the hardest conflict lives inside of you [ft. Monika Alanna]

the hardest conflict lives inside of you [ft. Monika Alanna]

SIGN UP FOR CONFLICT SCHOOL: www.hannawilliams.com/conflictschool Connect with Monika Alanna  Instagram:  @rooted.relating (coaching/grief counseling) [https://www.instagram.com/rooted.relating] @magicksalt (handmade jewelry, art, writing) [https://www.instagram.com/magicksalt] www.magicksalt.com [https://gracepilled.simplecast.com/episodes/www.magicksalt.com] Connect with me, Hanna, your host:  Instagram: @grace.pilled [http://www.instagram.com/grace.pilled] hannawilliams.com [http://www.hannawilliams.com/](bookings, human design, etc) patreon.com/gracepilled [http://patreon.com/gracepilled] (join as a free member to get access to a collection of talks!) What if the hardest conflict you'll ever face isn't with another person—but with yourself? In this conversation, Monika Alanna and I explore the subtle ways we avoid truth in order to avoid conflict. We talk about self-betrayal, people-pleasing, desire, compromise, relationships, nervous system regulation, and why so many of us sacrifice our own authenticity in the pursuit of belonging, love, or peace. Along the way, we ask questions like: What makes someone a good compromise partner? How do you know the difference between compromise and self-sacrifice? Why do the things we love most about someone often become the very things that frustrate us? And what happens when we finally stop trying to avoid conflict altogether? More than anything, this episode is an invitation to rethink conflict. Conflict is not a sign that something has gone wrong. It is an inevitable and even transformative part of being alive. The goal isn't to eliminate conflict. The goal is to develop the skills, awareness, and courage to meet it well. Whether you're navigating romantic relationships, friendships, family dynamics, or your own inner world, I hope this conversation leaves you feeling a little more equipped to tell the truth, stay present through discomfort, and choose relationships that make both people more free.

can sex work be spiritual? a convo about neo-tantra [w/ Sarah]

Connect with me, Hanna, your host: CONFLICT SCHOOL STARTS JULY 28th  Instagram: @grace.pilled [http://www.instagram.com/grace.pilled] hannawilliams.com [http://www.hannawilliams.com](bookings, merch, etc) patreon.com/gracepilled [http://patreon.com/gracepilled] (join as a free member to get access to a collection of talks!) What happens when a classical Tantrika sits down with someone who has spent years working in the world of Neo Tantra and erotic bodywork? In this conversation, we explore where these two worlds overlap, where they fundamentally diverge, and what questions they raise about intimacy, healing, spirituality, sex work, vulnerability, and the search for God. Rather than trying to arrive at definitive answers, this episode is an invitation into a thoughtful and curious exploration of one of the most misunderstood subjects in contemporary spirituality.

Dave & Hanna try to explain tantra

Connect with Dave, my guest: https://www.instagram.com/dadima.ayurveda.yoga/ what we said at the end: vijnañabhairava tantra  Connect with me, Hanna, your host:  Instagram: @grace.pilled [http://www.instagram.com/grace.pilled] hannawilliams.com [http://www.hannawilliams.com/](bookings, conflict school, etc) patreon.com/gracepilled [http://patreon.com/gracepilled] (join as a free member to get access to a collection of talks!) What is Tantra, really? In this episode, I sit down with David Yoss for an ambitious conversation: attempting to explain the vast world of classical Tantra in a single sitting. What began as a tongue-in-cheek challenge quickly became an exploration of just how difficult Tantra is to define. Far from being a single religion, philosophy, or practice, Tantra is a diverse family of traditions that has shaped Hinduism, Buddhism, ritual practice, yoga, mysticism, and devotional life across South Asia for over a thousand years. Together, we explore some of the key themes that appear across Tantric traditions, while also discussing the historical and cultural forces that have shaped modern understandings (and misunderstandings) of Tantra in the West. Topics include: • Why scholars still struggle to agree on a single definition of Tantra • The meaning of the word "Tantra" and its relationship to sacred texts and revelation • Mantra as a living embodiment of divine power rather than a symbolic prayer • Initiation, lineage, and the role of the guru in Tantric practice • Ritual, puja, visualization, and worship in the "temple of the mind" • The subtle body, chakras, nyasa, and the installation of mantras within the body • Dualistic and nondual Tantric philosophies • Why Tantra is often associated with transgression and what that actually means • Left-handed and right-handed approaches to Tantric practice • Siddhis, spiritual attainments, and the distinction between liberation and worldly goals • The historical development of Tantra and its relationship to Hinduism and Buddhism • How colonialism and Victorian attitudes toward sexuality influenced Western perceptions of Tantra • The origins of Neo-Tantra and how it differs from classical Tantric traditions Whether you're completely new to Tantra or have been practicing for years, this conversation offers a broad introduction to one of the most influential, misunderstood, and fascinating spiritual movements in human history. Or at least our best attempt at explaining it in ninety minutes.

art as spiritual practice [w/ Kayla Radhika Miller]

Connect with my guest, Kayla: www.instagram.com/kayla.radhika www.kaylaradhika.ca www.patreon.com/cw/KaylaMiller493 Connect with me, Hanna, your host:  Art store: distantplanetdesign.etsy.com Instagram: @grace.pilled [http://www.instagram.com/grace.pilled] hannawilliams.com [http://www.hannawilliams.com/](bookings, conflict school, etc) patreon.com/gracepilled [http://patreon.com/gracepilled] (join as a free member to get access to a collection of talks!) In this episode of Gracepilled, I’m joined by multidisciplinary artist, mystic, and tantric yoga teacher Kayla Radhika Miller for a wide-ranging conversation about the relationship between art and spiritual practice. Together, we explore what happens when creativity stops being mere self-expression and starts becoming a genuine path of perception, devotion, and transformation. We talk about beauty as a force that interrupts the thinking mind, the parallels between artistic discipline and mantra practice, and how the creative process can train us to see reality more clearly. We also explore the tension between technique and surrender, why frustration is often part of both spiritual and artistic growth, and the difference between making something “correct” versus making something truly alive. Along the way, we dive into tantra, perception, abstract art, devotional practice, artistic limitation, self-portraiture, color theory, AI art, and the mysterious question of whether art can carry transmission. Kayla brings a rare blend of depth to this conversation through her background in tantric yoga, Kashmir Shaivism, expressive arts facilitation, and art history, and together we reflect on how creativity itself can become a doorway into relationship with the sacred. This episode is for artists, seekers, and anyone interested in the deeper spiritual function of beauty, perception, and creative practice.

why I went all-in on Human Design

free human design resource:  www.hannawilliams.com/humandesign get a written analysis from me  [https://www.hannawilliams.com/product-page/human-design-chart-analysis-written] join me on patreon In this solo episode of Gracepilled, I share the deeply personal story of how Human Design entered my life during a period of burnout, confusion, financial instability, and spiritual identity crisis. What began as skepticism toward a “channeled” system eventually became a profound framework for understanding individuality, authenticity, energy, relationships, and the spiritual process itself. I explores my experience discovering I am a Projector, the strange synchronicities that pulled me deeper into the system, and why Human Design ultimately felt less like a departure from my tantric background and more like another way of studying God, consciousness, and human behavior. Along the way, I reflect on burnout culture, deconditioning, differentiation, spiritual integrity, relational dynamics, openness and sensitivity, and the liberating power of radically accepting what you actually are instead of trying to become something else.