My Peace Got PTSD

You Can Hear the Tired in My Voice

I’m not asking for a fairytale… but can I please get a break? 🫠 This year has been a whole emotional beatdown—and I’m still expected to rise like I’m not running on fumes. In this episode, I get honest (like voice note honest) about: ✨ Soul-level exhaustion 💔 Feeling abandoned in your darkest moments 🧠 Living in survival mode so long it became your identity 😶‍🌫️ What it’s like to be misunderstood, overextended, and still showing up This one’s for anybody out there whispering: Can this part be over already? 🎙️ You’re not alone. You’re not crazy. And you deserve more than just “getting through it.” #InLivingPolar #ImBoredOfSurviving #MentalHealth #SurvivalMode #SoftnessIsRebellion #TiredNotBroken #PodcastTherapy #ChrisianaXO

My Mom is Bipolar...and I'm Okay

This one’s tender. 💔 Last night, I sat down with my son—my brave, wise, beautifully honest 11-year-old—and we talked about what it’s like growing up in a house where emotions sometimes run deep, loud, and complicated. 😔🧠💬 We opened up about grief, mental health, and what it means to live in a space where love is real, but so is the weight of navigating a bipolar parent. 💡 He shared his heart, I shared mine, and somewhere in the middle—we found healing. 🫂💭 It’s not a perfect conversation. But it’s a real one. And it reminded me that our children are watching, feeling, and forming their own understanding of the world—even when we’re just trying to survive it. 🌍💞 Press play ▶️ you’re a parent, a child, or someone who’s ever had to find peace in a storm. 🌧️☀️ #InLivingPolar #MyMomisBipolar #ImOkay #GriefTalks #BipolarParenting #RaisingKids #MentalHealthMatters #RealConversations #MotherhoodUnfiltered #HealingOutLoud #NeurodiverseFamilies #BlackMentalHealth #GentleParenting #GriefJourney #EmotionalHonesty #PodcastWithMyKid 🎧👩🏾‍👦💬

Grief With Wi-Fi

🖤 Episode Summary: Grief doesn’t ask for permission, and it definitely doesn’t care if your Wi-Fi is still connected. In this raw and reflective episode, I open up about the recent loss of my father—and what it means to grieve in real-time while still showing up for life, motherhood, marriage, and the million tabs open in my brain. We talk about how grief doesn’t just knock you down—it tries to live with you. I share what it’s been like navigating pain in a world that never pauses, and the strange tension between needing stillness and having notifications that just keep coming. If you’ve ever had to keep moving while your heart was breaking, this one’s for you. ✨ In this episode: • The shock of losing someone while life keeps scrolling • Parenting through pain • The guilt of logging off when everyone else is still logged on • Why grief doesn’t have a timeline (and neither should healing) • Permission to fall apart—even if only in airplane mode 🧠 Therapy Thought: You can be high-functioning and heartbroken. Let both be true. 💬 Let’s Talk About It: Has grief ever hit you when you didn’t have time to process it? DM me or leave a comment—let’s create space for honest stories. 📌 Subscribe & Share: If this episode resonates, share it with someone who’s holding grief and trying to keep going. Hit that follow button so you never miss a Therapy Thursday drop. #TherapyThursdays #InLivingPolar #InLivingPolarPodcast #BlackandBipolar #Grief #healedish

My Peace Got PTSD

💭 Episode Snapshot: You prayed for peace. 🌸 You begged for rest. 😮‍💨 And when it finally came… your spirit said, “We don’t trust it.” 😬 If stillness makes you anxious, silence feels loud, or your body braces in calm moments—you’re not broken. 💔 You’re just healing from a world that taught you peace was a setup. 🧠⚠️ ⸻ 🧠 In This Episode: 🔹 Why peace can feel suspicious after trauma 🔹 How your body stores chaos—even in quiet seasons 🔹 Ways to teach your nervous system: “It’s safe now.” 🕊️ 🔹 Reminders that you’re not too much—you’re just adjusting 💫 ⸻ 💬 Quote Worth Repeating: “That’s not peace. That’s a trauma response in a pretty outfit.” ⸻ 🧘🏽‍♀️ Affirmation of the Week: “Even when it feels unfamiliar, I deserve peace that doesn’t make me flinch.” 🎧 (Stay ‘til the end for a calming affirmation to carry with you.) ⸻ 📲 Let’s Connect: Follow @chrisiana_xo and share what hit home using #InLivingPolar 💌 Tag a friend who’s learning to rest without guilt ✨

‘healed•ish

Episode 1: 'healed•ish Welcome to the very first episode of In Living Polar—a podcast where healing isn’t perfect, soft life gets real, and we make peace with being in process. In this episode, I’m opening the door and letting you into what “healed•ish” really feels like. Because let’s be honest—sometimes healing looks like a glow-up, and sometimes it looks like crying in the car while reheating coffee for the third time. I’m a mom of three, an Army wife holding it down solo since December, and the creator of not one, but two podcasts. So yes—I’m proud of every word I recorded in this episode. One step at a time is still forward. We talk: • What healing actually looks like in real life (hint: it’s not always cute) • The guilt of struggling even when you “should be good” • How to honor your growth, even when you’re not all the way there yet This episode is your reminder that you don’t have to be fully healed to show up—you just have to be real. Welcome to the journey. Welcome to In Living Polar. 🖤 Chris ⸻ 🔗 Listen + Subscribe: Spotify | Apple Podcasts | Amazon Music | Captivate ✨ Connect with Me: IG & Threads: @itschrisianaIRL [https://www.instagram.com/itschrisianaIRL] Email: inlivingpolarpod@gmail.com [inlivingpolarpod@gmail.com] #InLivingPolar #HealedISH #PodcastLaunch #MilitaryWifeLife #SoftLifeSeason #HealingOutLoud