Butterfly The Becoming

Episode 34 God Who Am I?

There comes a moment when truth gets louder than comfort. A moment when you feel the pain of the world so deeply you have to stop and ask— I asked God a question I could no longer outrun: Who am I? What followed was not silence—but an answer that changed how I see pain, purpose, and the world itself. This is a story about awakening. In this episode, I wrestle with awakening, suffering, truth, and the deeper question no one talks about: What is the gain? Because if awakening only leaves you in despair… something is incomplete.

Episode 33 You have Been Remembering Yourself in Pieces

What if you've been remembering yourself in pieces? Many of us remember the experiences that hurt us with remarkable clarity. The disappointments. The losses. The chapters that changed us. But what if there is another part of the story waiting to be remembered? Because your life is not only the story of what happened to you. It is also the story of what emerged from you.

There Is Life Behind These Words

There are things people carry quietly for years while appearing completely fine from the outside. In this short reflection, I speak about hidden struggle, silence, learning later in life, and what it feels like to slowly reclaim your voice after believing you were behind for much of your life. This is not a story about perfection. It is a story about becoming. There is life behind these words.

Episode 32 At the Crossroads: Standing Between Two Lives

In this episode of Butterfly The Becoming, Monette sits inside the quiet tension that comes when a life no longer fits the person you have become. What happens when the familiar path still offers safety… but something deeper inside you can no longer return to it? Through reflection, uncertainty, exhaustion, rebuilding, and truth, this episode explores the emotional crossroads many people quietly face when standing between survival and the life that continues calling them forward. A grounded conversation about fear, change, identity, and the difficult honesty required to keep walking toward a life that has not fully revealed itself yet.

Episode 31 You already know… you just haven’t been honest with yourself yet.

For over twenty years, I wanted to be a mother… and it didn’t happen the way I thought it would. This is a personal storytelling episode about waiting, motherhood, and what it feels like when life begins to shift in ways you can’t control. There were years of wanting something deeply while watching life move forward around me. Years that included quiet envy, difficult choices, and eventually choosing a different path—becoming a mother on my own through IVF. Now my son is grown. He hasn’t left yet—but he’s in the process of building his own life, and I can feel the change happening in real time. This episode isn’t about having answers. It’s about what it feels like to be in the middle of a life transition—when something you built your world around begins to change, and you’re learning how to sit with that honestly. If you’ve ever known something deep down… but struggled to be honest with yourself about it—this will feel familiar.