The Leader You've Actually Been

What Have You Actually Let Go Of? — The Two Questions That Test a Leader's Inner Freedom

Episode 11 of CEO Exercises tackles the most stubborn failure in leadership development: the gap between knowing and doing. Many leaders can speak fluently about ego, attachment, and inner freedom, yet lead exactly as they always have. The insights never cross into action. Mike McDonnell argues this is why decades of investment in leadership development haven't increased engagement scores or reduced executive derailment patterns — the field keeps treating knowledge as the bottleneck when the real work lies in the leader's interior life. Drawing on two meditations Ignatius of Loyola placed deliberately back-to-back, the episode builds a diagnostic for testing whether a leader's freedom is real or illusory. The Three Classes of Persons asks whether you'll let go of a disordered attachment at all: the first class only intends to and never acts; the second — the most seductive and insidious — reframes and retitles the attachment so they feel free while still clinging to it; the third actually lets it go. The Three Kinds of Humility then asks how far you'll go, from the ethical floor, to genuine indifference, to the rare willingness to lean toward the more humble choice when the mission is served either way. Combined, the Three Classes of Persons and the Three Kinds of Humility expose the leader who admires third-kind humility while living at first or second class. The episode makes the business case directly: releasing the need to protect one's standing clears a leader's judgment, enabling earlier course-correction, deeper people-development, earned trust, and freedom of action. Mike shares his own time as a second-class CEO — staging "open" debates whose outcome he'd already decided — and the Examen practice that finally exposed it. The closing challenge is concrete: this week, release one attachment you've been managing rather than letting go. Title Ideas Send CEO Exercises a message [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2601888/fan_mail/new]

Which Value System Is Running You?

Episode 10 adapts one of the most psychologically sophisticated meditations in Ignatius of Loyola's Spiritual Exercises — the Meditation on the Two Standards — into a practical leadership tool. At its core is a single, unsettling claim: there are two competing value systems alive inside every leader at all times, the destructive one and the life-giving one.  The destructive one never announces itself. It always arrives looking like good business.  Host Mike McDonnell stages Ignatius's cinematic image of these two value systems.  He then traces each one’s strategy step by step. The destructive value system moves from riches to honors to pride, and its genius lies in plausibility — every step feels reasonable, even admirable, until a leader arrives somewhere they never would have chosen, without ever making a decision that looked wrong in the moment. The life-giving value system runs the precise inverse: spiritual poverty, a willingness to be lowered, and humility.  Crucially, Mike refuses to let the life-giving system register as the "soft" alternative. He builds a direct business case for why the life-giving standard is the higher-performing one, producing clearer perception, more honest information flow, and the discretionary effort in followership that gets the hardest things done. Virtue, he argues, is where durable performance comes from.  He carefully rehabilitates two easily misread ideas — "spiritual poverty"  and “willingness to be lowered.” Spiritual poverty is the capacity to have possessions without being possessed by them. It's holding your wealth, your status, your reputation, your title as gifts and as instruments — useful, even good — rather than as the thing that makes you who you are. The "willingness to be lowered" is the freedom to do the right thing even when it costs status and honors.  He then makes a practical turn: small, visible, costly acts of humility move a culture far more powerfully than any framed values statement.  Throughout, Mike insists that virtue and performance are an AND, not an OR — humility fused with a fierce passion for results — and offers a hollowness-versus-aliveness diagnostic grounded in consolation and desolation. He shares a candid reckoning with his own drift under the wrong banner during successful stretches of his career, closes with a five-part guided meditation, and connects the exercise back to the Examen, the Foundation, and the Field Notes.   Send CEO Exercises a message [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2601888/fan_mail/new]

The Descent--The Empathy Every Leader Owes

Episode 9 continues the Second Week of CEO Exercises, picking up directly from Episode 8's examination of Jesus as a leader. Host Mike McDonnell guides listeners through an adaptation of Ignatius of Loyola's Contemplation on the Incarnation, framed not as theology but as a leadership meditation that any leader—believer or skeptic—can use. Mike walks through Ignatius's startling staging of the scene: before any manger or baby, God surveys the whole earth, refusing to see humanity as an abstraction and instead seeing particular people—weeping, laughing, being born, dying. Only after this total, particular looking does God decide to descend, entering human conditions rather than redeeming from a safe distance. Mike argues that this sequence—look first, then come down—is the central move in all empathetic leadership. He turns the lens on himself, naming the invisible "bubble" that forms around senior leaders through wealth, status, curated calendars, and filtered information, separating them from the people they lead until empathy becomes almost impossible. His core claim: empathy is not a feeling to be summoned but the fruit of a particular quality of attention. When leaders truly see individual people, empathy arrives naturally and unforced—never as performance. The episode includes a guided three-part practice (rise to the aerial view, descend into the particulars, ask "how do I come down?"), an honest reckoning with the cost of descending, and explicit connections back to the Examen, the Foundation, and the Field Notes. Mike closes by urging listeners to enter the world of one person they lead — the descent, scaled down to the size of an hour on any given day. Send CEO Exercises a message [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2601888/fan_mail/new]

Who Would You Follow - and Why?

Episode 8 marks a turning point in CEO Exercises. After seven episodes devoted to self-awareness and inner freedom — the "First Week" of the Ignatian Spiritual Exercises — Mike McDonnell pivots into new territory: actively building leadership capability. This episode draws on the "Second Week" and adapts one of its most important meditations, Ignatius's Contemplation of the Kingdom of Christ, also known as the Call of the King.  After recapping the arc of the series so far, Mike guides listeners through a meditation exercise centered on three leaders, each extending the same offer to join them on a mission deeply appealing to you and aligned with your ultimate purpose. The first is the worst leader you ever worked for; the second is the best; and the third is Jesus of Nazareth, considered purely as a leader rather than a religious figure. For each, you examine the what, the why, and the how of their leadership, identify their most and least positive qualities, and decide how — and why — you would respond to their call.  The exercise is ultimately about clarifying your own leadership model. Mike shares his own answer: Humility, selflessness, freedom from disordered attachment, and love for the people right in front of you — all of it fused with a relentless commitment to the mission. He insists this is not a soft alternative to high performance but a high-performance model itself.  The episode closes by reconnecting the Second Week to the First: you don't change by being told what you should do. You change by coming to truly desire something greater than what you've been settling for, and then doing the work to get there.  Leadership at its best, Mike argues, is not a management technique but a spiritual achievement. Send CEO Exercises a message [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2601888/fan_mail/new]

The Leader You've Actually Been

Leaders often move from crisis to crisis and success to success without ever stopping to ask a harder question: What are the actual patterns in how I lead? In this episode, Mike McDonnell introduces the The Field Notes exercise — a structured, two-hour reflective practice designed to give leaders an honest, complete picture of what kind of leader they have been across their professional lives, deepening self-awareness. The Field Notes draws on a five-hundred-year-old Ignatian practice from the Spiritual Exercises — a meditation in which one systematically examines one's sins, organized by life period, to reveal deeper patterns of behavior. Mike encountered this meditation during his 30-day silent retreat as a Jesuit novice and has since refined it for secular leadership development. The secular version examines both sides of the ledger: not just failures and regrets, but moments of genuine pride, courage, effectiveness, when one is their “best self.”  The exercise is organized into three Parts. In Part One, the Positive Field Notes, leaders move through the segments of their professional life and identify the specific actions — not achievements — that represent their best self: moments of courage, integrity, generosity, or honest truth-telling. In Part Two, The Disappointments, leaders catalog the choices they made that, measured against their own values, they remember with regret or shame — such as moments of avoidance, self-protection, dishonesty, or harm to others. Critically, both Parts focus on personal agency: what you did, not what happened to you. Part Three, the Pattern Work, is where the real value emerges. By stepping back from the individual events and looking across time periods, leaders begin to identify recurring patterns and themes — the conditions under which their best self reliably appears, the triggers that reliably produce their worst behavior, and, often surprisingly, the ways in which their greatest strengths and deepest failure modes can be two sides of the same coin.  Mike closes by encouraging leaders to translate what they find into specific behavioral commitments, share their patterns with a trusted partner, and return to the practice annually. The Field Notes, he argues, provides leaders with the kind of self-knowledge that builds leadership capability and wisdom over time.       Send CEO Exercises a message [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2601888/fan_mail/new]