Grieving the Past While Holding Space for the Future

Now what? - Navigating Life After Finding Myself Below Rock Bottom

In this episode, I share what it has been like to find myself below rock bottom. Life has beat the crap out of me. It has hit me harder than I knew it could, and I don't know exactly how to move forward yet. This is my story of trying to survive when it feels like everything is falling apart—and the small things I'm clinging to as I keep putting one foot in front of the other. It's simply about where I am right now, and what I'm holding onto while I try to survive one day at a time.

Hitting Rock Bottom — When the Financial Risk Doesn't Pay Off

Hebrews 11:1 NASB | In this episode, I share what it has been like to live on the edge of financial reality—taking risks, chasing big dreams, and learning what happens when those risks don't pay off. I reflect on what it’s been like to pursue big goals while dealing with the consequences of both success and failure—because they both come with consequences. I’m letting you in on my journey of figuring out how to move forward with both faith and wisdom while walking the tightrope between financial stewardship and quixotic dreaming.

Staying Hopeful - What Grief Blinded Me To, Hope Helped Me See

In this episode, I share how holding onto hope for the future while grieving the past opened my eyes to unexpected opportunities that were the realization of what I was hoping for. This is a reflection on what it means to stay in a posture of hope, even when things feel uncertain. Because hope isn’t passive—it shapes what we see, how we move, and what we’re open to receiving. When we stay anchored in hope, we don’t ignore pain—we simply refuse to let it close us off from what might still be unfolding. And sometimes, the very opportunities we’ve been longing for are already forming around us, waiting for us to notice.

Grieving the Past While Holding Space for the Future

This episode is about the quiet grief of missing past seasons and the fear that life may never feel that good again. I share what it looks like to sit in that uncertainty, practice gratitude, and still choose to believe that, with God, our best days are ahead of us—even when we can’t fully see it yet. Song for this episode - God is in the story by Katy Nichole

Bracing for Impact - Finding Joy Where I Expected Hopelessness and Trauma

In this episode of Living on the Edge of Reality, I share honestly about a season when I felt emotionally exhausted, traumatized, and was bracing for more pain. After a few difficult Christmas holidays, I entered the next Christmas expecting disappointment and trauma, doing everything I could to protect my heart from being hurt again. This episode isn’t a polished reflection — it’s about when trauma completely erodes hope and a desperate prayer. And yet, in the place where my only desire was for God to minimize the pain, God met me with unbridled, unparalleled joy and grace. If you’ve ever approached something “meant to be joyful” while carrying dread, this episode is for you.