"Where's That B*tch From Last Week?"

How Psychedelics Saved Our Marriage

Five years ago, Saadya had a 6.5 gram mushroom journey that changed the course of our lives. The ripple effects are still unfolding today. Over the years, we’ve shared many aspects of our healing journey—therapy, communication, attachment, intimacy, spirituality, masculinity, femininity, polarity, self-awareness, and the inner work that transformed our relationship. We’ve also spoken openly about psychedelics, plant medicine, healing, and consciousness. But if we’re going to tell the story of how we got here, then this part of the story deserves attention commensurate with the role it played. Not because psychedelics are the whole story. But because they were a critical part of the story. A critical ingredient in the healing and transformation of our marriage and our lives. In this conversation, we explore the role mushrooms, MDMA, and other psychedelic medicines played in our individual healing, our marriage, and our understanding of transformation itself. This is not an episode about convincing anyone to take psychedelics. It’s a conversation about healing. About consciousness. About marriage. About the tools available to us in this generation. And about what becomes possible when we’re willing to explore the full spectrum of support available for our growth and evolution. Together, we explore: • The mushroom journey that changed the course of our marriage • What years of inner work gave us—and what psychedelics offered that was different • The difference between insight and direct experience • Psychedelics, consciousness, and spirituality • The role these medicines played in our healing • The controversy around “shortcuts” • Why we often resist the very support that could help us most • The assumptions we carry about suffering, growth, and transformation • Why every generation may be given exactly the medicine it needs Whether psychedelics are part of your path or not, we hope this conversation expands your sense of what’s possible—not only in healing, but in marriage, consciousness, and becoming more fully yourself.

"Where's That B*tch From Last Week?"

Mushky didn’t want Saadya to go to Israel. She had real fears. Real resistance. Real reasons. He listened deeply. …and still went. This episode opens into a raw conversation on masculine and feminine polarity in marriage: what happens when a woman doesn’t give her blessing, a man still chooses himself, and something unexpected begins to shift. We also touch on: • what can happen when feminine resistance is met with grounded masculine clarity • embodied masculine presence vs. “helping” • parenting with warmth, structure, and leadership • slowing down and shifting the energy of a home • ritual, nervous system regulation, and family life A real conversation on marriage, polarity, and what can change when a man fully chooses himself.

“The way you see me makes me cry.”

What happens in a marriage when you want to be comforted—but what you actually receive is something truer? This episode moves through the difference between being soothed and being seen. We get into what it feels like to open up and not get the response you were hoping for—and how that lands. There’s something here about being witnessed. What it means to be seen clearly, without being handled. Why that can land deeper than reassurance. And why it’s not always easy to receive. We also move into a more subtle shift: what happens when a woman stops managing herself and starts speaking from inside her own experience— the oofs, the ahs, the ouches— and what that does to the energy between two people. In presence. In polarity. In attraction. In this episode: * wanting comfort—and not getting it * being soothed vs being truly seen * the moment she drops into it—the oof, the ah, the ouch * her embodiment—and what it does to him * his turn-on—and what it opens in her * presence instead of fixing * where polarity and attraction actually come from * the discomfort that comes with real growth * what healing actually feels like from the inside * why growth isn’t clean or linear * how years of inner work start to show up inside a relationship

The Pressure to Get It Just Right

A conversation about marriage, projection, pressure, perfectionism, nervous systems, and reacting to stories in our heads as if they’re reality. * the version of your partner that lives in your mind * inner criticism and fixer parts * reacting before anything is actually said * learning to come back to what’s true in front of you

"I don't feel close to you."

What happens when we’re not in the same place at the same time? When one of us wants closeness and the other needs space? Can we hold both without pulling away or rushing to repair?