Growing Up Kingdom

Feeling Like God Picked the Wrong Person? | ft. Josh Awwad

Welcome to the first guest episode of the summer on Growing Up Kingdom! In this candid conversation, Josh Awwad and I dive deep into the real reasons why so many young adults struggle with self-doubt, comparison, and feeling "behind."If you're trying to figure out your life direction, or if you've ever felt like God picked the wrong person for your purpose, this episode is exactly what you need to hear. We talk about everything from personal faith journeys and the ultimate cheat code of discipleship, to powerful historical proofs of the resurrection of Jesus Christ that will completely shift how you handle doubt.

When Scrolling Destroys Your Peace...

In this episode, we talk about the quiet pressure so many people feel: the feeling of being behind. One scroll through social media can make it seem like everyone else already has the relationships, career, confidence, purpose, and momentum you are still trying to figure out. But a lot of that pressure is not coming from God. It is coming from comparison, unrealistic timelines, and constant exposure to everyone else’s highlight reel. The truth is, you do not feel behind in life as much as you feel behind online.

When You Feel Distant From God

Feeling distant from God can be frustrating, especially when you can’t even figure out when things changed. In this episode, we talk honestly about how easy it is to slowly drift when life gets busy, distracting, and overwhelming. Most of the time, it doesn’t happen all at once. You just look up one day and realize you haven’t really been close with God lately. More than anything, this episode is a reminder that God hasn’t walked away from you, and you don’t have to earn your way back to Him.

You're Not Lazy, You're Just Wasting Time Wrong

Ever feel like you’re busy all the time but somehow not actually getting anywhere? You work, scroll your phone, hang with friends, watch videos, and before you know it another year has passed. In this episode of Growing Up Kingdom, we talk about something uncomfortable but important: how to know if you’re wasting your time as a young adult. Together we look at a few warning signs that time might be slipping by, like constantly consuming entertainment without growing, staying busy but without real purpose, or building habits that don’t move your life in the direction you want.Sometimes distraction is easier than obedience. But the good news is that direction can change at any moment. Through practical questions and biblical wisdom, this episode helps you reset your priorities and think about the kind of life your daily choices are building. Ultimately, time matters because life is short, and following Jesus gives our time real meaning, purpose, and direction. The most wasted life is not the one that watched too much Netflix. It is the one that missed the life and purpose Jesus offers.

When Prayer Feels Like Being Left on Read

Why does waiting on God sometimes feel like being left on read by heaven? In this episode, we get honest about the frustration, confusion, and quiet moments when it feels like God is silent. Starting with Psalm 22, we look at how even David and Jesus expressed that feeling of distance, and why that doesn’t make you weak in faith.We unpack what “waiting on God” actually means, why it feels so painful in an instant-everything generation, and how God often works behind the scenes long before breakthrough happens. From biblical stories like David, Joseph, and Jesus to practical ways to wait well, this episode will shift your perspective from “God is ghosting me” to “God is growing me.” If you’re in a season of silence, this conversation is for you.