One formative exercise involved having students compare the birth narratives in Matthew 1–2 and Luke 2 using a Venn diagram. The goal wasn’t to smooth over differences, but to help students see how the accounts are complementary rather than contradictory. Matthew presents Jesus as the new Moses and King of Israel, written for a Jewish audience, while Luke tells the story of Jesus as Savior of the whole world, with particular attention to the marginalized.
At the heart of it all, this episode is about learning how to read Scripture patiently, paying attention to context, audience, and purpose, before rushing to conclusions. It’s about slowing down long enough to let the text speak, and then having an honest conversation with God about what we’ve heard.