What Do I Do When I Just Want My Mama?

Choosing Myself in the Middle of My Brokenness

There comes a moment in life when you realize the person you need to save...is you. In this epidode, I open up about what it truly feels like to choose myself while still holding the weight of grief, responsibility, heartbreak, and starting over. I talk about the layers of losing both of my parents, the ache of seeing the world keep moving while I was standing still, and the silent courage it takes to walk away from what you love when love no longer feels safe. This is the kind of healing nobody prepares you for--the kind you have to breathe through one day at a time. If you've ever had to rebuild yourself in the middle of your pain... If you've ever tried to love yourself while your heart was still in pieces... If you've ever whispered, "God, I'm trying, " when everything felt heavy... This episode will speak to you. Take a deep breath. Hit play. And let's walk through this part together. Keep breathing...

What Do I Do When I Just Want My Mama?

Losing a mother is not something we "get over." We learn to carry it. Some days the weight is light. Other days it is heavy in a way only the heart understands. In this episode, I'm talking about the days where strength doesn't work. The days where the little girl inside of you steps forward...and all she wants is her mama. If you've ever found yourself missing your mother at random moments, during the holidays, or when life feels too heavy to hold alone - this one is for you. You're not alone in the missing. You're not alone in the longing. You're not alone in the love. Take a breath. Come sit with me. Keep breathing...

When the Promises Fade

A real conversation about what happens after the funeral, when the people who promised to stay close slowly disappear. I open up about the silence between siblings who are grieving the same loss but coping in different ways. This space...this mic...has become my therapy. If you know the feeling of being left to carry your grief alone, this one is for you. Keep breathing...

When Grief Changes Who You Are

Grief doesn't just break your heart - it breaks your reflection. You wake up one day and realize you don't recognize yourself anymore. The way you laugh, love, and show up in the world feels different...because you are different. In this episode, I talk about what it feels like when loss changes your identity. When you can't go back to who you were, but you're still tryig to figure out who you've become. This one is honest, heavy, and necessary. Because the truth is, grief doesn't leave you the same...and maybe it's not supposed to.

"God, Where Are You? Make this Make Sense"

In this powerful debut episode, Tomekia opens up about one of the most painful seasons of her life - losing both of her parents just nine days apart. She takes listeners into the raw silence that followed - the questions, the anger, and the moments when God felt distant. This episode is about wrestling with faith in the middle of heartbreak, when nothing makes sense and healing feels impossible. Through her story, Tomekia reminds us that even silence has purpose. This episode sets the tone for When he Silence HIts - a space where grief meets grace, and broken hearts learn to keep breathing.