HIV: The Morning After

Compilation Special: Still Here

This is a special compilation episode featuring highlights from Series 1 and 2 of HIV: The Morning After, released ahead of Series 3 in June 2026. This episode covers what that means to be here today. It covers learning to live with uncertainty as a medical instruction and a life philosophy. The specific weight of a 20-year prognosis delivered cheerfully, echoing in your head on the London Underground for days. The six months after a diagnosis so bleak and depressive that living and dying became things you could weigh against each other with complete neutrality - and the moment of choosing to live, not because it would be easy, but because there would also be great food, great sex and the possibility of wonder. This episode also includes an exclusive clip from Series 3 featuring journalist Mark S King. Resources Terrence Higgins Trust - HIV information, support and campaigning www.tht.org.uk [https://www.tht.org.uk/] NAM aidsmap - Clear, evidence-based information about HIV www.aidsmap.com [https://www.aidsmap.com/] Positively UK - Peer support for people living with HIV in the UK www.positivelyuk.org [https://www.positivelyuk.org/] National AIDS Trust - Policy and advocacy www.nat.org.uk [https://www.nat.org.uk/] Samaritans - Free, confidential support if you're struggling Call: 116 123 | www.samaritans.org [https://www.samaritans.org/] Links Listen to the full episodes: 1. Chris Smith — Series 2, Episode 1 [https://player.captivate.fm/episode/3b57aad0-be01-4165-a17e-9abb0df3a958/] 2. Matthew Hodson — Series 1, Episode 7 [https://player.captivate.fm/episode/adc5d732-2dad-4e8a-90b3-f6a7e8423dc0/] 3. Alexander Cheves — Series 2, Episode 2 [https://player.captivate.fm/episode/7839e562-2c2d-40ea-94d3-d68af49c58b1/] 4. Diego Agurto Beroiza — Series 2, Episode 5 [https://player.captivate.fm/episode/403f1101-b827-4786-917a-df0c7932e101/] 5. Nikolaj Tange Lange — Series 2, Episode 9 [https://player.captivate.fm/episode/49b90843-a0b7-4aa4-9f97-964b7566bb29/] Music by Paul Leonidou: www.unstoppablemonsters.com [https://www.unstoppablemonsters.com/] Subscribe and listen on: Spotify [https://open.spotify.com/show/6STKi9WAVGW1WIVb2MK3wH?si=a62592087a62464c] | Apple Podcasts [https://podcasts.apple.com/gb/podcast/hiv-the-morning-after/id1835342862] | YouTube [https://www.youtube.com/@HIVTheMorningAfterpodcast] This podcast uses the following third-party services for analysis: Podtrac - https://analytics.podtrac.com/privacy-policy-gdrp

Compilation Special: Who Gets To Tell This Story?

This is a special compilation episode featuring highlights from Series 1 and 2 of HIV: The Morning After, released ahead of Series 3 in June 2026. The epidemic had a story. A specific kind of story, told in a specific kind of voice - white, male, gay. It wasn't false. But it was one story, and it left a great many people out. This episode covers what it costs to be absent from the dominant narrative: to be a Black woman told by her GP that HIV doesn't affect ladies like her; to grow up without seeing a single image of yourself in any HIV information; to spend years planning your funeral while your friends planned their weddings. These are remarkable people. And the episode ends with a white, gay man whose activism is aimed very much at ensuring all voices are heard, not just those that look like him. Resources Terrence Higgins Trust - HIV information, support and campaigning www.tht.org.uk [https://www.tht.org.uk/] NAM aidsmap - Clear, evidence-based information about HIV www.aidsmap.com [https://www.aidsmap.com/] Positively UK - Peer support for people living with HIV in the UK www.positivelyuk.org [https://www.positivelyuk.org/] National AIDS Trust - Policy and advocacy www.nat.org.uk [https://www.nat.org.uk/] Samaritans - Free, confidential support if you're struggling Call: 116 123 | www.samaritans.org [https://www.samaritans.org/] Links Listen to the full episodes: 1. Gus Cairns - Series 1, Episode 9 [https://player.captivate.fm/episode/d953e459-e6d4-4b6a-aaf4-1e72152da169/] 2. Marc Thompson - Series 1, Episode 10 [https://player.captivate.fm/episode/e939ce65-af88-477e-8c7e-192ea50e113a/] 3. Peter Willis - Series 1, Episode 8 [https://player.captivate.fm/episode/6ef63fb8-7ada-41ed-92e0-1ba80157f579/] 4. Martin Fenerty - Series 2, Episode 4 [https://player.captivate.fm/episode/2bcf1d06-9169-4e87-9281-e95a0450c816/] Music by Paul Leonidou: www.unstoppablemonsters.com [https://www.unstoppablemonsters.com/] Subscribe and listen on: Spotify [https://open.spotify.com/show/6STKi9WAVGW1WIVb2MK3wH?si=a62592087a62464c] | Apple Podcasts [https://podcasts.apple.com/gb/podcast/hiv-the-morning-after/id1835342862] | YouTube [https://www.youtube.com/@HIVTheMorningAfterpodcast]This is a special compilation episode featuring highlights from Series 1 and 2 of HIV: The Morning After, released ahead of Series 3 in June 2026. Resources Terrence Higgins Trust - HIV information, support and campaigning www.tht.org.uk [https://www.tht.org.uk/] NAM aidsmap - Clear, evidence-based information about HIV www.aidsmap.com [https://www.aidsmap.com/] Positively UK - Peer support for people living with HIV in the UK www.positivelyuk.org [https://www.positivelyuk.org/] National AIDS Trust - Policy and advocacy www.nat.org.uk [https://www.nat.org.uk/] Samaritans - Free, confidential support if you're struggling Call: 116 123 | www.samaritans.org [https://www.samaritans.org/] Links Listen to the full episodes: 1. Gus Cairns - Series 1, Episode 9 [https://player.captivate.fm/episode/d953e459-e6d4-4b6a-aaf4-1e72152da169/] 2. Marc Thompson - Series 1, Episode 10 [https://player.captivate.fm/episode/e939ce65-af88-477e-8c7e-192ea50e113a/] 3. Peter Willis - Series 1, Episode 8 [https://player.captivate.fm/episode/6ef63fb8-7ada-41ed-92e0-1ba80157f579/] 4. Martin Fenerty - Series 2, Episode 4 [https://player.captivate.fm/episode/2bcf1d06-9169-4e87-9281-e95a0450c816/] Music by Paul Leonidou: www.unstoppablemonsters.com [https://www.unstoppablemonsters.com/] Subscribe and listen on: Spotify [https://open.spotify.com/show/6STKi9WAVGW1WIVb2MK3wH?si=a62592087a62464c] | Apple Podcasts [https://podcasts.apple.com/gb/podcast/hiv-the-morning-after/id1835342862] | YouTube [https://www.youtube.com/@HIVTheMorningAfterpodcast] This podcast uses the following third-party services for analysis: Podtrac - https://analytics.podtrac.com/privacy-policy-gdrp

Compilation Special: The People Who Stayed

This is a special compilation episode featuring highlights from Series 1 and 2 of HIV: The Morning After, released ahead of Series 3 in June 2026. What do you do when you were quietly certain you were going to die, and then you didn't? This episode is about the long aftermath of survival. It covers what grief becomes when it stops being a storm and turns into ordinary weather: going to so many funerals you stop going. It covers the particular invisibility of being a young Black gay man in HIV services that hadn't imagined you existed. A GP treating dying patients while privately compartmentalising his own diagnosis. A decade spent keeping life deliberately small - no plans, no ambitions, nothing too far ahead - and the slow, confusing work of learning to want things again when the assumption of early death turned out to be wrong. And everywhere, just beneath the surface, the people who were months too early for the drugs that would have saved them. Resources Terrence Higgins Trust - HIV information, support and campaigning www.tht.org.uk [https://www.tht.org.uk/] NAM aidsmap - Clear, evidence-based information about HIV www.aidsmap.com [https://www.aidsmap.com/] Positively UK - Peer support for people living with HIV in the UK www.positivelyuk.org [https://www.positivelyuk.org/] National AIDS Trust - Policy and advocacy www.nat.org.uk [https://www.nat.org.uk/] Samaritans - Free, confidential support if you're struggling Call: 116 123 | www.samaritans.org [https://www.samaritans.org/] Links Listen to the full episodes: 1. Gus Cairns - Series 1, Episode 9 [https://player.captivate.fm/episode/d953e459-e6d4-4b6a-aaf4-1e72152da169/] 2. Marc Thompson - Series 1, Episode 10 [https://player.captivate.fm/episode/e939ce65-af88-477e-8c7e-192ea50e113a/] 3. Peter Willis - Series 1, Episode 8 [https://player.captivate.fm/episode/6ef63fb8-7ada-41ed-92e0-1ba80157f579/] 4. Martin Fenerty - Series 2, Episode 4 [https://player.captivate.fm/episode/2bcf1d06-9169-4e87-9281-e95a0450c816/] Music by Paul Leonidou: www.unstoppablemonsters.com [https://www.unstoppablemonsters.com/] Subscribe and listen on: Spotify [https://open.spotify.com/show/6STKi9WAVGW1WIVb2MK3wH?si=a62592087a62464c] | Apple Podcasts [https://podcasts.apple.com/gb/podcast/hiv-the-morning-after/id1835342862] | YouTube [https://www.youtube.com/@HIVTheMorningAfterpodcast] This podcast uses the following third-party services for analysis: Podtrac - https://analytics.podtrac.com/privacy-policy-gdrp

Compilation Special: What the Body Carries

This is a special compilation episode featuring highlights from Series 1 and 2 of HIV: The Morning After, released ahead of Series 3 in June 2026. What did HIV do to four people across four different decades, and what effect was left when the acute crisis passed? Seven and a half stone in an ambulance. A bruise on a chest that didn't go away. Retiring on the basis of six months to live and then watching six months keep getting longer. Seven pills before school, wrapped in tin foil at house parties and smuggled to a toilet cubicle so no one would see. And what it means to have never known life without HIV: no before, no after, just the continuous fact of it, and the pills that became, in their own way, a form of certainty when everything else felt out of control. Resources Terrence Higgins Trust - HIV information, support and campaigning www.tht.org.uk [https://www.tht.org.uk/] NAM aidsmap - Clear, evidence-based information about HIV www.aidsmap.com [https://www.aidsmap.com/] Positively UK - Peer support for people living with HIV in the UK www.positivelyuk.org [https://www.positivelyuk.org/] National AIDS Trust - Policy and advocacy www.nat.org.uk [https://www.nat.org.uk/] Samaritans - Free, confidential support if you're struggling Call: 116 123 | www.samaritans.org [https://www.samaritans.org/] Links Listen to the full episodes: 1. Anthony Bird — Series 1, Episode 6 [https://player.captivate.fm/episode/5b595fdd-61d3-4842-a499-8ee04c10a415/] 2. Garry Brough — Series 2, Episode 4 [https://player.captivate.fm/episode/14929081-afb7-4fc4-95d5-a21eb60ea97d/] 3. Peter Willis — Series 1, Episode 8 [https://player.captivate.fm/episode/6ef63fb8-7ada-41ed-92e0-1ba80157f579/] 4. Eli Fitzgerald — Series 2, Episode 7 [https://player.captivate.fm/episode/201c4641-02b9-4298-aa40-1a5610ecccae/] Music by Paul Leonidou: www.unstoppablemonsters.com [https://www.unstoppablemonsters.com/] Subscribe and listen on: Spotify [https://open.spotify.com/show/6STKi9WAVGW1WIVb2MK3wH?si=a62592087a62464c] | Apple Podcasts [https://podcasts.apple.com/gb/podcast/hiv-the-morning-after/id1835342862] | YouTube [https://www.youtube.com/@HIVTheMorningAfterpodcast] This podcast uses the following third-party services for analysis: Podtrac - https://analytics.podtrac.com/privacy-policy-gdrp

Compilation Special: The Waiting Room

This is a special compilation episode featuring highlights from Series 1 and 2 of HIV: The Morning After, released ahead of Series 3 in June 2026. A life can divide cleanly into before and after. This episode sits in the gap between them - in the waiting room, the clinic corridor, the flat you don't remember getting back to. It covers what it felt like to receive a diagnosis across four different decades, from 1982 to the early 2020s: the isolation that followed, the absence of information aimed at people like you, the impossible mask worn at work, the referral slip kept under a bed for months. It covers what it means to plan your own death and then, for reasons you didn't expect, not go through with it. And it covers what it means to be the youngest voice in a series like this - diagnosed in an era of effective treatment, never having personally lost anyone to HIV, and yet carrying the weight of that history as something visceral and present. Content note: this episode contains a description of suicidal ideation. Resources Terrence Higgins Trust - HIV information, support and campaigning www.tht.org.uk [https://www.tht.org.uk/] NAM aidsmap - Clear, evidence-based information about HIV www.aidsmap.com [https://www.aidsmap.com/] Positively UK - Peer support for people living with HIV in the UK www.positivelyuk.org [https://www.positivelyuk.org/] National AIDS Trust - Policy and advocacy www.nat.org.uk [https://www.nat.org.uk/] Samaritans - Free, confidential support if you're struggling Call: 116 123 | www.samaritans.org [https://www.samaritans.org/] Links Listen to the full episodes: 1. Jonathan Blake - Series 1, Episode 1 [https://player.captivate.fm/episode/abd12bd5-e8d0-4661-8f11-08d079b89368/] 2. Jim Vogiatzis - Series 1, Episode 3 [https://player.captivate.fm/episode/32735af0-ffc9-400d-8c02-c793e1b424ec/] 3. Angelina Namiba - Series 2, Episode 3 [https://player.captivate.fm/episode/db8e038f-3a2e-42a0-821c-84e6dfbb5d72/] 4. Jan - Series 2, Episode 8 [https://player.captivate.fm/episode/201294b7-1598-44f9-a466-04bac45d9140/] Music by Paul Leonidou: www.unstoppablemonsters.com [https://www.unstoppablemonsters.com/] Subscribe and listen on: Spotify [https://open.spotify.com/show/6STKi9WAVGW1WIVb2MK3wH?si=a62592087a62464c] | Apple Podcasts [https://podcasts.apple.com/gb/podcast/hiv-the-morning-after/id1835342862] | YouTube [https://www.youtube.com/@HIVTheMorningAfterpodcast] This podcast uses the following third-party services for analysis: Podtrac - https://analytics.podtrac.com/privacy-policy-gdrp