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my ugliest eating disorder thoughts — and what they actually meant | recovered-ish with chloe cox
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Episode Description Last week's episode sparked a lot of conversation online. I posted a clip about eating disorder recovery in the ozempic era and the comments absolutely exploded — and it got me thinking about something I've been wanting to talk about for a while. The thoughts I had in my eating disorder that I'm not proud of. The ones that would probably get me canceled if I posted them without context. The ones that felt so real at the time and are so clearly the disorder talking when I look back now. In this episode I'm unpacking each of those thoughts, where they actually came from, and what they say about the disorder — not about who I am or who you are. If you've had thoughts in your eating disorder that have made you feel like a bad person, this episode is directly for you. In This Episode: * Why I posted about my ugliest ED thoughts on Instagram — and why the response floored me * The core reframe: eating disorders are not personality traits * How eating disorders distort your value system to make harmful behaviors feel moral and right * Each of the ugly thoughts I had — unpacked honestly and without shame * Feeling superior when eating less than others at the table — and what was really going on * Feeling threatened when someone else's body changed — and the identity piece underneath it * Believing hunger meant I was doing something right — and what that was really about * Believing my body said something about my character — and the identity crisis driving it * Thinking my therapist and dietician were jealous of me — and why the eating disorder needs you to believe that * Not wanting a normal body — and why "just eat normally" was never going to land * Thinking enjoying food made me weak — and the fear underneath it * The darkest thought — and why it was depression talking, not who I was * Why your eating disorder thoughts are not your identity — and what they actually are Timestamps: 0:00 Intro 1:00 What happened when I posted about the ozempic episode — and what it inspired 4:00 The core frame: eating disorders are not personality traits 6:00 How eating disorders distort your value system 8:00 Ugly thought #1: feeling superior when eating less than others 13:00 What self-control actually is — and what the eating disorder gets wrong about it 14:00 Ugly thought #2: feeling threatened when someone else's body changed 17:00 The identity and scarcity piece underneath that thought 18:00 Ugly thought #3: believing hunger meant I was doing something right 21:00 Interoception — and how the eating disorder distorts your body's cues 22:00 Ugly thought #4: believing my body said something about my character 26:00 Not knowing who I was — and trying to manufacture identity through my body 28:00 Ugly thought #5: thinking my therapist and dietician were jealous of me 30:00 Why the eating disorder needs you to believe everyone trying to help has an ulterior motive 32:00 Ugly thought #6: not wanting a normal body 35:00 Why "just eat normally" was never going to be comforting 37:00 Ugly thought #7: thinking enjoying food made me weak 40:00 Ugly thought #8: believing body change would be worse than not existing 43:00 Why that thought is depression — not character 45:00 You are not your eating disorder thoughts 47:00 Closing thoughts Quotes from This Episode: "The thing about self-control is you have to be in control of it. When you have an eating disorder, you're not in control of your self-control. That tyrant living in my brain was in control of it." "I was not actually better than anyone at the table. I was just the most afraid at the table." "The real problem was I did not know who I was — so I was trying to manufacture identity based on my body." "You are the one hearing the thoughts. You are not the thoughts."< Resources + Connect with Me: * Instagram: @recoverwithchloe [https://instagram.com/recoverwithchloe] * Recovery Skills Training: [https://recoverwithchloe.thrivecart.com/recovery-skills-training/] use code PODCAST for $57 off! * Leave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple Podcasts * Subscribe on YouTube! [https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXsP_SerXmcGNULIuPyCNyA]
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