You Can’t Carry Forever on a Paper Plate

From Bayonne,

The city never sleeps and neither do I... The love of a city returned to the sender. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit asquill.substack.com/subscribe [https://asquill.substack.com/subscribe?utm_medium=podcast&utm_campaign=CTA_2]

You Looked Good in My Love

You looked pretty wearing the love I gave you. And I fell in love with that image of it—with the illusion that something so visually perfect must also be emotionally right. … when I saw that picture of you from March 16th, something shifted in a way I didn’t expect. I recognized you, but it wasn’t immediate. Everything about you was recognizable. But ... You were no longer pretty for me to look at. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit asquill.substack.com/subscribe [https://asquill.substack.com/subscribe?utm_medium=podcast&utm_campaign=CTA_2]

The Proudest Stranger in the Room

I once told Mr. Andrews that I wished I could have been there when he graduated the EMT Academy. He reassured me it’s “not like I was missing anything”, or somebody else had taken that place because he “didn’t haveanyone in the audience” for him. And I cried. Because I was so proud of him. Especially knowing his story. How could no one want to sit there and applaud him? I wished so badly I could go back in time and be there. I told him I would have been the proudest girlfriend, just like if I could have been there today, I would be the proudest girlfriend. But now, I am just the proudest stranger in any room he walks in. And that doesn’t sound right... Because I’m not a stranger, am I, Andrews? I was your best friend. And then we went no contact. Until today. Because it’s Medal Day. Mr. Andrews, I hold no expectation of an answer from you—don’t expect to see your name on my phone. I just… Wanted you to know. “Thought of you for Medal Day today. I hope you’ve been okay.” Stay safe. You still own a rented space in my heart and head I expect you to make it home to at the end of each day—even if that doesn’t mean ever being in my bed again. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit asquill.substack.com/subscribe [https://asquill.substack.com/subscribe?utm_medium=podcast&utm_campaign=CTA_2]

You Can’t Carry Forever on a Paper Plate

Your hands knew how to hold lives, but not us. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit asquill.substack.com/subscribe [https://asquill.substack.com/subscribe?utm_medium=podcast&utm_campaign=CTA_2]

You Made Me Like My Body

It's been three months since you broke up with me, and to say I've had no desire for intimacy would be putting it lightly. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit asquill.substack.com/subscribe [https://asquill.substack.com/subscribe?utm_medium=podcast&utm_campaign=CTA_2]