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[PREVIEW] November 19, 2025: I'm Going to Miss New York

I'm going to miss our backyard. I'm going to miss our living room chip parties. I'm going to miss our building. I'm going to miss our neighbors. I'm going to miss our apartment. I'm going to miss our home. I'm going to miss Silver Rice. It's important to hold rituals when we leave a place — to commemorate the time we spent in New York, and to remember all the time we passed here. I notice myself being more present and taking in all of these final moments. I wish we could live like this all the time.

[PREVIEW] November 14, 2025: Looking Back on 10 Years in New York

I can't leave New York perfectly. I have so many people I want to write letters to. I have so many people I want to meet up with and say goodbye to. I want to be able to gather with people before I leave. I acknowledge that I can't do it all, and if all I can do is my stuff and myself out of New York, that's enough.

[PREVIEW] November 13, 2025: The Waves of Grief of Moving out of New York

Your home makes you feel safe, and when your home is looking unstable, then I feel untable. I don't like having our bed in our living room. Our TV is being stored in the kitchen so Haejoon doesn't get hurt.

[PREVIEW] November 12, 2025: Saying My Goodbyes to New York

I want to hold space for all the ways that New York held me, for better and for worse. I am taking mind pictures of all of my favorite places. There's a grief in the fact that we can't take our favorite places with us when we leave them.

[PREVIEW] November 11, 2025: Reflections on Moving and the Societal Pressure of Our 30s ("You're too old.")

This episode is about slowing but surely moving out of New York, talking to Sonny, and the societal pressures of our 30s. My life happened out of order.