The Lonely Clam

Threshold Behavior

BEHOLD. ’Tis I, and not a single tear was shed this episode. This one is a belated birthday celebration of me, the Aries queen - who I’ve been, who I’m becoming, and how far I’ve cum. I talk about those messy, uncomfortable “right before it works out” feelings… the threshold moments where self sabotage, imposter syndrome, and fear start clawing at the walls right before something bigger breaks through. I’m realizing chaos never really leaves us. It doesn’t disappear once we heal or level up. Sometimes it’s the very thing shaping us into who we’re meant to become. We talk Aries season, fire, transformation, identity shifts, and the strange tension between falling apart and finally stepping into your life. Not just internally either, but how those shifts start echoing into the outer world too. In this episode, we heal a little, learn a little, spiral a little, and cross the “in-between” threshold together. Greener pastures ahead, my little clams.

Clam Court: Dirty Panty Fetish, Drunk Kisses, and Copy Cats ft. Shari

Hello. I want to play a little game - guilty, innocent, or electric chair? Welcome to Clam Court, where we give damning verdicts and feral vibes.

Once Upon a December

This episode is the home your nervous system recognizes. The home your spirit craves. The home that doesn’t disappear when someone doesn’t understand you. I talk about what it’s like to feel like you don’t belong anywhere, how heavy home dynamics can mess with your identity, and why chosen family isn’t just important- it’s crucial. I spill some tea on the roommate who must not be named, discuss the standards I’ve developed for the women in my life, and dissect a recurring dream that made me realize I’ve been outsourcing safety to people who could never truly see me in the first place. Once Upon a December… because some of the deepest lessons happen in the cold.

Holy or Hidden?

This episode is not another tired segment about magic underwear or trashing religion. It’s about the things they don’t teach in Sunday school: that unity can come at the cost of your truth, compliance gets mistaken for love, and identity is often the first thing you’re asked to sacrifice for family. I give a hot take on cults and why Mormonism is more complex than that label, grieve the loss of belonging, rant a little, and ultimately reclaim my agency. This is an episode about control disguised as care, obedience framed as virtue, and what happens when you stop shrinking just to stay connected. If you’ve been praised for being easy to manage, this one is for you.

Wild Child

Wild Child started with an Enya song I used to play on repeat as a kid, when the universe grabbed me by the shoulders and said, remember her? This episode is a slow unraveling of inner child work, shadow work, and the kind of healing that doesn’t announce itself—it sneaks up on you while crying over your ex. After starting over (again), I talk about grief, loneliness, childhood patterns, and what it’s like to lose faith and slowly find it again. This isn’t a “open your third eye and om” episode—it’s about sitting with yourself long enough to hear what your younger self has been saying all along. Reflective, funny, a little existentially spiraled, and a reminder that healing doesn’t make you softer—it makes you more honest. If you’ve been feeling disconnected or spiritually homesick, Wild Child is your sign to go get her. She’s still there. Probably listening to Enya.