The Guilt I Carried That Was Never Mine: Living with Chronic Illness and Letting Go

Childhood Memories, Chronic Illness, and the Cousin I Never Forgot

In this episode, I talk about my cousin Jenny, a childhood memory I’ve carried for more than fifty years, and the way grief can return through laughter before it ever knows what to do with itself. I’m reflecting on family distance, ovarian cancer, chronic illness, and what it feels like when my body keeps me far from a goodbye I wish I could attend. It’s about cousins, memory, regret, love, and the strange little details that keep people alive inside us. This podcast is narrated using an AI voice. The words, reflections, and lived experience are my own. Contact A Body Rebels [https://www.abodyrebels.com/] More info about Sarcoidosis and to donate toward research: The Foundation For Sarcoidosis Research  [https://www.stopsarcoidosis.org/]

Chronic Illness, Mortality, and Never Leaving Angry

In this episode, I talk about an ordinary drive home that turned into a quiet reminder of how fragile life can be. I’m reflecting on a young neighbor’s sudden death, the strange grief of witnessing loss from a distance, and the promise my wife and I made never to leave each other angry. I also talk about chronic illness, uncertainty, marriage, and why small goodbyes deserve more care than we usually give them. This podcast is narrated using an AI voice. The words, reflections, and lived experience are my own. Contact A Body Rebels [https://www.abodyrebels.com/] More info about Sarcoidosis and to donate toward research: The Foundation For Sarcoidosis Research  [https://www.stopsarcoidosis.org/]

Race-Colored Glasses and the Stories We Tell Ourselves

Sometimes the smallest details in a story say more than the story itself. In this reflective episode, I talk about the way people describe strangers, the racial details they choose to include, and the quiet assumptions that can slip into everyday storytelling. This is a personal, conversational look at bias, fear, self-awareness, and the uncomfortable gap between what people believe about themselves and what their words sometimes reveal before they’ve had a chance to notice. This podcast is narrated using an AI voice. The words, reflections, and lived experience are my own. Contact A Body Rebels [https://www.abodyrebels.com/] More info about Sarcoidosis and to donate toward research: The Foundation For Sarcoidosis Research  [https://www.stopsarcoidosis.org/]

When Chronic Illness Changes Who I Thought I Was

In this episode, I’m talking about the grief of missing who I used to be before chronic illness changed my body, my confidence, and the way I moved through life. I’m reflecting on identity, acceptance, and the quiet habit of measuring today’s body against yesterday’s freedom. Through a memory from Sedona, Arizona, I revisit a moment when I had to face what I’d lost, what I was still carrying, and how hard it can be to care for the person who remains. This podcast is narrated using an AI voice. The words, reflections, and lived experience are my own. Contact A Body Rebels [https://www.abodyrebels.com/] More info about Sarcoidosis and to donate toward research: The Foundation For Sarcoidosis Research  [https://www.stopsarcoidosis.org/]

New Name, Same Body: Why My Chronic Illness Podcast Changed

In this episode, I’m talking about the new name, the new season, and why I needed a podcast title that felt closer to the stories I actually tell. I’m thinking about chronic illness, identity, breath, survival, and what it means to keep going without pretending I’ve become a brand-new person. The name has changed, but the voice, humor, medical reality, stubbornness, and lived experience underneath it are still mine. I’m starting fresh without erasing what came before. This podcast is narrated using an AI voice. The words, reflections, and lived experience are my own. Contact A Body Rebels [https://www.abodyrebels.com/] More info about Sarcoidosis and to donate toward research: The Foundation For Sarcoidosis Research  [https://www.stopsarcoidosis.org/]