Ep 5: Love, Growth, & the Fear of Standing Still

Ep 5: Love, Growth, & the Fear of Standing Still

In this episode, I talk about wanting a real relationship — something serious, something meaningful, something that feels like it’s building toward a future instead of wasting time. I get into the parts of my life that feel stuck… the areas where I’m not progressing the way I should be. My physical health, my discipline, my knowledge, and the way I keep telling myself I’ll “start tomorrow.” I open up about the pressure of wanting to grow into the person I know I can be, and the frustration of feeling like I’m not moving fast enough to become him. This episode is about wanting more — from myself, from my life, and from the people I let into it.

Ep 4: Patience, Fear, & the Push for Better

In this episode, I talk about why I’m scared to start my business — how self-doubt hits hardest when you don’t have the experience to trust yourself yet. I get into the idea that fear usually comes from inexperience, not from lack of ability. And how the only way past that fear is by taking the reps, one uncomfortable step at a time. I talk about trying to use my time more efficiently, stacking more chips, doing a little more each day, and chasing that 1% better mindset even when I don’t feel motivated. And I share a moment at work — someone walking into the restaurant — that reminded me I’m not happy where I am, and how sometimes the smallest moments hit the hardest. This episode is about fear, discipline, and the pressure to finally become the person I keep telling myself I can be.

Ep 3 Impulse, Insecurity, & Identity

In this episode, I talk about how impatient I am with my own life — how it feels like I’m constantly in a rush to become someone I’m not even sure I’m ready to be. I get into the idea of starting a business and how that decision sits right between excitement and fear. One part of me wants to go all in, and the other part feels like I don’t know what I’m doing at all. I open up about not liking to be alone, how the silence gets heavy, and how being by myself makes me confront thoughts I’d rather avoid. And I talk about feeling like a fraud — in my ambitions, in my confidence, and sometimes even in the version of myself I show the world. This episode is me being honest about the parts of myself I usually keep hidden.

Episode 2 — Expectation, Reality, & the Endless Loop

In this episode, I’m talking about the pressure of trying to build a life I can’t afford yet, the rat cycle we’re all stuck in, and how homeownership feels like a fantasy they keep dangling in front of us. I talk about college feeling like a scam I still have to participate in, the rise of entrepreneurship, and how that creates this endless loop of idea to idea to idea — never knowing which one to commit to. I get into the frustration of feeling like I don’t take life seriously enough, the way self-belief can backfire, and the reality that sometimes shit just happens and you’re left trying to figure it out. These are the thoughts I don’t say anywhere else.

E1: Ambition, Pain, & Purpose

In the first episode of The Raw Unfiltered Thoughts of an Angry 25 Year Old, I open up about where my ambition, pain, and purpose come from. I share my story — growing up with a young mother, an abusive father, and a lifetime of lessons that shaped my drive and my anger. It’s about how childhood trauma turns into adult pressure. How ambition can feel like both a gift and a curse. This isn’t scripted or polished. It’s me at 12:48 AM in a park, trying to make sense of my past, my pain, and the future I’m chasing. This is Ambition, Pain, & Purpose.