EP02 | IVF, Loss & Faith: Finding Joy in the Waiting / My Healing Testimony

EP02 Trailer | IVF, Loss and Faith

What if the miracle isn’t what I’m waiting for… but what God is doing inside of me? I’ve felt the tension between believing for a breakthrough and thinking my testimony would only matter if the miracle showed up. But God showed me something deeper… My healing, my surrender, and my praise in the waiting… is already the testimony. God isn’t just moving in outcomes—He’s moving in my heart. In the waiting, in the unanswered prayers, in the “not yet”… He is still present. Still healing me. Still transforming me. My ability to praise Him in the middle of it all is evidence of His work in my life. So I go to the secret place. I ask Him to reveal what I haven’t surrendered yet. And every time… He meets me there.

EP02 | IVF, Loss & Faith: Finding Joy in the Waiting / My Healing Testimony

What do you do when God says “not yet”?After 25 years of waiting, infertility, IVF, and heartbreak… this is my story of how God still showed up and brought healing in the waiting.Welcome to Begin & Behold, a space for real conversations about encountering God in every season. These conversations follow a journey we all walk through: A Wilderness season where God meets us. A Healing season where God restores us. A Becoming season where God transforms us.In this episode, I open up about my journey through infertility, loss, and the emotional weight of waiting on God for a promise that hasn’t yet come to pass.Through moments of grief, unanswered prayers, and years of waiting, I’ve come to realize a powerful truth: the greatest miracle wasn’t the outcome… it was the healing, the transformation, and the presence of God in the process.If you’ve ever struggled with:* Waiting on God* Infertility or the IVF journey* Loss, grief, or disappointment* Feeling like your prayers aren’t being answered* Searching for healing, faith, or purposeThis episode is for you.My prayer is that this conversation encourages you to:✨ Find joy in the waiting✨ Encounter God in the “not yet”✨ Experience emotional and spiritual healing✨ Grow deeper in your relationship with GodTimestamps:00:00 Welcome to Begin & Behold01:00 The journey begins03:00 IVF and the “not yet” moment05:00 Walking through grief and pain08:00 God’s faithfulness over time12:00 Healing in the waiting15:00 The secret place & transformation17:00 Invitation to begin again

God Hates Divorce, but What If You’re Being Betrayed?

What do you do when your marriage is broken… but your faith tells you to stay?In this deeply emotional and faith-filled conversation, we dive into the reality of infidelity, divorce, and spiritual warfare inside the church. One woman shares her raw story—navigating betrayal while pregnant, raising a child battling suicidal thoughts, and wrestling with what God says about divorce.This isn’t just a story about pain… it’s about faith under pressure.If you’ve ever asked:Does God want me to stay in a broken marriage?How do I heal after infidelity?Where is God in the middle of my suffering?This message is for you.Through heartbreak, confusion, and spiritual battles, she reveals how God met her in the darkest moments—and how the support of pastors and community helped her stay anchored in truth.👉 You are not alone.👉 Your story is not over.👉 God is still working. I’d love to hear from you:What is one area God might be inviting you to trust Him in?—🔔 Subscribe for more conversations on:Christian healingInner healing and freedomSoul care (spirit, soul, body)Identity in Christ—📲 Connect with me:Instagram: @ingridsgonzalezPodcast: Begin & Behold—🕊️ Keywords (to help others find this):obedience to God, Christian inner healing, Holy Spirit guidance, God search my heart, healing from wounds, faith and healing, Christian marriage healing, surrender to God, spiritual growth, forgiveness and healing, Christian podcast

What if healing didn’t start with fixing everything around you

What if healing didn’t start with fixing everything around you…but with one simple yes to God?In this conversation, Dr. Tanya shares how her first decision was obedience and how that yes opened up something she didn’t expect.“The first decision was to be obedient… I didn’t know what it was going to open up.”What it opened up was a space for the Holy Spirit to gently begin revealing what was already therelike a flashlight shining into the hidden placesthe woundsthe pridethe patterns she hadn’t seen beforeAnd then something even deeper happened.In moments where she wanted to focus on what her husband had done, the Holy Spirit reminded her:you said yes to MeNot to fixing your husbandnot to controlling the outcomebut to your own journey of healingAnd from that place… everything started to shiftThis clip is an invitation to considerwhat could happen if you trusted God with your healing process✨ As you watch, reflect on this:• Where might God be inviting you into obedience?• What would it look like to let Him search your heart?• What could change if you focused on your transformation first?You don’t have to have it all figured outjust a willingness to say yes—💬 I’d love to hear from you:What is one area God might be inviting you to trust Him in?—🔔 Subscribe for more conversations on:Christian healingInner healing and freedomSoul care (spirit, soul, body)Identity in Christ—📲 Connect with me:Instagram: @ingridsgonzalezPodcast: Begin & Behold—🕊️ Keywords (to help others find this):obedience to God, Christian inner healing, Holy Spirit guidance, God search my heart, healing from wounds, faith and healing, Christian marriage healing, surrender to God, spiritual growth, forgiveness and healing, Christian podcast

What If Your Healing Starts With One ‘Yes’ to God?

What if healing didn’t start with fixing everything around you… but with one simple yes to God? In this conversation, Dr. Tanya shares how her first decision was obedience and how that yes opened up something she didn’t expect. “The first decision was to be obedient… I didn’t know what it was going to open up.” What it opened up was a space for the Holy Spirit to gently begin revealing what was already there like a flashlight shining into the hidden places the wounds the pride the patterns she hadn’t seen before And then something even deeper happened. In moments where she wanted to focus on what her husband had done, the Holy Spirit reminded her: you said yes to Me Not to fixing your husband not to controlling the outcome but to your own journey of healing And from that place… everything started to shift This clip is an invitation to consider what could happen if you trusted God with your healing process ✨ As you watch, reflect on this: • Where might God be inviting you into obedience? • What would it look like to let Him search your heart? • What could change if you focused on your transformation first? You don’t have to have it all figured out just a willingness to say yes — 💬 I’d love to hear from you: What is one area God might be inviting you to trust Him in? — 🔔 Subscribe for more conversations on: Christian healing Inner healing and freedom Soul care (spirit, soul, body) Identity in Christ — 📲 Connect with me: Instagram: @ingridsgonzalez Podcast: Begin & Behold — 🕊️ Keywords (to help others find this): obedience to God, Christian inner healing, Holy Spirit guidance, God search my heart, healing from wounds, faith and healing, Christian marriage healing, surrender to God, spiritual growth, forgiveness and healing, Christian podcast