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šŸ™ Finding God Again: My Lent Journey After Struggles with Mental Health & Faith

5 min Ā· 31 de mar de 2025
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šŸ’¬ Life has been A LOT lately. I’ve been battling my mental health, received some bad medical news, and honestly, I’ve been pushing God away without even realizing it. If it weren’t for my husband, I probably would have stayed curled up on the couch for days. But today, I want to talk about Lent, healing, and finding my way back to God. ā˜ļø The first 3 months of the year have been rough. My mental health is slowly improving, but the weight of everything has felt unbearable. If you’ve ever felt like you’re drowning in life’s struggles, I see you. I know that feeling all too well. But I also know that fighting for yourself—no matter how small the steps—matters. For me, that fight looks like taking my meds, crying through therapy, and simply showing up. šŸ™Œ A Simple Prayer Changed Everything. This morning, my husband set a 5-minute timer and told me to just close my eyes and pray. The only words that came out were: ā€œHelp me Lord, help me Lord, help me Lord.ā€ And you know what? It helped. šŸ“µ Why I’m Giving Up Media for Lent I realized I’ve been filling my emptiness with social media, YouTube, and distractions—anything to numb the pain. But God has been calling me to fill that space with Him instead. So for the next 40 days, I’m fasting from digital media (except audiobooks and gospel music) and using this time to rebuild my faith. šŸ“– Matthew 18:12-13 reminds me that even when we wander, God searches for us. No matter how far I’ve strayed, He wants me back in His arms. And today, I’m choosing to let Him in. ✨ If you’ve been struggling too, know this—you are not alone, and your life is worth fighting for. Let’s talk about it in the comments. How has the start of your year been? šŸ‘‡šŸ¾

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