God Didn’t Take It Away, So Now What?

Can a Christian Love God and Still Struggle With Addiction?

What does it mean when someone genuinely loves God but still struggles with addiction? In this episode, I talk honestly about something I think many Christians misunderstand. Too often, addiction gets reduced to “just stop” or “you just need more faith,” but the reality is often far more complicated. Drawing from my own experience with addiction, I talk about faith, brain chemistry, shame, obedience, withdrawal, repentance, and what it looks like to keep fighting for freedom through Christ even when the battle feels overwhelming. We wrestle with difficult questions like: Does ongoing struggle mean weak faith? Is addiction only a choice? What is the difference between struggle and rebellion? And what does biblical obedience look like when freedom does not happen overnight? If you have ever wondered why the battle still feels hard even when you genuinely love God, this conversation is for you.

I Couldn’t Follow Christ Until I Stopped Feeding This

In this episode, I share what began changing in my life when I stopped feeding the things pulling me away from Christ and started building daily obedience through Scripture, boundaries, and surrender. If you’ve struggled with temptation, addiction, loneliness, or feeling spiritually stuck, this episode is for you. I talk honestly about obedience, temptation, healing, and what it looks like to pursue Christ one decision at a time.

Why Obedience to God Can Feel Lonely

In this episode, I talk honestly about the loneliness that can come with obedience to Christ. I share personal thoughts about same-sex attraction, celibacy, ongoing struggle, and why I believe the Church needs both biblical truth and deeper compassion for believers carrying difficult crosses. This is a conversation about costly obedience, discipleship, loneliness, and continuing to follow Jesus even when the road feels heavy.

God Didn’t Take It Away, So Now What?

For years, I prayed for God to take away my same-sex attraction, and He didn’t. In this episode, I talk honestly about the confusion that caused, what Scripture actually says about ongoing struggle, and why obedience to Christ became more important than whether my feelings changed. This is a conversation about surrender, faithfulness, and trusting God even when the struggle does not disappear.

Alcohol Addiction: Drinking to Stop the Panic

In this episode, I share what alcohol addiction actually felt like when it took over my life. It reached a point where I wasn’t drinking to feel good, but simply to stop the panic and make it through the day. This is the reality of addiction that most people never see, and the dangerous place addiction can eventually lead a person.