7 - four years without them

8 - you are not exempt from grief

attention! this message is for everyone yes, you too. + welcome August, World Juniors, & end of clinical year ____ special person shoutout https://form.jotform.com/251697033824057?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAacNuiAT5n4ty04joCsXkYYbwOOvWH-SuyRJAl21MFhdLC5TO6ggFHl7Iz16Lg_aem_9E4yfHChn3deJwRXgtjyAA [https://form.jotform.com/251697033824057?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAacNuiAT5n4ty04joCsXkYYbwOOvWH-SuyRJAl21MFhdLC5TO6ggFHl7Iz16Lg_aem_9E4yfHChn3deJwRXgtjyAA]  __ ask me anything https://form.jotform.com/251698198762071?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAaeJ0qTN3qk9lUFEj4M7xp9MX9HaBYLoddDKlDbFUJghwYV8DftGaJnnX52K1w_aem_JO7e4FQrZuYMKlxLCr8JZw [https://form.jotform.com/251698198762071?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAaeJ0qTN3qk9lUFEj4M7xp9MX9HaBYLoddDKlDbFUJghwYV8DftGaJnnX52K1w_aem_JO7e4FQrZuYMKlxLCr8JZw]  __ follow Out of Order with Ella on Instagram https://www.instagram.com/outoforderwithella/ [https://www.instagram.com/outoforderwithella/]  __ Listen on Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/0NqdoPbwe0uoYVAoRyaAtq?si=e99af7d5d3754608 [https://open.spotify.com/show/0NqdoPbwe0uoYVAoRyaAtq?si=e99af7d5d3754608]  Listen on Apple Podcasts https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/out-of-order-with-ella/id1821751116 [https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/out-of-order-with-ella/id1821751116]  Listen on Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/01a976f1-2b67-433d-a5b5-d4bf8757fe4c/out-of-order-with-ella [https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/01a976f1-2b67-433d-a5b5-d4bf8757fe4c/out-of-order-with-ella]  Listen on YouTube https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLEe3wLJotntuRWbhSG-qP6LFihkIHflD7&si=yQDU-kacfgXUzfGg [https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLEe3wLJotntuRWbhSG-qP6LFihkIHflD7&si=yQDU-kacfgXUzfGg]  __ No part of this podcast is intended to serve as or replace medical advice from a clinician. All views expressed are completely my own and independent of those of my school, employer, or people around me :)

7 - four years without them

what actually goes down during support group meetings & raw feelings and reflections from 4th death anniversaries of Mack and Sam ____ special person shoutout https://form.jotform.com/251697033824057?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAacNuiAT5n4ty04joCsXkYYbwOOvWH-SuyRJAl21MFhdLC5TO6ggFHl7Iz16Lg_aem_9E4yfHChn3deJwRXgtjyAA [https://form.jotform.com/251697033824057?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAacNuiAT5n4ty04joCsXkYYbwOOvWH-SuyRJAl21MFhdLC5TO6ggFHl7Iz16Lg_aem_9E4yfHChn3deJwRXgtjyAA]  __ ask me anything https://form.jotform.com/251698198762071?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAaeJ0qTN3qk9lUFEj4M7xp9MX9HaBYLoddDKlDbFUJghwYV8DftGaJnnX52K1w_aem_JO7e4FQrZuYMKlxLCr8JZw [https://form.jotform.com/251698198762071?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAaeJ0qTN3qk9lUFEj4M7xp9MX9HaBYLoddDKlDbFUJghwYV8DftGaJnnX52K1w_aem_JO7e4FQrZuYMKlxLCr8JZw]  __ follow Out of Order with Ella on Instagram https://www.instagram.com/outoforderwithella/ [https://www.instagram.com/outoforderwithella/]  __ Listen on Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/0NqdoPbwe0uoYVAoRyaAtq?si=e99af7d5d3754608 [https://open.spotify.com/show/0NqdoPbwe0uoYVAoRyaAtq?si=e99af7d5d3754608]  Listen on Apple Podcasts https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/out-of-order-with-ella/id1821751116 [https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/out-of-order-with-ella/id1821751116]  Listen on Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/01a976f1-2b67-433d-a5b5-d4bf8757fe4c/out-of-order-with-ella [https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/01a976f1-2b67-433d-a5b5-d4bf8757fe4c/out-of-order-with-ella]  Listen on YouTube https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLEe3wLJotntuRWbhSG-qP6LFihkIHflD7&si=yQDU-kacfgXUzfGg [https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLEe3wLJotntuRWbhSG-qP6LFihkIHflD7&si=yQDU-kacfgXUzfGg]  __ No part of this podcast is intended to serve as or replace medical advice from a clinician. All views expressed are completely my own and independent of those of my school, employer, or people around me :)

6 - holding space for grief

onward and upward in pediatrics, graduating SO SOON, applying to jobs, internet hate, and a personal check in leading up to the 4 year anniversary of losing Mack and Sam __ special person shoutout https://form.jotform.com/251697033824057?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAacNuiAT5n4ty04joCsXkYYbwOOvWH-SuyRJAl21MFhdLC5TO6ggFHl7Iz16Lg_aem_9E4yfHChn3deJwRXgtjyAA __ ask me anything https://form.jotform.com/251698198762071?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAaeJ0qTN3qk9lUFEj4M7xp9MX9HaBYLoddDKlDbFUJghwYV8DftGaJnnX52K1w_aem_JO7e4FQrZuYMKlxLCr8JZw __ follow Out of Order with Ella on Instagram https://www.instagram.com/outoforderwithella/ __ Listen on Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/0NqdoPbwe0uoYVAoRyaAtq?si=e99af7d5d3754608 Listen on Apple Podcasts https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/out-of-order-with-ella/id1821751116 Listen on Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/01a976f1-2b67-433d-a5b5-d4bf8757fe4c/out-of-order-with-ella Listen on YouTube https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLEe3wLJotntuRWbhSG-qP6LFihkIHflD7&si=yQDU-kacfgXUzfGg __ No part of this podcast is intended to serve as or replace medical advice from a clinician. All views expressed are completely my own and independent of those of my school, employer, or people around me :)

5 - ask them this not that

starting my pediatrics rotation, new JB, and asking "how's today?" instead __ special person shoutout https://form.jotform.com/251697033824057?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAacNuiAT5n4ty04joCsXkYYbwOOvWH-SuyRJAl21MFhdLC5TO6ggFHl7Iz16Lg_aem_9E4yfHChn3deJwRXgtjyAA __ ask me anything https://form.jotform.com/251698198762071?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAaeJ0qTN3qk9lUFEj4M7xp9MX9HaBYLoddDKlDbFUJghwYV8DftGaJnnX52K1w_aem_JO7e4FQrZuYMKlxLCr8JZw __ follow Out of Order with Ella on Instagram https://www.instagram.com/outoforderwithella/ __ Listen on Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/0NqdoPbwe0uoYVAoRyaAtq?si=e99af7d5d3754608 Listen on Apple Podcasts https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/out-of-order-with-ella/id1821751116 Listen on Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/01a976f1-2b67-433d-a5b5-d4bf8757fe4c/out-of-order-with-ella Listen on YouTube https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLEe3wLJotntuRWbhSG-qP6LFihkIHflD7&si=yQDU-kacfgXUzfGg __ No part of this podcast is intended to serve as or replace medical advice from a clinician. All views expressed are completely my own and independent of those of my school, employer, or people around me :)

4 - 10ish ways i helped my mind and body after trauma

4th of July recap with a trip down memory lane, getting back in the workout groove, and 10ish tips that ACTUALLY helped me in the first days, weeks, and months after losing Mack and Sam that I still do to this day __ check out Rêve https://www.revestudios.co/ __ special person shoutout https://form.jotform.com/251697033824057?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAacNuiAT5n4ty04joCsXkYYbwOOvWH-SuyRJAl21MFhdLC5TO6ggFHl7Iz16Lg_aem_9E4yfHChn3deJwRXgtjyAA __ ask me anything https://form.jotform.com/251698198762071?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAaeJ0qTN3qk9lUFEj4M7xp9MX9HaBYLoddDKlDbFUJghwYV8DftGaJnnX52K1w_aem_JO7e4FQrZuYMKlxLCr8JZw __ follow Out of Order with Ella on Instagram https://www.instagram.com/outoforderwithella/ __ Listen on Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/0NqdoPbwe0uoYVAoRyaAtq?si=e99af7d5d3754608 Listen on Apple Podcasts https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/out-of-order-with-ella/id1821751116 Listen on Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/01a976f1-2b67-433d-a5b5-d4bf8757fe4c/out-of-order-with-ella Listen on YouTube https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLEe3wLJotntuRWbhSG-qP6LFihkIHflD7&si=yQDU-kacfgXUzfGg __ No part of this podcast is intended to serve as or replace medical advice from a clinician. All views expressed are completely my own and independent of those of my school, employer, or people around me :)