Good Grief

We've reached the end of the trail, and I'm realizing I'm never going to find what I'm looking for.  Subscribe on iTunes [https://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/good-grief/id1176140270?mt=2], Soundcloud [https://soundcloud.com/user-776342820], Stitcher [http://www.stitcher.com/podcast/good-grief-2?refid=stpr], RadioPublic [https://play.radiopublic.com/92223327-716d-4a49-8d5f-12ce440bbce7] or wherever else you listen to podcasts.  Music: "Deuce" [https://indianwells.bandcamp.com/track/deuce] by Indian Wells. "Euphoric" [https://freemusicarchive.org/music/Podington_Bear/Inspiring/Euphoric] by Podington Bear. Narration recorded at Sweet Spot Studio [http://www.sweetspotstudio.com/].  EPISODE EXTRA [http://www.goodgriefpodcast.com/blog/2017/7/9/this-is-about-me] THIS WAS FOR ME. [http://www.goodgriefpodcast.com/blog/2017/7/9/this-is-about-me] [https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5817ed03b8a79b7befeb9c65/1499653279718-8ZRO8DLJFF0EDVXJL21D/image-asset.jpeg?format=1000w] On motivation, self care and personal narrative storytelling.

I've exhausted every avenue I can think of to get any sort of straight answer — every avenue except one. How do you write a letter to your estranged, dead father's wife? Subscribe on iTunes [https://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/good-grief/id1176140270?mt=2], Soundcloud [https://soundcloud.com/user-776342820], Stitcher [http://www.stitcher.com/podcast/good-grief-2?refid=stpr], RadioPublic [https://play.radiopublic.com/92223327-716d-4a49-8d5f-12ce440bbce7] or wherever else you listen to podcasts. Music: "Deuce" [https://indianwells.bandcamp.com/track/deuce] by Indian Wells. "Glass Piano" [http://freemusicarchive.org/music/Podington_Bear/Tender/GlassPiano] by Podington Bear. Narration recorded at Sweet Spot Studio [http://www.sweetspotstudio.com/].

I've reached a point where I don't know where to turn next. What do you do when you realize that the only person who has the answers you’re looking for isn’t around to give them to you? Turns out, one of my close friends is going through the same thing.  Subscribe on iTunes [https://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/good-grief/id1176140270?mt=2], Soundcloud [https://soundcloud.com/user-776342820], Stitcher [http://www.stitcher.com/podcast/good-grief-2?refid=stpr], or wherever else you listen to podcasts.  New episodes released every first Monday of the month. Music: "Deuce" [https://indianwells.bandcamp.com/track/deuce] by Indian Wells. "Quizitive" [http://freemusicarchive.org/music/Lee_Rosevere/Music_For_Podcasts/Lee_Rosevere_-_Music_For_Podcasts_-_06_Quizitive] by Lee Rosevere. Narration recorded at Sweet Spot Studio [http://www.sweetspotstudio.com/].  EPISODE EXTRA GRIEF IS NOT WHAT THEY TELL YOU ON TELEVISION [http://www.goodgriefpodcast.com/blog/2017/5/1/grief-is-not-what-they-tell-you-on-television] [https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5817ed03b8a79b7befeb9c65/1493653641620-8QXW1KPGWO462CVVA3HB/image-asset.png?format=1000w] Grief ebbs and flows. It's not a simple step-system. First, capital-D Denial. Second, capital-A Anger. That's bullshit. You grieve not only the loss of the person, but the loss of the missed opportunities, the loss of resolution and closure. At least, that's what I grieve. My grief isn't conducive to the "Five Steps."  [http://www.goodgriefpodcast.com/blog/]

One week, my half-brothers are learning about my existence and adding me on Facebook. The next week, we're meeting for the first time in a random North Carolina sports bar. Yes, it is the most awkward first date you can imagine.  Subscribe on iTunes [https://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/good-grief/id1176140270?mt=2], Soundcloud [https://soundcloud.com/user-776342820], Stitcher [http://www.stitcher.com/podcast/good-grief-2?refid=stpr], or wherever else you listen to podcasts.  New episodes released every first Monday of the month. Music: "Deuce" [https://indianwells.bandcamp.com/track/deuce] by Indian Wells. "Mosaic" [http://freemusicarchive.org/music/The_PLastic_Jazz_Orchestra/39/the_plastic_jazz_orchestra__39__02] by The Plastic Jazz Orchestra. "Time Waste" [http://freemusicarchive.org/music/Podington_Bear/Grit/Time_Waste] by Podington Bear.  Narration recorded at Sweet Spot Studio. [http://www.sweetspotstudio.com/] EPISODE EXTRA MAYBE I SHOULD'VE RECORDED THEM. MAYBE I SHOULD'VE PUSHED THEM. [http://www.goodgriefpodcast.com/blog/2017/4/2/maybe-i-shouldve-recorded-them-maybe-i-shouldve-pushed-them] [https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5817ed03b8a79b7befeb9c65/1491193212053-8SHVFGCRTKW3RPESRAZW/image-asset.jpeg?format=1000w] http://www.goodgriefpodcast.com/blog/2017/4/2/maybe-i-shouldve-recorded-them-maybe-i-shouldve-pushed-them Let's talk about why I didn't push my brothers to be recorded.  [http://www.goodgriefpodcast.com/blog/2017/4/2/maybe-i-shouldve-recorded-them-maybe-i-shouldve-pushed-them]

When I left Akwesasne, I knew I needed to confront the one person who I had been avoiding: Mom.  Subscribe on iTunes [https://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/good-grief/id1176140270?mt=2], Soundcloud [https://soundcloud.com/user-776342820] or wherever else you listen to podcasts.  New episodes released every first Monday of the month. Episode extras every two weeks. Music: "Deuce" [https://indianwells.bandcamp.com/track/deuce] by Indian Wells. "Enjoyable to Know" [http://freemusicarchive.org/music/C_Scott/Stage_Theory_Beats_vol_3/CScott_-_Stage_Theory_Beats_vol_3_-_15_Enjoyable_to_Know1] by C. Scott. Narration recorded at D.C. Public Library Studio Lab. EPISODE EXTRA INTERVIEWING FAMILY IS TOUGH. [http://www.goodgriefpodcast.com/blog/2017/3/5/interviewing-family-is-tough-ok]  [https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5817ed03b8a79b7befeb9c65/1491185084047-VHML1QD8CDCPRGDXLD7P/17190610_242570379536772_6247449257371626733_n.jpg?format=1000w] http://www.goodgriefpodcast.com/blog/2017/3/5/interviewing-family-is-tough-ok Really. Really. Really Tough.  [http://www.goodgriefpodcast.com/blog/2017/3/5/interviewing-family-is-tough-ok]