I Never Forgave Them, And I Healed Anyway.

The Night I Almost Cancelled Everything | One Year of Unspoken Emotions

FREE GIVEAWAY Free guide - 3 Steps to Releasing What’s Holding You Back  https://unspokenemotions.co.uk/free-guide [https://unspokenemotions.co.uk/free-guide] Find The Newsletter Below: https://unspokenemotions.co.uk/newsletter [https://unspokenemotions.co.uk/newsletter] One year ago today, Rachel pressed publish on the first episode of Unspoken Emotions. In this solo anniversary episode, she shares for the first time the real story of why she built this podcast, what happened the night before episode one went live, and what a year of honest conversations has taught her about the emotions we carry in silence. She also shares what is coming next for the women who want more than the podcast. KEY TAKEAWAYS The Weight of Silence: Many of us carry heavy, unspoken emotions because we lack a safe, non-judgmental space to express them without fear of shame. Courage Overcomes Doubt: Pushing past the intense fear of judgment and ridicule is often the necessary first step to creating something deeply impactful. Vulnerability Creates Connection: The emotions we feel the most shame about are often the very ones that connect us most deeply to others once they are voiced. Hearing is Healing: Listening to someone else articulate a fear or emotion you've been hiding can create a profound, physical sense of release that analytical thinking cannot replicate. Moving Forward: While naming our emotions is the first step, finding a structured, practical way to process them—like the upcoming Breakthrough program—is essential for true healing. BEST MOMENTS "I built Unspoken Emotions because I had spent most of my life watching people carry things in silence." "There was no space that felt like it could hold the weight of it without judgment, without shame, without the fear that saying it out loud would somehow make it worse." "The emotions we are most ashamed of are almost always the ones that connect us most deeply to each other when we finally say them out loud." "Hearing someone else say the thing that you have been too afraid to say does something in the body that no amount of analysis or insight can replicate. It releases something." "Always, there is strength in every step, and courage in every story." To connect with your host, follow Me HERE:  Insta:⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠https://www.instagram.com/rachel_unspokenemotions/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ [https://www.instagram.com/rachel_unspokenemotions/]  TikTok:⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠www.tiktok.com/@rachel.unspoken.em⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ [https://www.tiktok.com/@rachel.unspoken.em] Email: ⁠⁠⁠rachel@unspokenemotions.co.uk⁠⁠⁠ Facebook: ⁠⁠https://www.facebook.com/rachel.elimelech⁠⁠ [https://www.facebook.com/rachel.elimelech]   To Buy Rachel a Coffee: ⁠⁠https://buymeacoffee.com/unspokenemotions⁠⁠ [https://buymeacoffee.com/unspokenemotions]  LinkedIn: ⁠⁠https://www.linkedin.com/in/rachel-elimelech-a07a1a46/⁠⁠ [https://www.linkedin.com/in/rachel-elimelech-a07a1a46/]  HOST BIO   Rachel Elimelech is the warm, courageous voice behind Unspoken Emotions - a podcast that gives voice to the feelings we so often keep buried. A qualified Solicitor and Higher Court Advocate, Rachel combines professional insight with deeply personal lived experience - from surviving sexual abuse, loss, and single parenthood to rebuilding her life with quiet strength and unwavering resilience. Her journey from teenage single mum to respected legal professional has shaped her gift for deep connection. With empathy and authenticity, Rachel creates a safe, judgment-free space where guests are invited to speak the unspoken - grief, guilt, shame, anger, fear - and begin to let go of what no longer serves them. Through honest, unfiltered conversations, Unspoken Emotions explores how real people have turned pain into purpose and silence into healing. Rachel believes that healing begins the moment we speak the truth of our experiences - and that none of us should carry our emotions alone.

The Cost of What You Did Is Not the Ceiling of Who You Get to Become with Jon Bui | Conflict Resolution Practitioner & Author

In this emotionally charged episode, Rachel sits down with Jon Bui to explore the profound and enduring costs of rebuilding a life after a criminal conviction. Jon candidly shares his journey from an unmotivated teenager battling ego and insecurity to a convicted felon after a reckless shoplifting attempt went disastrously wrong. Jon discusses the crushing reality of losing his time and the trust of his family, and his subsequent fight to prove his worth by graduating from law school.  KEY TAKEAWAYS Comfort can breed complacency: John reflects on how his comfortable, structured upbringing, combined with his own ego and lack of motivation, fueled a teenage rebellion that ultimately spiralled into life-altering criminal choices. The true weight of incarceration is lost time: Beyond the physical confinement, John highlights that the most devastating part of his sentence was the agonising reality of existing in the world while having his time and agency completely stripped away. External achievements don't guarantee internal healing: Going to law school was initially a way for John to mask his insecurities and force society to accept his redemption, but it couldn't fix the unresolved self-hatred and lack of true accountability simmering beneath the surface. Systemic barriers are unforgiving: Earning a degree and staying out of trouble does not automatically grant a clean slate; character and fitness evaluations often view past actions through an uncompromising lens, regardless of present rehabilitation. True redemption is an internal shift: John’s rejection by the Bar ultimately forced him to stop seeking validation through external titles and instead focus on taking genuine responsibility for his actions and finding his own definition of success. BEST MOMENTS “When you have too much of a good thing, obviously, it becomes a bad thing. And I was just so obsessive about having a life away from the rigid structure of my household that the teenage rebellion largely just took over." "You have to exist on earth, in life, but have your time taken away from you. Like, I exist, I'm right here, I'm a person, but I can't go anywhere. I have to be right here." "I had to also understand that I can't be one of those people waiting for me to fail. This is you buckling down and doing the work that you were always too reluctant, too lazy, and too unfocused to do prior." "You think you redeemed yourself, but you didn't. And I think people truly don't understand what that must feel like, because obviously you've done everything right." "Doing good doesn't erase your wrongs... what it means is leaving the wrongs in the past so that the present and the future could be something positive." To connect with my guest Jon Bui, follow him HERE: LinkedIn:⁠ https//www.linkedin.com/in/jon-bui [https://www.linkedin.com/in/rachel-elimelech-a07a1a46/] Website: www.thenegotiatedapology.com Insta:⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ https://www.instagram.com/thenegotiatedapologyproject [https://www.instagram.com/rachel_unspokenemotions/] To connect with your host, follow Me HERE:  Insta:⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠https://www.instagram.com/rachel_unspokenemotions/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ [https://www.instagram.com/rachel_unspokenemotions/]  TikTok:⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠www.tiktok.com/@rachel.unspoken.em⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ [https://www.tiktok.com/@rachel.unspoken.em] Email: ⁠⁠⁠rachel@unspokenemotions.co.uk⁠⁠⁠ Facebook: ⁠⁠https://www.facebook.com/rachel.elimelech⁠⁠ [https://www.facebook.com/rachel.elimelech]   To Buy Rachel a Coffee: ⁠⁠https://buymeacoffee.com/unspokenemotions⁠⁠ [https://buymeacoffee.com/unspokenemotions]  LinkedIn: ⁠⁠https://www.linkedin.com/in/rachel-elimelech-a07a1a46/⁠⁠ [https://www.linkedin.com/in/rachel-elimelech-a07a1a46/]  HOST BIO   Rachel Elimelech is the warm, courageous voice behind Unspoken Emotions - a podcast that gives voice to the feelings we so often keep buried. A qualified Solicitor and Higher Court Advocate, Rachel combines professional insight with deeply personal lived experience - from surviving sexual abuse, loss, and single parenthood to rebuilding her life with quiet strength and unwavering resilience. Her journey from teenage single mum to respected legal professional has shaped her gift for deep connection. With empathy and authenticity, Rachel creates a safe, judgment-free space where guests are invited to speak the unspoken - grief, guilt, shame, anger, fear - and begin to let go of what no longer serves them. Through honest, unfiltered conversations, Unspoken Emotions explores how real people have turned pain into purpose and silence into healing. Rachel believes that healing begins the moment we speak the truth of our experiences - and that none of us should carry our emotions alone.

She Survived Being Shot At. It Was Everything Else That Broke Her with Annie Emprima | US Army Veteran, PTSD Survivor & Author

In this powerful episode. Rachel sits down with Annie Emprima, a US Army veteran, PTSD survivor, and author of Trauma Whispers Before It Roars. Annie shares her profound journey from adopting a rescuer persona in her childhood to facing immense toxicity and betrayal during her military deployment in Iraq. Candidly unpacking the terrifying reality of being shot at while aboard a C-130 cargo plane, Annie reveals that the enemy fire was ironically the least of her worries compared to the lack of support and entitlement she witnessed from her own leadership.  KEY TAKEAWAYS Childhood conditioning shapes our adult coping mechanisms: Annie explains how her early experiences of taking responsibility for others led her to adopt a "rescuer" persona, a role she carried straight into her military career and marriage. The greatest threats aren't always the most obvious ones: For Annie, the literal danger of being shot at during a deployment to Iraq was far less traumatic than the lack of support, toxicity, and betrayal she experienced from her own leadership and peers. Unprocessed trauma is stored physically in the body: Suppressing emotions and ignoring the "whispers" of a dysregulated nervous system eventually led to Annie's physical collapse, leaving her with severe joint injuries and completely drained of energy. The fantasy of a "haven" can sometimes mask reality: Annie pushed through the darkest days of her deployment by clinging to the fantasy of returning to a supportive home environment. Healing requires letting go of the invisible backpack: A crucial step in recovery is recognizing how much emotional weight you are carrying for yourself and others. We often don't realize how heavy our burdens are until we actively start taking them off and holding space for genuine healing.  BEST MOMENTS "My discomfort of doing nothing was greater than doing something... I wanted to do something." "I was less worried about what the ground fire was doing and more worried about what this dude was going to do while he was on my itinerary." "When I get back to my bed, my soft bed, when I get back to the quiet house, when I get back to this husband that's just going to hold me and let me collapse... I had pushed through on this fantasy." "If I had a cell phone battery in me, the battery was at zero. The phone was shutting down. I just could not move." "We don't understand how much we're really carrying until we start to let go of it and we start to feel lighter. We don't really understand how heavy it is." TO CONNECT WITH ANNIE Website: https://oneemprima.com/ [https://oneemprima.com/] Facebook https://www.facebook.com/One.Emprima [https://www.facebook.com/One.Emprima] https://www.tiktok.com/@one.emprima [https://www.tiktok.com/@one.emprima] https://www.instagram.com/one.emprima/ [https://www.instagram.com/one.emprima/] https://www.linkedin.com/in/annieemprima/ [https://www.linkedin.com/in/annieemprima/] To connect with your host, follow Me HERE:  Insta:⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠https://www.instagram.com/rachel_unspokenemotions/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ [https://www.instagram.com/rachel_unspokenemotions/]  TikTok:⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠www.tiktok.com/@rachel.unspoken.em⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ [https://www.tiktok.com/@rachel.unspoken.em] Email: ⁠⁠⁠rachel@unspokenemotions.co.uk⁠⁠⁠ Facebook: ⁠⁠https://www.facebook.com/rachel.elimelech⁠⁠ [https://www.facebook.com/rachel.elimelech]   To Buy Rachel a Coffee: ⁠⁠https://buymeacoffee.com/unspokenemotions⁠⁠ [https://buymeacoffee.com/unspokenemotions]  LinkedIn: ⁠⁠https://www.linkedin.com/in/rachel-elimelech-a07a1a46/⁠⁠ [https://www.linkedin.com/in/rachel-elimelech-a07a1a46/]  HOST BIO   Rachel Elimelech is the warm, courageous voice behind Unspoken Emotions - a podcast that gives voice to the feelings we so often keep buried. A qualified Solicitor and Higher Court Advocate, Rachel combines professional insight with deeply personal lived experience - from surviving sexual abuse, loss, and single parenthood to rebuilding her life with quiet strength and unwavering resilience. Her journey from teenage single mum to respected legal professional has shaped her gift for deep connection. With empathy and authenticity, Rachel creates a safe, judgment-free space where guests are invited to speak the unspoken - grief, guilt, shame, anger, fear - and begin to let go of what no longer serves them. Through honest, unfiltered conversations, Unspoken Emotions explores how real people have turned pain into purpose and silence into healing. Rachel believes that healing begins the moment we speak the truth of our experiences - and that none of us should carry our emotions alone.

I Spent Years Proving Them Wrong. When I Finally Did - Nobody Was Even Watching.

Is there a face behind what you are building? Not a goal. Not a vision. A face. Someone from your past who said something. Who decided something about you. Who wrote you off or doubted you or made you feel like you had something to prove. And you have been quietly, relentlessly - proving them wrong ever since.  In this solo episode Rachel shares something she has never spoken about on this podcast before. The particular exhaustion of driving yourself for years - through study, through qualification, through achievement after achievement - only to lift your head one day and realise that the audience you have been performing for left the building a long time ago.  Rachel became a single mother at 18. She was written off by the people around her - told she was just another statistic, that this was the end of her road. What followed was years of relentless building. College. University. A law degree. Qualification as a solicitor. Higher Rights of Advocacy in both criminal and civil law within her first year of qualifying. Representing clients from the police station to the Crown Court. All of it happening while she was also carrying things most people will never know about. A second child. Her son's abuse. A court case. Years of private devastation running underneath the public achievement. And then - the realisation. That the people whose words had fuelled all of it weren't watching. Had never really been watching. Had said what they said and moved on years ago. KEY TAKEAWAYS Invisible Pressure of Proving Yourself: Many people carry the burden of needing to prove themselves to others, often to voices from their past that have long since moved on. The Impact of Early Labels: Being labeled or judged early in life, such as being a young single mother, can create a strong motivation to defy expectations. However, this can also lead to a relentless pursuit of validation and achievement, often at the expense of self-acceptance and rest. BEST MOMENTS "I want to talk about the exhausting, relentless, completely invisible pressure of feeling like you have something to prove." "I made the decision that I was never going to be that statistic... I decided to go in an entirely different direction." To connect with your host, follow Me HERE:  Insta:⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠https://www.instagram.com/rachel_unspokenemotions/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ [https://www.instagram.com/rachel_unspokenemotions/]  TikTok:⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠www.tiktok.com/@rachel.unspoken.em⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ [https://www.tiktok.com/@rachel.unspoken.em] Email: ⁠⁠⁠rachel@unspokenemotions.co.uk⁠⁠⁠ Facebook:⁠ ⁠⁠https://www.facebook.com/rachel.elimelech⁠⁠⁠ [https://www.facebook.com/rachel.elimelech]   To Buy Rachel a Coffee:⁠ ⁠⁠https://buymeacoffee.com/unspokenemotions⁠⁠⁠ [https://buymeacoffee.com/unspokenemotions]  LinkedIn:⁠ ⁠⁠https://www.linkedin.com/in/rachel-elimelech-a07a1a46/⁠⁠⁠ [https://www.linkedin.com/in/rachel-elimelech-a07a1a46/]  HOST BIO   Rachel Elimelech is the warm, courageous voice behind Unspoken Emotions - a podcast that gives voice to the feelings we so often keep buried. A qualified Solicitor and Higher Court Advocate, Rachel combines professional insight with deeply personal lived experience - from surviving sexual abuse, loss, and single parenthood to rebuilding her life with quiet strength and unwavering resilience. Her journey from teenage single mum to respected legal professional has shaped her gift for deep connection. With empathy and authenticity, Rachel creates a safe, judgment-free space where guests are invited to speak the unspoken - grief, guilt, shame, anger, fear - and begin to let go of what no longer serves them. Through honest, unfiltered conversations, Unspoken Emotions explores how real people have turned pain into purpose and silence into healing. Rachel believes that healing begins the moment we speak the truth of our experiences - and that none of us should carry our emotions alone.

Coercive Control, Gaslighting and the Long Road Back to Yourself - with Christine Dillard

In this deeply moving episode, Rachel sits down with Christine a Fortune 500 director, single mother, and author of the memoir The Truth She Showed Me. Christine bravely unpacks her 17-year marriage, a relationship defined not by physical violence, but by the insidious, invisible wounds of coercive control. KEY TAKEAWAYS  Abuse Isn't Always Physical: Coercive control operates through the slow, subtle erosion of a person's identity and autonomy. It is often maintained through micro-moments and subtle manipulations rather than explosive, visible events. The Body Keeps the Score: Psychological and emotional abuse can manifest in severe physical symptoms. Christine experienced autoimmune issues, high blood pressure, racing heart rates, sweating, and chronic insomnia as a direct result of her environment. The Power of a "Tone": For victims of coercive control, a simple shift in their abuser's tone of voice can trigger a full-body trauma response. The body shuts down into a state of "fight, flight, or freeze," even if outsiders cannot perceive the threat. Strategic Exits are Crucial: Leaving a controlling relationship safely often requires careful, covert planning. Christine executed a three-year exit strategy to secure her finances, arrange housing, and ensure her children reached an age where custody dynamics would be safer. Trust Your Body's Signals: When your mind tries to gaslight you into believing "it's not that bad," your body will tell you the truth. Healing begins the moment you stop ignoring your own physical and emotional distress signals and seek confidential support. BEST MOMENTS "I didn't realize how much I had not even changed, I just was a shell of the person that I was 17 years, 18 years prior." "My brain was protecting me by not allowing me to remember all of those things... your body is protecting you. It’s allowing you to survive in the situation you’re in." "You hear a tone and you immediately shut down. Like your body doesn't know what to do. Your brain shuts off, your heart is racing... you don't know if you should stand still and not move, not breathe, or if you should run." "If any one of these physical symptoms hits you when he does something or he says something or uses a certain tone... your body is responding. It is that bad." "The time that I would have invested in him... I reinvested that time in myself and I was like, 'I'm going to be real selfish about this.'" HOW TO CONNECT WITH CHRISINE The Truth She Showed Me (memoir): [https://amzn.to/4t1LoR5 [https://amzn.to/4t1LoR5]]  Instagram: [https://www.instagram.com/thetruthsheshowedme?igsh=Z3IxcWJlcmIyYm5t [https://www.instagram.com/thetruthsheshowedme?igsh=Z3IxcWJlcmIyYm5t]]  TikTok: [https://www.tiktok.com/@thetruthsheshowedme?_r=1&_t=ZN-95xD2O4csXm [https://www.tiktok.com/@thetruthsheshowedme?_r=1&_t=ZN-95xD2O4csXm]]  To connect with your host, follow Me HERE:  Insta:⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠https://www.instagram.com/rachel_unspokenemotions/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ [https://www.instagram.com/rachel_unspokenemotions/]  TikTok:⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠www.tiktok.com/@rachel.unspoken.em⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ [https://www.tiktok.com/@rachel.unspoken.em] Email: ⁠⁠⁠rachel@unspokenemotions.co.uk⁠⁠⁠ Facebook: ⁠⁠https://www.facebook.com/rachel.elimelech⁠⁠ [https://www.facebook.com/rachel.elimelech]   To Buy Rachel a Coffee: ⁠⁠https://buymeacoffee.com/unspokenemotions⁠⁠ [https://buymeacoffee.com/unspokenemotions]  LinkedIn: ⁠⁠https://www.linkedin.com/in/rachel-elimelech-a07a1a46/⁠⁠ [https://www.linkedin.com/in/rachel-elimelech-a07a1a46/]  HOST BIO   Rachel Elimelech is the warm, courageous voice behind Unspoken Emotions - a podcast that gives voice to the feelings we so often keep buried. A qualified Solicitor and Higher Court Advocate, Rachel combines professional insight with deeply personal lived experience - from surviving sexual abuse, loss, and single parenthood to rebuilding her life with quiet strength and unwavering resilience. Her journey from teenage single mum to respected legal professional has shaped her gift for deep connection. With empathy and authenticity, Rachel creates a safe, judgment-free space where guests are invited to speak the unspoken - grief, guilt, shame, anger, fear - and begin to let go of what no longer serves them. Through honest, unfiltered conversations, Unspoken Emotions explores how real people have turned pain into purpose and silence into healing. Rachel believes that healing begins the moment we speak the truth of our experiences - and that none of us should carry our emotions alone.