when ‘everything will work out’ stops working

the moment they like me back, i’m over it

or we could talk about it: let’s talk boys! or to be more specific: how every time one finally likes me back, i suddenly want nothing to do with them. in this episode, i get curious about why that keeps happening — how i’ve confused attraction with the chase, why being liked can feel uncomfortable for me, and what it might actually say about how i see myself. so, lets talk about it, shall we? -meghan

a week late but still here

or we could talk about it: today’s episode is… messy. even messier than usual. i’m a week late (sorry, hi 👋) because motivation has been basically nonexistent lately. in this one, i give an update on the job situation, what it’s been like starting accutane while also navigating possible EDS, and how that’s been colliding with physical therapy and everyday life. it’s a little chaotic, a little unfiltered, but i’m showing up anyway—because i think it’s important to share the imperfect stuff too. – meghan

life update // is having kids egotistical??

or we could talk about it: this week’s episode is a mix of a life update + overthinking (classic). i catch you up on the date i mentioned last time and what it’s been like trying to date in utah, where religion always seems to be part of the equation (even though it’s not for me). i also get into the overwhelm of starting a second job, trying to juggle everything with chronic illnesses, and the reality of existing in a world that wasn’t designed for people like me. i somehow then end up sharing my thoughts on a tiktok where someone said it’s “egoistical” to have kids — and talk through all the feelings that came up around that. so in other words, just another week of figuring it out and talking about it. -meghan

when ‘everything will work out’ stops working

or we could talk about it: this week, i’m done hiding behind the “everything will work out” safety net. i talk about realizing my episodes have been feeling a little too… robotic, why i’ve been stuck in old patterns even when i’m technically improving, and how i’m finally figuring out what a healthy middle ground looks like. basically—what happens when you stop waiting for life to fix itself and start noticing what you’re actually doing. -meghan

social media & self-worth // AI tangent

In this episode of Or We Could Talk About It, I get real about what it’s been like trying to post more consistently online—especially on TikTok. I share the mental back-and-forth that comes with low views vs. posts that did pretty well, how easy it is to tie numbers to your self-worth (even when you know better), and what I’ve been doing to stay motivated when I’ve felt stuck. I also talk about pushing through social anxiety to make it to the gym, applying to jobs, and all the small steps I’ve been taking to (hopefully—fingers crossed) finally break out of the endless loop I always seem to fall back into. In the second half, I go off on a tangent about ChatGPT (yes, I know I say it “ChatGBT” but I’m lazy) and AI—don’t ask me why lol. I talk about my hesitation with using it, the weird effects I’ve noticed in myself even after just a short time, and some what-ifs and lowkey conspiracies about how it might affect the future—especially the way we think, connect, and evolve. Basically just me thinking out loud and wondering what happens if we let tech start doing the heavy lifting for us. If you’ve ever felt weird about social media, addicted to your own content, or a little unsettled by how fast tech is moving—then same. -Meghan