My Healing Journey (Part 1) - How it started with me realizing I was the toxic one in my last relationship and how I needed to change in order to keep a relationship

My healing journey (part 4): Overcoming money shame

In this episode, I talk about my relationship with money and all the shame that I carried around money. I also talk about how much of my worth I tied to money and how hitting rock bottom this year really helped me take my power back with money. I’m still healing my relationship with money but I did feel like it was important to talk about where I am today & where I’m heading because this is part of my journey and talking about it takes some of the shame away that I’ve carried for so many years and that I’m ready to let go of.

My healing journey (part 3): Immigration Trauma

In this episode, I share my experience as a first generation immigrant and the trauma that I experienced. I didn’t realize how much of my safety was tied to my immigration status and how much of my decision making process was filtered through that lense. My whole life revolves around me not being born here and I didn’t know how to “fix” it so I spent my whole life trying to be good enough to be here and I didn’t know any other way to live. It wasn’t until I healed my relationship with worthiness which led me to speak my truth and no longer give my power away to the United States.

Healing Journey (part 2): How my “daddy issues” played out in my life

In this episode I talk about my relationship with my dad and how that’s played a huge role in my toxic relationships. I always considered myself a daddy’s girl and I thought I didn’t have any “daddy issues” until I started looking at my previous relationships and the patterns that continued to play out. I didn’t want to see how my relationship with my dad was the same one I was creating with men. I would abandon myself in order to be “chosen” and I would lie to myself in order to not be “too much”. I didn’t know who I was because I was so used to pretending and in order to heal this I had to be willing to look at how my dad played a role. I had to be willing to take my dad off the pedestal I had him on and put myself on the pedestal instead. I also had to take responsibility for abandoning myself instead of putting masks on and pretending to be someone I wasn’t, like trying to be “chill” when my feelings are hurt. This has all helped me see how I can create a new reality where I actually get what I want and am worthy of. I hope this episode helps you see yourself and helps you take your power back. 🤍

My Healing Journey (Part 1) - How it started with me realizing I was the toxic one in my last relationship and how I needed to change in order to keep a relationship

In this episode, I dive into my healing journey and what initiated that journey. I start off the episode by giving some context around what/how I’ll be sharing. I share some questions from “What Happened to You? Conversations on Trauma, Resilience, and Healing” a book by Bruce D. Perry and Oprah Winfrey. After reading this book it really helped me see what happened to me and why I was the way I was. It gave me permission to see my trauma without making it about my mom or dad. I also dive into how this all started with my previous partner telling me he didn’t want to marry me and that would mean that I wouldn’t be able to stay in the country. It was my wake-up call to really see who I was and how I didn’t want to be that person. It has now been about 4 years since that conversation and it was honestly one of the biggest gifts my partner could have given me because for the first time I had to take a look at myself which actually helped me become someone who feels worthy (at least sometimes). My intention, as always, is for anyone listening to feel less alone and to spark some compassion for yourself or others.

Overcoming Perfectionism

In this episode, I talk a little bit about why it took me 4 months to record another episode. I had so much mind drama around it, I saw my shadows, I realized I took a lot on, my identity completely shifted and I talk about money. I didn’t expect to go here but that’s why I created this podcast and I hope that who ever listens feels a little less alone or somehow inspired. I mostly hope that my heart touches your heart. Love, Polet 🤍