Self-Love Karma: Confession 7

Self-Love Karma: Confession 7

Self-Love Karma: Confession 7 In Confession 7 of Self-Love Karma, I explore a season of life that is often misunderstood: What if celibacy was never about the absence of love? Through personal reflection, embodiment, and contemplative storytelling, this episode explores how healing can quietly shift our relationship with desire, intimacy, and the way we seek connection. As I reflect on a season where my life was no longer organized around being chosen by another, a deeper truth begins to emerge: Desire doesn't disappear. It simply stops leading. There comes a point in healing when the pull that once governed our choices begins to lose its authority. What once felt urgent becomes patient. What once felt necessary becomes optional. The body still feels, the heart still longs, but neither is driven by the fear of being incomplete. This is a conversation about alignment. About discernment. About learning the difference between longing for love and abandoning yourself in search of it. Because perhaps the greatest transformation is not becoming someone who avoids relationships, but becoming someone who no longer loses themselves inside one. There are no perfect relationships. There is only the ground you stand on when you enter one. Thank you for being here and walking this journey with me. Kellie J. Wright Self-Love Karma Internal Narcissa

Self-Love Karma: Confession 6

Self-Love Karma: Confession 6 In Confession 6 of Self-Love Karma, I explore a question that changed everything: What if the run phase doesn't always look like running? Through personal reflection, embodiment, and contemplative storytelling, this episode examines how nervous-system protection can quietly hide beneath discipline, productivity, purpose, and even our most beautiful plans. As I reflect on turning fifty during COVID, navigating menopause without realizing how disconnected I had become from my body, and uncovering the subtle ways freeze can disguise itself as forward movement, a deeper truth emerges: The body doesn't only protect us from pain. Sometimes it also protects us from feeling fully alive. This is a conversation about presence. About breath. About the difference between movement and avoidance. About what happens when the body finally comes back online and begins returning us to memories, emotions, and parts of ourselves we didn't know we'd lost access to. Coming home to yourself is not a concept. It is a practice. And sometimes the very loop we thought was keeping us stuck becomes the path that leads us back to ourselves. Thank you for being here and walking this journey with me. Kellie J. Wright Self-Love Karma Internal Narcissa

Self-Love Karma: Confession 5

Self-Love Karma: Confession 5 In Confession 5 of Self-Love Karma, I reflect on the difference between labeling ourselves as “toxic” and learning to recognize the nervous-system patterns that once helped us survive. Through contemplative storytelling, embodiment, and emotional reflection, this episode explores silence, distance, fear, protection, and the quiet ways the body communicates when it no longer feels safe. What if the behaviors we shame ourselves for are not evidence that something is wrong with us, but signals pointing toward places within us that still need understanding, regulation, and love? This is a conversation about patterns. About awareness. About learning to meet ourselves differently. Not with punishment. Not with judgment. But with presence. Slowly, gently, we begin to interrupt the loop and find our way back home to ourselves. Thank you for being here and walking this journey with me. Kellie J. Wright Self-Love Karma Internal Narcissa

Self-Love Karma: Confession 4

Self-Love Karma: Confession 4 In this fourth episode of Self-Love Karma, I reflect on a realization that took thirteen years to fully understand: Maybe my heart was never actually broken. Maybe what broke was the illusion wrapped around love, longing, attachment, and the stories I once told myself about what it meant to be chosen, abandoned, ashamed, or whole. This episode led me back to one of the early blogs I wrote during the beginning of my transformation journey in 2013 — a piece called Cave. As I reread those words now, I realized something beautiful: the younger version of me was already trying to map the journey home long before I consciously understood what I was building. Through contemplative storytelling, nervous-system awareness, memory, music, and spoken-word reflection, this episode explores what happens when we stop identifying with the wound and begin listening from the place that lived through it. This is not a story about fixing. It is a story about returning. Slow. Real. Tender. Alive. Thank you for being here as we continue this journey together. Kellie J. Wright Internal Narcissa Self-Love Karma This podcast is dedicated to my beloved Aunt Shell (Michele Anne McPhillips-Defur).

Self-Love Karma: Confession 3

In this third episode of Self-Love Karma, I reflect on a realization that took thirteen years to fully understand: Maybe my heart was never actually broken. Maybe what broke was the illusion wrapped around love, longing, attachment, and the stories I once told myself about what it meant to be chosen, abandoned, or whole. Through contemplative storytelling, nervous-system awareness, music, memory, and spoken-word reflection, this episode explores what happens when we stop identifying with the wound and begin listening from the place that lived through it. This is not a story about fixing. It is a story about returning. Returning to the self beneath projection. Beneath fear. Beneath the old narratives that once shaped how we loved and survived. Sometimes healing is not about learning how to “move on.” Sometimes it is about learning how to stand without the illusion we once depended on. Slow. Real. Tender. Alive. And perhaps, for the first time, listening to our own hearts without falling into the wound again. Thank you for being here as we continue this journey together. Kellie J. Wright Internal Narcissa Self-Love Karma This podcast is dedicated to my beloved Aunt Shell (Michele Anne McPhillips-Defur).